fkyou
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- Oct 1, 2022
- 351
The only reason I want to ctb is because I think this is as best as my life can get everything after this is downhill so for me I'd rather stop it here than live an undesirable future
Dejected 55
Enlightened
- May 7, 2025
- 1,866
This is what I keep telling people. IF I somehow manage to be the best I can be and set right all the things I am capable of setting right... the best I can hope to achieve is an existence where I work and earn enough to pay bills so I can come home to be alone each day and eat and watch TV and sleep for the next work day to repeat everything. I can't have a life or happiness or even contentment. All I can do is exist at best. I've done that for most of my life, and it just isn't enough... and either nobody understands or nobody wants to understand.
And I ask "what is the point" and I get nonsense platitude responses from anyone within earshot.
And I ask "what is the point" and I get nonsense platitude responses from anyone within earshot.
vittra213
Member
- Nov 20, 2025
- 11
i understand how you feel, but if this is why then i think you should give life a chance. if you ctb now then you'll never know if your life will get better because you can't see the future. your life might be at its best right NOW but you don't know how the future is. i hope you'll figure things out. take care
I understand. I don't see making meaningful connections in the future either. For us and many here, there is no point.
shadow_sunset
Pro lifer detected, opinion rejected.
- Jul 2, 2024
- 18
I get you, that's how I feel too. People tell me I should be so happy and stuff because later life won't be like this and they mean like it will be bad so I'm like great from bad to worse. It's funny how the brain will latch onto hope or something once it starts feeling hopeless, like it says imagine it gets even a tiny bit better, even though realistically and logically your brain knows that hasn't happened nor will it ever, it just wants you to stay alive so bad.
When I tell this kind of stuff to ChatGPT it tells me that it is my depression speaking and I'm not thinking rationally.
Dejected 55
Enlightened
- May 7, 2025
- 1,866
It can, and often does get worse too... you'll never know how much worse it could get either. You can't see the future, so why do you believe a fantasy of "it gets better" is more realistic than assuming it will continue to get worse just like it historically has? At least I or those like me have empirical evidence that things get worse. The notion that it "gets better" is pure wishful thinking.
