Venting The only thing keeping me from ending it all is that I don’t know what is on the other side or what will happen on the other side

[Geodude77]

I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.

 

[sugarb]

I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.

I personally have a sense that there's something better than this life waiting for me on the other side. I could be wrong, but seeing as we'll be going there at some point regardless (barring the invention of an immortality pill, but that doesn't sound likely), I don't think it really matters if we die in 50 seconds or 50 years.

 

[ARW3N]

I doubt there's anything at all on the other side.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

There is no other side. It's just permanent non existence

 

[agony1996]

I personally have a sense that there's something better than this life waiting for me on the other side. I could be wrong, but seeing as we'll be going there at some point regardless (barring the invention of an immortality pill, but that doesn't sound likely), I don't think it really matters if we die in 50 seconds or 50 years.

I think it does matter whether it's now or in 50 years because speaking for myself, my emotional pain can't bear one more day in this life much less 50 years.
I hope you're right and there is something better on the other side waiting for us

 

[Timothy7dff]

I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.

If you believe the Bible, that's not really how it works. By Biblical standards, virtually no one is going to Heaven.

I know many people who lived fantastic lives. They did everything right. They worked hard. They donated their time and money to charity. They went to church. They were all around good people. Then, they got struck with terrible diseases as they got older. They completely renounced their faith in God (Christians always use the Book of Job to justify God beating the crap out of good people). Then, they died.

So, they go to hell despite living great lives. If you go by the word of the Bible, like .00001% of humans are going to Heaven.

Whatever is next, you'll be in good company.

 

[sugarb]

I think it does matter whether it's now or in 50 years because speaking for myself, my emotional pain can't bear one more day in this life much less 50 years.
I hope you're right and there is something better on the other side waiting for us

Oh, no, I meant like- regarding whatever comes after, we'll be going to the same place eventually, and dying now or in fifty years won't impact what comes after. If it didn't matter when I died I wouldn't be CTBing!

I hope so too.

 

[agony1996]

Oh, no, I meant like- regarding whatever comes after, we'll be going to the same place eventually, and dying now or in fifty years won't impact what comes after. If it didn't matter when I died I wouldn't be CTBing!

I hope so too.

Oh sorry I misunderstood. Yeah that makes sense. Let's hope there is something better on the other side,I mean it can't be any worse than what we're experiencing now.

 

[just cant]

I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.

Anywhere has to be better than here. I'd prefer eternal darkness over repeating this life till lesson is learnt or if you want to go to heaven then why not start doing good deeds? It has to be about the intention right? If your heart is kind then that has to count for something.

 

[sugarb]

Oh sorry I misunderstood. Yeah that makes sense. Let's hope there is something better on the other side,I mean it can't be any worse than what we're experiencing now.

No worries!
I think it'll be nice ^^

 

[DesolateSouls]

There is nothing on the other side. Everything that we are is biological and when we die our biology shuts down. We simply don't exist for the rest of eternity.

 

[Edpal247]

There is nothing there.imo. Be well.

 

[1980]

I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.

There is an ancient Toltec fable that say this is hell, that we are all currently in hell, and what awaits us after "life" is tat about to "awakening."

Personally I've been dead twice, and while my consciousness remained in my body, I did not observe anything but darkness.

This probably doesn't help.

 

[KANCEL]

I hate my life rn. It seems so incredibly pointless. I thought I could just push forward and things would eventually work out but they don't. Something always stands in the way of my happiness. Only thing stopping me from killing myself is 1. I don't have access to a quick and/or painless way to end my life and 2. I don't know what's on the other side. If it's eternal darkness then I have every reason to fear death. If it's heaven or hell, I don't know if I have done enough good deeds to go into heaven.

I wouldn't worry about the afterlife part too much. There is no good evidence to believe any of the religions of the world are true.
Furthermore, none of the religions of the world are worthy of worship. All full of hypocritical contradictions.

 

[Draconis]

It does not matter void or life after death you suffering will be gone i fear what happens if you chose to continue....the void will be heaven over this hell and pain...you was in the void before you was born you did not suffer then...

 

[MettleSpirit41]

I feel that there is or there should be something that is greater than whatever we are in now, but at the same time, if we look at it logically I think there is eternal oblivion after we die. When brain death occurs, all brain function ceases, leading to a state of nothingness or non-existence. So if we look at it, its a "win-win" situation for us in both the outcomes. It is good if there is a place better than this where we can go, where we have a higher consciousness, and if there is oblivion then whatever conflicting feelings we are having right now won't be ours to feel anymore, as we would be in a state of nothingness, we would have ceased existing.