The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Carina]

UGH... half second from front desk person not touching the package... ugh... oh well, she only briefly touched it... and I came up... so it's not like she 'touched it touched it' or 'delivered it' or 'saw it' so she won't think anything of it

 

[Morphinekiss]

Ughhh shoot my brain. Migraine, need to eat, stupid memorial service tonight that I'm thinking of boycotting because he wouldn't want a damn memorial service. Migraine migraine migraine.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Ughhh shoot my brain. Migraine, need to eat, stupid memorial service tonight that I'm thinking of boycotting because he wouldn't want a damn memorial service. Migraine migraine migraine.

Russian roulette then? It's only fair!

 

[Jean4]

Got s

I am from India so I do spicy only lol

you can have my spicy ;)

 

[Morphinekiss]

Russian roulette then? It's only fair!

I'm not that lucky. The gun would malfunction somehow and I'd be like crap!

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Hey all. Crashing hard again this AM. Should probably slow down on the drinking today.

Hope everyone is well.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm not that lucky. The gun would malfunction somehow and I'd be like crap!

If there was no bad luck I'd have no luck at all so I can relate. That's why we'll just have to play with a grenade or something.

 

[Carina]

I'm not that lucky. The gun would malfunction somehow and I'd be like crap!

Guns are too risky for me... plus they have the thing of a "suicide by gun with 2 gun shots" being semi common....

If there was no bad luck I'd have no luck at all so I can relate. That's why we'll just have to play with a grenade or something.

Nuclear missle.... maybe 50...

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Guns are too risky for me... plus they have the thing of a "suicide by gun with 2 gun shots" being semi common....

Nuclear missle.... maybe 50...

Two words. Shotgun slug. That's always been in my bag of tricks.

 

[Squiddy]

Played my song :) some people liked it which was great

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Played my song :) some people liked it which was great

I hated it! Haha joking, what song?

 

[Carina]

Two words. Shotgun slug. That's always been in my bag of tricks.

I've also kind of wanted a funeral... so there's that
Figured that way people could share tons of lies and make themselves feel good.... and maybe if it was possible I could haunt them and maybe take some of them out.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I've also kind of wanted a funeral... so there's that

You can still have a funeral. You never said open casket. An if so have you seen Hollywood CGI nowadays!?

 

[Carina]

You can still have a funeral. You never said open casket. An if so have you seen Hollywood CGI nowadays!?

OK, well I want cremated... really so there's that... casket is pointless unless it's reusable. No one would show up.... ok take that back... a lot would. More would 'care' than I think. But most would be like 'lies' but still... I'd try to take them all our if I could. it'd be fun heehee.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I stole my roommates weed and liqour. How long before you think he notices? If he wants to fight over it I'll have the alcohol working in my favor!

 

[Squiddy]

I hated it! Haha joking, what song?

A Reason to Fight by Disturbed

 

[BlueWidow]

Played my song :) some people liked it which was great

Yay! So happy they played your song.

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Hey everyone,

I feel like I've been run over by a train. That's instead of having actually been run over by a train which would've been a lot better.

Hope everyone else is doing well though, or as well as is possible.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I was thinking about seeing a speech language pathologist for my articulation issues. I think I have expressive language disorder. For the incompetence issue, there's so many things I don't know how to do such as taxes, changing a tire, how to keep a job, how to buy a house or apartment etc. Just things like that plus more

Just some thoughts that might help you put things in perspective:
1.The government deliberately makes taxes hard to do. This increases the money they make. DIY tax software is awesome!
2. You can learn to change a tire on YT. Practice before you need to do it for realz. This is a good thing to do when you feel bored.
3. You've been in college. Any jobs you've had up until now probably haven't been "keepers". The labour market has changed to the point that your generation has very little chance of "keeping a job". You have been sold this "myth" that worthwhile people get and keep a job for their entire working life. That ship sailed in the 1970's. Thanks, Boomers! The story still lives on, because management wants to suck every last bit of your energy before they discard you.
4. Every time we have bought a house/apartment, we have used a realtor. All you need to learn is how to hire a good realtor, and they hold your hand. Again, YouTube.
Conclusion: Your feelings of incompetence are based on things most new college grads haven't done ever.
They are also based on things society tells you you should know how to do to be good little capitalists, but these things are impossible to actually do.
And a couple of these things are YT tutorial territory.
I am not minimizing your feelings, but maybe what you are feeling isn't incompetence, but something equally unpleasant that actually has a different name. This might be worth thinking about and trying to figure out what it really is?
To me you seem bright and articulate in writing. You've said yourself that you are good at college (that is huge!).
The bad feeling is something. Just maybe not incompetence. @Jean4, how does a person figure out what a bad feeling really is?

I've also kind of wanted a funeral... so there's that
Figured that way people could share tons of lies and make themselves feel good.... and maybe if it was possible I could haunt them and maybe take some of them out.

If anything, I want a "fun-real" Maybe at Chucky Cheese. Except I have pissed everyone off, and it would suck for my husband because they don't have craft beer there;)

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I've found a perfect song for the end of this day:

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I stole my roommates weed and liqour. How long before you think he notices? If he wants to fight over it I'll have the alcohol working in my favor!

ROFLMAO!

 

[Squiddy]

Just some thoughts that might help you put things in perspective:
1.The government deliberately makes taxes hard to do. This increases the money they make. DIY tax software is awesome!
2. You can learn to change a tire on YT. Practice before you need to do it for realz. This is a good thing to do when you feel bored.
3. You've been in college. Any jobs you've had up until now probably haven't been "keepers". The labour market has changed to the point that your generation has very little chance of "keeping a job". You have been sold this "myth" that worthwhile people get and keep a job for their entire working life. That ship sailed in the 1970's. Thanks, Boomers! The story still lives on, because management wants to suck every last bit of your energy before they discard you.
4. Every time we have bought a house/apartment, we have used a realtor. All you need to learn is how to hire a good realtor, and they hold your hand. Again, YouTube.
Conclusion: Your feelings of incompetence are based on things most new college grads haven't done ever.
They are also based on things society tells you you should know how to do to be good little capitalists, but these things are impossible to actually do.
And a couple of these things are YT tutorial territory.
I am not minimizing your feelings, but maybe what you are feeling isn't incompetence, but something equally unpleasant that actually has a different name. This might be worth thinking about and trying to figure out what it really is?
To me you seem bright and articulate in writing. You've said yourself that you are good at college (that is huge!).
The bad feeling is something. Just maybe not incompetence. @Jean4, how does a person figure out what a bad feeling really is?

If anything, I want a "fun-real" Maybe at Chucky Cheese. Except I have pissed everyone off, and it would suck for my husband because they don't have craft beer there;)

Thanks. I'm pretty good with writing, but when it comes to talking, I'm terrible with articulating myself. With writing, I have time to think and have a delete key/erase.

 

[BlueWidow]

Thanks. I'm pretty good with writing, but when it comes to talking, I'm terrible with articulating myself. With writing, I have time to think and have a delete key/erase.

That's the way I am too. Part of it is probably also your depression. I think it slows down everyone's brain function to the point where it's hard to process things very quickly. I do a much better time when I'm writing than I do when I'm talking also. Of course, I prefer to write than talk because then I have time to think about what I say and go back and change it if I want to. Actually, this smart phone thing worked out pretty good for me because even when people are in the same room now, they don't really talk to each other. They type to each other on their phone. LOL!
I hardly have to talk to anyone anymore. I can just send a text and it makes me sound like I'm more articulate than I actually am. LOL!

 

[Squiddy]

That's the way I am too. Part of it is probably also your depression. I think it slows down everyone's brain function to the point where it's hard to process things very quickly. I do a much better time when I'm writing than I do when I'm talking also. Of course, I prefer to write than talk because then I have time to think about what I say and go back and change it if I want to. Actually, this smart phone thing worked out pretty good for me because even when people are in the same room now, they don't really talk to each other. They type to each other on their phone. LOL!
I hardly have to talk to anyone anymore. I can just send a text and it makes me sound like I'm more articulate than I actually am. LOL!

True. It could be my depression too. Though I also think it might be the expressive language disorder, I just have to go get tested and find a place that takes my insurance.

 

[BlueWidow]

True. It could be my depression too. Though I also think it might be the expressive language disorder, I just have to go get tested and find a place that takes my insurance.

Yes, it's probably hard if you have depression and a language disorder at the same time. I hope you find somewhere to get tested so you can figure out what it is. Sometimes just having a diagnosis can make you feel better. Plus then they'll know what to do to help you.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Fuuuck I'm drunk!

 

[Squiddy]

Yes, it's probably hard if you have depression and a language disorder at the same time. I hope you find somewhere to get tested so you can figure out what it is. Sometimes just having a diagnosis can make you feel better. Plus then they'll know what to do to help you.

Yeah. I don't think my nurse would believe me if I told her and she'll probably just say I am articulate or something like that

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I feel like I've been run over by a train. That's instead of having actually been run over by a train which would've been a lot better.

I got a real laugh out of this. A lot of ME/CFS patients like to say things like "i feel like i got hit by a truck/bus/train" upon waking up, but i can totally relate to the desire to ACTUALLY have been hit by one.
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oxygen tubing should arrive today. I'm still having some trouble getting my nitrogen tank but hopefully i can go by next week.

 

[Jean4]

I need my asthma pump. Sammy won't let me

 

[Carina]

I need my asthma pump. Sammy won't let me
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Tell him it's pump or die--maybe he'll let you move :)

 

[Squiddy]

About to share my behavior planning worksheet and I'm explaining my tiny urge of wanting to cut