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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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I can't believe someone apparently made their own SN, took it with too much water, then took the wrong stuff, and posted a thread saying SN failed.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I can't believe someone apparently made their own SN, took it with too much water, then took the wrong stuff, and posted a thread saying SN failed.
I don't believe half these people honestly.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Took my meds. May hold off on the vinegar. I don't know if my stomach can handle it today.
Make coffee.
shower and brush teeth
Clean cat dishes and box
Doctors appointment
Monitor @MysticPerception

See how I feel when I get home. There is always real job work.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I can't believe someone apparently made their own SN, took it with too much water, then took the wrong stuff, and posted a thread saying SN failed.
They didn't even make SN. They used the wrong ingredients. Took too much water and tried to finish with NitrAte. So yea... :pfff:
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
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Supposed to call office to have them look for them. I've asked for help so much with these kids though I know my jobs on the line. Hopefully I can make it til spring break im April and finally just pull the plug
Jeez, that's not fair at all. I'm sorry. I hope you can too, I'm here for you if you ever need/want someone to talk to.


They didn't even make SN. They used the wrong ingredients. Took too much water and tried to finish with NitrAte. So yea... :pfff:
I can't believe someone apparently made their own SN, took it with too much water, then took the wrong stuff, and posted a thread saying SN failed.
I saw, now that just sounds like a bad time. Some people are very hard to understand.
Took my meds. May hold off on the vinegar. I don't know if my stomach can handle it today.
Make coffee.
shower and brush teeth
Clean cat dishes and box
Doctors appointment
Monitor @MysticPerception

See how I feel when I get home. There is always real job work.
Good morning!
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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I saw, now that just sounds like a bad time. Some people are very hard to understand.

Good morning!

I understand the desperation and all. But it's definitely something I would never halfheartedly rush.
 
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BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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Crap! Now I've been up for an hour or two and I'm getting tired and now everyone else is getting up! LOL! I may have to lie down and just close my eyes. Actually I doubt I'll go to sleep anyway even though I'm tired because I'm going to keep waking up every so often and checking my phone to see if @MysticPerception has shown up yet.

I hate it every time I wake up and I get jerked back into my body or back into consciousness or whatever the hell it is. All I know is it feels horrible every time it happens.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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Crap! Now I've been up for an hour or two and I'm getting tired and now everyone else is getting up! LOL! I may have to lie down and just close my eyes. Actually I doubt I'll go to sleep anyway even though I'm tired because I'm going to keep waking up every so often and checking my phone to see if @MysticPerception has shown up yet.

I hate it every time I wake up and I get jerked back into my body or back into consciousness or whatever the hell it is. All I know is it feels horrible every time it happens.

I always end up doing that full body jerk right before I fully fall asleep. Sometimes it pisses me off because it wakes me back up.

I've been keeping an eye out for Mystic too.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
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I understand the desperation and all. But it's definitely something I would never halfheartedly rush.
Yeah, I do too but could also never rush it. I could understand taking a chance with not having an AE, but to not have the single most important item needed. It's just too risky.

Crap! Now I've been up for an hour or two and I'm getting tired and now everyone else is getting up! LOL! I may have to lie down and just close my eyes. Actually I doubt I'll go to sleep anyway even though I'm tired because I'm going to keep waking up every so often and checking my phone to see if @MysticPerception has shown up yet.

I hate it every time I wake up and I get jerked back into my body or back into consciousness or whatever the hell it is. All I know is it feels horrible every time it happens.

It wouldn't hurt to get some more rest, or at least try.

I just got picked up and am heading to work. I am going to be checking in often (or as much as I can). I have anywhere from 30 minutes to 1.5 hours still I start so I'm here still.
 
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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
I can't believe someone apparently made their own SN, took it with too much water, then took the wrong stuff, and posted a thread saying SN failed.

Ridiculous, isn't it?

I read a post recently where someone tried to use inert gas/exit bag, except didn't have a regulator for their cylinder, and didn't have the exit bag.....they basically followed none of the instructions and complained that it failed.
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i think mystic said the earliest she might be back to write is 11:00 ish? unless she oversleeps til after noon and misses her window to CTB.
 
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BooGirl

BooGirl

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Jan 10, 2020
754
Wait, is mystic a boy or a girl? I seem to recall them telling me that they're a boy, but I might be wrong.
 
Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Ridiculous, isn't it?

I read a post recently where someone tried to use inert gas/exit bag, except didn't have a regulator for their cylinder, and didn't have the exit bag.....they basically followed none of the instructions and complained that it failed.
The exit bag was appealing to me at one point. But there's too many variables and too much work involved. I'd probably spend months getting it perfect then just end up ripping the bag off accidentally when I'd go to use it.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Wait, is mystic a boy or a girl? I seem to recall them telling me that they're a boy, but I might be wrong.
It's a she. ;)
Ridiculous, isn't it?

I read a post recently where someone tried to use inert gas/exit bag, except didn't have a regulator for their cylinder, and didn't have the exit bag.....they basically followed none of the instructions and complained that it failed.
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i think mystic said the earliest she might be back to write is 11:00 ish? unless she oversleeps til after noon and misses her window to CTB.
She will. Temporary meltdown.
 
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BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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I honestly hope that's the case and the rest helps her snap out of it.
Me too. I was really hoping her sister leaving would relieve some of the stress she's been feeling. You know how exhausting it is when you have extra family members in the house, especially if they have noisy kids that you have to deal with, which it sounds like her sister did. And then she had all these extra chores to do on top of going to work. I can understand how it all got to be too much for her. I was just hoping that her sister leaving would be enough to calm some of that down and give her a chance to rest and regroup.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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I honestly hope that's the case and the rest helps her snap out of it.
My fault. Meltdown when I tried to sleep. She will sleep through it. She's cycling. We have all been there.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
972
I really hope she doesn't go through with it, even if that is a little selfish of me. I think she should try to get help.
 
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Backwood_tilt

UnEnlightened
Dec 27, 2019
889
The exit bag was appealing to me at one point. But there's too many variables and too much work involved. I'd probably spend months getting it perfect then just end up ripping the bag off accidentally when I'd go to use it.

I know i bitch about getting all the materials occasionally in this thread but, as i'm nearly done, it actually turned out to be a lot more simple than even I had originally planned for.

It sounds complicated, but SS users like Pane/TiredHorse/FightingSioux/Fister have made it so simple to figure.
 
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BooGirl

BooGirl

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Jan 10, 2020
754
I already had a class cancelled last week for today, and now I just learnt that my other class was cancelled too. So, free day. I would go out for lunch with my mom, but I don't wanna eat lunch anymore...
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Oct 30, 2019
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I know i bitch about getting all the materials occasionally in this thread but, as i'm nearly done, it actually turned out to be a lot more simple than even I had originally planned for.

It sounds complicated, but SS users like Pane/TiredHorse/FightingSioux/Fister have made it so simple to figure.
Yea I'm sure there are all sorts of guides for it now. I'd originally looked into it years ago. Back when the science of the method just wasn't there yet and the results people were having were very mixed.
 
Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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I do have to get out of bed and shower. It won't be pretty if I go for boob squeeze without a shower lol.
 
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Backwood_tilt

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Dec 27, 2019
889
I really hope she doesn't go through with it, even if that is a little selfish of me. I think she should try to get help.

i went back to reread what she said about this, and it just broke me. she speaks with such emotional clarity, vividly describing this turmoil. I think i've been depersonalizing to some degree all morning since i first read her post.

MysticPerception said:
I was given pills and offered therapy. I turned down the therapy and didn't take the pills. I realize I didn't really give the system a chance to even try and help me. So if I get caught at least I proved it's not just minor depression take me seriously please and if I wake up in a hospital I'm going to sincerely ask for help because I probably need it. I want to succeed and I want to fail.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

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Jun 5, 2019
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i went back to reread what she said about this, and it just broke me. she speaks with such emotional clarity, vividly describing this turmoil. I think i've been in depersonalizing to some degree all morning since i first read her post.

It's all so heartbreaking, I just wish I could help her in some way.
 
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BlueWidow

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Oct 6, 2019
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I already had a class cancelled last week for today, and now I just learnt that my other class was cancelled too. So, free day. I would go out for lunch with my mom, but I don't wanna eat lunch anymore...
Would it be worth it to eat lunch just so you could spend time with your mom?

If you're worried about calories or something, you could get a salad or just an appetizer.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

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Apr 28, 2019
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i went back to reread what she said about this, and it just broke me. she speaks with such emotional clarity, vividly describing this turmoil. I think i've been depersonalizing to some degree all morning since i first read her post.
This is her cycle. I understand what she is going through....
It's all so heartbreaking, I just wish I could help her in some way.
The best thing is be supportive, let her vent, and talk her through working out what she wants. Like when I came here screaming after my toilet incident. We have all been in meltdown mode.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
A very somber tone has been set right now.
 
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BooGirl

BooGirl

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Jan 10, 2020
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Would it be worth it to eat lunch just so you could spend time with your mom?

If you're worried about calories or something, you could get a salad or just an appetizer.
I've decided I just won't eat breakfast, and then have an early lunch :happy:
 
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Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Work had better not want or expect me to be in a meeting meant for dispatchers when I"m in IT... since the IT part has nothing to do with a 41 PAGE document they're going to have read to them
A very somber tone has been set right now.
Other than the obvious thread?

At work and multitasking.
 
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