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stinkbug

stinkbug

God speaks to me, I am his sheep
May 13, 2025
7
no one believes me but there's a shadow following me. The shadow won't let me die. It won't let me die. It wouldn't let me hang myself. My family is lying to me. It's everywhere. It won't let me get pills. It's in the walls. The cameras won't let me do it either. God is punishing me for being suicidal. It won't shut up. My family is conspiring against me with it. The shadow knows my weaknesses and fears. I need a way to die, please, fast, please. I need the shadow to stop following me. It won't end unless I end please I'm begging someone
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,648
sounds like a mental breakdown to me
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,592
sounds like a mental breakdown to me
Or just made up by some kid with nothing better to do in order to just amuse themselves and get a rise out of people here.
 
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evanescent_eva

evanescent_eva

valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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no one believes me but there's a shadow following me. The shadow won't let me die. It won't let me die. It wouldn't let me hang myself. My family is lying to me. It's everywhere. It won't let me get pills. It's in the walls. The cameras won't let me do it either. God is punishing me for being suicidal. It won't shut up. My family is conspiring against me with it. The shadow knows my weaknesses and fears. I need a way to die, please, fast, please. I need the shadow to stop following me. It won't end unless I end please I'm begging someone

I believe you. I'm schizophrenic and this sounds eerily familiar. Link and link to show that this does happen in psychosis. Importantly, I'm *not* saying that your shadow isn't real (links might suggest they aren't but I think it's more complicated than that). But if your goal is to be free of the shadow, there are certain antipsychotic medications that may help you perceive your shadow less frequently. It may be worth seeing a psychiatrist, specifically about your shadow? If that's not possible - or if that doesn't feel right to you - then I'm genuinely so sorry. It's terrifying being followed around by shadows.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
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I am very sorry for your situation

sending you hugs and love 🫂❤️
 
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telekon

telekon

Arcanist
Feb 5, 2025
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Or just made up by some kid with nothing better to do in order to just amuse themselves and get a rise out of people here.
No, I've met these people in real life. Could be real.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
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No, I've met these people in real life. Could be real.
Honestly, I know it could be real, but there have been "kids" who come through here every once in a while and post stuff like this just to fuck with us.
 
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iw2begone

iw2begone

Cryptid
Mar 5, 2025
81
Honestly, I know it could be real, but there have been "kids" who come through here every once in a while and post stuff like this just to fuck with us.
better to treat all cases as real tbh, the alternative is you sometimes treat a real one as fake, and that can be bad
 
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bhaloo

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Jan 19, 2025
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I have a shadow too it's called Meth. It won't let me live but I live for it.
 
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