I only exist as if one doesn't find a way to leave they have no choice but to continue, and suicide really is so unnecessarily difficult in this world. Existing is dreadful and tiring to me, I'm just passing the time until everything is eventually lost to death.
I want to find out what happens in my video game. I used to say my cat, but she's started to bond with others in the house and I think she'll be okay when I'm gone. Living is a chore. At some point, it will become painful enough that violent methods will seem more reasonable than continuing with this exercise in futility.
mainly cause I'm worried that if I attempt I'll fail and end up with some kind of bad brain damage. And also cause Im scared of it being really painful which is quite ironic knowing that Im in pain pretty much everyday regardless.
Im so glad and happy for you guys replying it. For first time on my life, I don't feel a burden showing my real thoughs about the life.
Guess this forum is one of the things that im alive for.. I want to talk and know what you guys are feeling, maybe change the mind or.. supporting moments before doing ctb.
Again, my sincere gratitude for those who all replied!
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