Story the reason why i am going to ctb

[ineedtogetout]

I have been suffering from multiple chronic illness, which make me suffer every second that im awake, and the evil doctors dont do the bare minimum to help me, first of all i suffer from uars, which isnt recognised by the public healthcare system and i got endless gaslighting from stupid evil doctors about it, so i decided to treat myself and ordered bipap from my own money which was expensive, which now they stuck it in customs! so in one hand stupid evil doctors dont wanna do the bare minimum to help you and in the second hand i cant even self treat myself, secondly im losing my vision, i have progressive vision loss that became very bad lately, but in the point of the stupid evil doctors they dont even want to test me and try to see whats going on, when i went to a neuroopthamologist the evil bitch said "its not m y field" so she wont need to help me and then i went to a eye doctor that told me that "checking my eyes would be completely useless" and only after i insisted i got the most basic eye exam with dialation, in the end of the day i can get help from this satanic people and i left to suffer every day and thats my reason to ctb, im sorry to do it to my parents and espcially while my dad is not in my country currently and he would have to fly all the way here but i really dont have anything to look for in this satanic demonic world

 

[darksouls]

I am very sorry for your situation

hope you find relief from suffering

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds so dreadful and horrible, I'm sorry you have to suffer, it's so cruel to me how there's all this terrible pain and suffering in existing, I wish you the best.