longtime_lurker_123
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- Sep 6, 2024
- 8
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for taking up space that was never meant for me. For standing in line beside you. For sitting next to you on the train. For speaking words that felt too heavy in your language. I tried to make myself smaller, quieter, easier to ignore. But no matter how much I bent, I was always too much.
I worked harder than I had strength for. Smiled through words that cut. I told myself it would get better, that if I proved I belonged, one day I actually would. But I see it now—I was only ever a guest in a place that was never mine. A shadow moving through your world, unnoticed until I became an inconvenience.
So I will go. Maybe from here, maybe from this world itself—I haven't decided yet. But I will disappear, just as you always wished I would. Not in anger. Not even in sadness anymore. Just… tired.
I never wanted to be loved. I only wanted to exist without being hated for it.
- Someone You Never Saw
I'm sorry for taking up space that was never meant for me. For standing in line beside you. For sitting next to you on the train. For speaking words that felt too heavy in your language. I tried to make myself smaller, quieter, easier to ignore. But no matter how much I bent, I was always too much.
I worked harder than I had strength for. Smiled through words that cut. I told myself it would get better, that if I proved I belonged, one day I actually would. But I see it now—I was only ever a guest in a place that was never mine. A shadow moving through your world, unnoticed until I became an inconvenience.
So I will go. Maybe from here, maybe from this world itself—I haven't decided yet. But I will disappear, just as you always wished I would. Not in anger. Not even in sadness anymore. Just… tired.
I never wanted to be loved. I only wanted to exist without being hated for it.
- Someone You Never Saw