The "reason"

[Coolenv]

I don't buy that bullshit that everything we are going through are for a reason, or that every bad thing has some sort of meaning hidden to teach us a lesson, sometimes im literally doing my best and then something bad happens that was totally out of my control, and i get fucked, last week, something just broke in my house, totally out of my control, was not even close to the thing, got blamed for, got screamed at, and money had to go to fix it, this is just one of many,got sick one weekend where my friend was going to talk to me about a job, my other friend ended up getting it,got a gig, got some money, had to spend to fix my shit, that just decided to break, but so many things happen that are out of my control,just to fuck with me, i am pretty close to the point where im getting tired, where im going to CTB.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand feeling so tired of it all, it's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tormented and it's so dreadful to me how it can easily get way more unbearable at any moment. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[HollowCreek]

I don't buy that bullshit that everything we are going through are for a reason, or that every bad thing has some sort of meaning hidden to teach us a lesson, sometimes im literally doing my best and then something bad happens that was totally out of my control, and i get fucked, last week, something just broke in my house, totally out of my control, was not even close to the thing, got blamed for, got screamed at, and money had to go to fix it, this is just one of many,got sick one weekend where my friend was going to talk to me about a job, my other friend ended up getting it,got a gig, got some money, had to spend to fix my shit, that just decided to break, but so many things happen that are out of my control,just to fuck with me, i am pretty close to the point where im getting tired, where im going to CTB.

Yeah, bad things don't happen for a reason. It's nonsense. Karma doesn't exist. It sounds like you're really affected by the things that happen. For clarity, it sounds like things that other people would only be mildly annoyed about (except the yelling- that sucks). This shit happens to everyone. You're not targeted by the universe. Having said that- you feel what you feel. I cry over bs all the time that other people brush off. I get it. It sucks, you don't want to deal with it, you shouldn't have to. People have coping mechanisms to deal with this stuff that all kinda boil down to lying to themselves so, do what you gotta do