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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Digital Diary🦋
Dec 26, 2024
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Sometimes when I'm sleeping and dreaming I feel like I got sent to heaven and had to come back to this Earth. I don't know how to explain how euphoric sleep feels for me, my dead boyfriend visits me a lot in dreams. I am also a lucid dreamer so I can be aware that I'm having a dream while I'm sleeping.

Feels like my soul got sent to heaven and back, and my boyfriend takes me up there with him so that I can feel the same paradise that he is in. I can't wait until the day that I can actually be reunited with him again and be at peace and be happy. I actually don't know if it's heaven, because I am not religious but spiritual, I think it's somewhere in the spiritual realm, probably beyond the sky, but I'm just saying heaven as a way to describe how it feels.

I'd rather be where he is, I'm tired of being on this Earth. Even though I'm only 22 my soul feels old and tired and weary. I long to go back home, hopefully soon!
 
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EmptyBottle

EmptyBottle

2036-01-10T08
Apr 10, 2025
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Lucid dreaming is awesome. I had a faint awareness of dreaming, decided to watch and see, before probably forgetting (roughly when I found a corridor has changed path a bit). I logged the dream mere minutes after waking, going from dot points to a massive story in up to 25 mins!

Long dream ahead, the | symbols were auto generated by my dream logging page:

| Enter with %m into some uni thing, after arriving in the cafeteria on level 3, %m leaves and I go to a room and stay for a bit. Not sure if I have some sushi (served in metal buffet trays), tho I then try to leave, and the doors are locked, the emergency exit is just a fireproof bunker with a glass viewing frame, and (idk why I push) backtracking and pushing the red and white fire button to escape leads to %m getting arrested, after I escape for the time being.

| [Keep in mind after respawn, no one wants to fully leave without permission case they get in trouble.]

| Respawn in the building, this time it is evening, and I'm called to %y room, she and someone rest under covers in a warm, 25C room, according to red LEDs from some heat unit. Not sure why they set the thermostat that high. | Going back to my room, I was a bit warm at 22C, sleeping without a blanket, and wearing light grey T shirt, temp became okish without blanket. I somehow managed to see a vision in the night, viewpoint floating up, see how bunkers were planned for level 4 of the building, and a brief discussion of the court where a blonde hair woman talks, and news about how the round blue building was to be shut down before the 4th level could be built.

| Temps did fall in the night though, but probably not to 12C as the thermostat stated (more like 18C). I get up and explore, and see sun streaming into the place, a bit warm in the corridor, but not as warm as %y's room. I head to the showers and push the metal start button, and put my arm into it to check the temperature. Slightly hotter than what I would set it, I guess 0.5c warmer (tho probably 1-1.5C warmer), and after 20 seconds it shuts off automatically. A plastic etched label says that it has a demo mode on first press, and may also flush stale water as needed. I close the white curtain and leave the white and silver bathroom.

As I enter my room %htlr strikes me with his arm, I say sorry (to avoid getting struck again) and he says he was just testing reaction times, so people are prepared. I somehow want to so the test again, and don't get struck but also don't always get too close, before swiping the striking hand away. Think he talks a bit and leavss, then %d arrives, wearing blue and we rest together for a bit. Not too long after, I'm called to dispose of yellow food waste, and, unable to find a bin in the corridor, place the handful into a green bucket filled with water and containing a small trace of debris. A female worker questions why, and I say that the bucket already had stuff, and maybe mention the lack of bins. I wash my hands(?) and return, think I even find a pink diary in my room, as well as some oklahoma postcards (with a w), think yellow and orange gradient with black text.

I hide it away since the diary contains criticism, not sure when I'd be out though. %htlr doesn't notice it when he pops around, also I think of the 2nd intermediary (a stage before ww2), and how it was predicted that it would lead to war, but it didn't, and by surprise, the 3rd int. lead to the war. | In the evening, me and some others clean up lots of paper price tags, something was $4.37 or similar, and I returned them to the store owner, who took it and said they weren't needed, then collected more and shared some with %so%, before we went back to the 'hotel' to show %htlr%, tho I don't think we fully made it past the entrance.

| At some point, I log the dream within the dream, creating multiple paragraphs of text (and even on waking, it takes a moment to realise I didn't log) | See shiny video with good beat, and hear a persuasive male voice mention that 'Companies are coming to fortnite to license memes'. All while simple purple and blue rounded character dances in a similar gradient background, due to shadow effects, the happy coinfaced character pops out. A slide or cut to the video then shows Some character poses as preg Taylor Swift in 2000s style reddish outfit, and sings ok-ish "it's me, hi, I'm the problem it's me", and dream fades.

Note: Slept from 2:50am to 11:35am, could have slept 1h earlier if I turned off wifi on phone. Temp ok, slightly high at start, slightly low in morning.
 
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Zoro1029

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Mar 15, 2025
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Ive read that dreaming can reflect what we are searching for the most. After HS i stopped having a close friend group.

In my dreams I mostly seem to have dreams that I have friends or at school again. I wish I couldve been more social after college because now I just have family who I dont hate but also dont love either. I think having friends would have eased the depression a lot and it hurts sometimes waking up from a dream where I'm having fun with friends I dont have
 
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LittleMagician

LittleMagician

Experienced
Apr 17, 2025
224
Sometimes when I'm sleeping and dreaming I feel like I got sent to heaven and had to come back to this Earth. I don't know how to explain how euphoric sleep feels for me, my dead boyfriend visits me a lot in dreams. I am also a lucid dreamer so I can be aware that I'm having a dream while I'm sleeping.

Feels like my soul got sent to heaven and back, and my boyfriend takes me up there with him so that I can feel the same paradise that he is in. I can't wait until the day that I can actually be reunited with him again and be at peace and be happy. I actually don't know if it's heaven, because I am not religious but spiritual, I think it's somewhere in the spiritual realm, probably beyond the sky, but I'm just saying heaven as a way to describe how it feels.

I'd rather be where he is, I'm tired of being on this Earth. Even though I'm only 22 my soul feels old and tired and weary. I long to go back home, hopefully soon!
Sleeping and eating for sure
 
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dontletthembribeyou

autistic girlfailure
Mar 4, 2025
148
I love dreaming because I don't really feel pain in them in contrast to my waking life where i'm constantly sore and tired and nauseous
 
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Britney Spears

Britney Spears

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
542
When we sleep, I think it's the closest thing to death. Our conscious mind fades away without us even realizing it. We don't know anything about what's happening around us while we're asleep, so we shouldn't fear death. The unconscious mind is what creates our dreams.❤️‍🩹
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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Sleeping is like being dead without the commitment <3
 
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