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Geodude77

Geodude77

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Mar 23, 2020
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I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

long time sunshine
Jun 14, 2024
128
I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.
I personally have a sense that there's something better than this life waiting for me on the other side. I could be wrong, but seeing as we'll be going there at some point regardless (barring the invention of an immortality pill, but that doesn't sound likely), I don't think it really matters if we die in 50 seconds or 50 years.
 
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ARW3N

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Dec 25, 2019
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I doubt there's anything at all on the other side.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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There is no other side. It's just permanent non existence
 
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agony1996

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Jul 8, 2024
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I personally have a sense that there's something better than this life waiting for me on the other side. I could be wrong, but seeing as we'll be going there at some point regardless (barring the invention of an immortality pill, but that doesn't sound likely), I don't think it really matters if we die in 50 seconds or 50 years.
I think it does matter whether it's now or in 50 years because speaking for myself, my emotional pain can't bear one more day in this life much less 50 years.
I hope you're right and there is something better on the other side waiting for us
 
Nikitatos

Nikitatos

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Apr 10, 2024
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I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.
If you believe the Bible, that's not really how it works. By Biblical standards, virtually no one is going to Heaven.

I know many people who lived fantastic lives. They did everything right. They worked hard. They donated their time and money to charity. They went to church. They were all around good people. Then, they got struck with terrible diseases as they got older. They completely renounced their faith in God (Christians always use the Book of Job to justify God beating the crap out of good people). Then, they died.

So, they go to hell despite living great lives. If you go by the word of the Bible, like .00001% of humans are going to Heaven.

Whatever is next, you'll be in good company.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

long time sunshine
Jun 14, 2024
128
I think it does matter whether it's now or in 50 years because speaking for myself, my emotional pain can't bear one more day in this life much less 50 years.
I hope you're right and there is something better on the other side waiting for us
Oh, no, I meant like- regarding whatever comes after, we'll be going to the same place eventually, and dying now or in fifty years won't impact what comes after. If it didn't matter when I died I wouldn't be CTBing!

I hope so too.
 
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agony1996

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Jul 8, 2024
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Oh, no, I meant like- regarding whatever comes after, we'll be going to the same place eventually, and dying now or in fifty years won't impact what comes after. If it didn't matter when I died I wouldn't be CTBing!

I hope so too.
Oh sorry I misunderstood. Yeah that makes sense. Let's hope there is something better on the other side,🙏I mean it can't be any worse than what we're experiencing now.
 
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just cant

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Jul 11, 2024
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I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.
Anywhere has to be better than here. I'd prefer eternal darkness over repeating this life till lesson is learnt or if you want to go to heaven then why not start doing good deeds? It has to be about the intention right? If your heart is kind then that has to count for something.
 
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sugarb

sugarb

long time sunshine
Jun 14, 2024
128
Oh sorry I misunderstood. Yeah that makes sense. Let's hope there is something better on the other side,🙏I mean it can't be any worse than what we're experiencing now.
No worries!
I think it'll be nice ^^
 
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DesolateSouls

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Jun 29, 2022
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There is nothing on the other side. Everything that we are is biological and when we die our biology shuts down. We simply don't exist for the rest of eternity.
 
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1980

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Jul 15, 2024
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I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.
There is an ancient Toltec fable that say this is hell, that we are all currently in hell, and what awaits us after "life" is tat about to "awakening."

Personally I've been dead twice, and while my consciousness remained in my body, I did not observe anything but darkness.

This probably doesn't help.
 
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