The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Carina]

About to share my behavior planning worksheet and I'm explaining my tiny urge of wanting to cut

I hope the sharing of it goes well!

 

[Squiddy]

I hope the sharing of it goes well!

Me too. I'm kinda nervous

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I"m younger than you both at 43, but I can't do that stuff... ok I can do a tire. but I was stuck on the side of a road, but men stopped to help, and the men couldn't help me even!
but yeah.... point is... gender... age... nothing matters... some things not everyone can do, and some lists of "i can't do them" probably 95% of the world can say the same

Damn but I wanted to like that post twice. @Squiddy , most people can't do most of that stuff, they just pretend they can.

 

[Squiddy]

Just told the group my thoughts. Went okay.

 

[Jean4]

Me too. I'm kinda nervous

Nah. You got this.

Just told the group my thoughts. Went okay.

I told you so. ;)

 

[BlueWidow]

I got a real laugh out of this. A lot of ME/CFS patients like to say things like "i feel like i got hit by a truck/bus/train" upon waking up, but i can totally relate to the desire to ACTUALLY have been hit by one.
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oxygen tubing should arrive today. I'm still having some trouble getting my nitrogen tank but hopefully i can go by next week.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-official-2020-everything-but-the-kitchen-sink-post.28960/post-569855

I was referring to my experiences last night being unable to sleep due to being in severe pain and being unable to sleep comfortably in any position for very long and having to continually get out of bed because I was in too much pain to be lying down, but also being unable to stay out of bed because I'm too sick to sit up. Plus, having to resort to Vicodin, which always makes me feel like shit. But it did help me sleep a little bit longer than I would have without it, so I guess it was kind of worth it.

So far today it appears to be slightly better, but it doesn't bother me when I'm out of bed. The test will be when I try to get back in bed again and if I can move around or not. I have a very squishy bed because I need a very soft bed for my back and my knees, but that makes it very hard to move around in bed, especially if I can't lift my arms or push up with my arms to move around.

I'm glad you're continuing to receive your supplies. I'm sure that's making you feel better and better. More in control.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I need my asthma pump. Sammy won't let me

You always have the coolest fucking lighting!

 

[CyanideSoup]

Hi all. Sending hugs to those who need them today

 

[Deleted member 1465]

The game goes both ways. Therapy never worked for me because I psychoanalyze my therapist.

Oh they hate that SO much.

 

[BooGirl]

Hi all. Sending hugs to those who need them today

Sending 'em right back at ya

 

[Squiddy]

Nah. You got this.

I told you so. ;)

Now I'm just waiting for my nurse to get through talking with someone because she said she was gonna call my mom and I wanna be in the room when she calls

 

[MysticPerception]

I'm heading off to work. Gonna be miserable since I hate my job but it's easy so I can't complain. Have a nice day everyone.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I've studied nearly every religious belief for over 20 years now and I'm with you on the first bit.

Wow, really? I've spent my life studying how people look at things.
Religions, philosophies, mythologies, folklore, spiritualism, magick, determinism, atheism, physics, genetics, cosmology.
I find it all fascinating.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I was referring to my experiences last night being unable to sleep due to being in severe pain and being unable to sleep comfortably in any position for very long and having to continually get out of bed because I was in too much pain to be lying down, but also being unable to stay out of bed because I'm too sick to sit up. Plus, having to resort to Vicodin, which always makes me feel like shit. But it did help me sleep a little bit longer than I would have without it, so I guess it was kind of worth it.

Oh my, that sounds like a rough night :( Hoping it doesn't give you too much trouble later on.

i'm glad you at least had the medication to help with that. I'm also dependent on meds to sleep right now and i can't see myself surviving without them.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

 

[Deleted member 1465]

@Jean4 @BlueWidow my sympathies for your sleep deprivation. Im on less than two hours a night in bits so i can surely relate.

 

[Jean4]

@Jean4 @BlueWidow my sympathies for your sleep deprivation. Im on less than two hours a night in bits so i can surely relate.

I'll take your 2 hours!!!

I'm heading off to work. Gonna be miserable since I hate my job but it's easy so I can't complain. Have a nice day everyone.

You be miserable. I still love you and we will all be here when you get home.
Bring food!

 

[Squiddy]

My mom didn't pick up so she left a voicemail

 

[Brick In The Wall]

@Jean4 @BlueWidow my sympathies for your sleep deprivation. Im on less than two hours a night in bits so i can surely relate.

Sshhh be very, very, qwiet!

 

[Jean4]

Sshhh be very, very, qwiet!
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[Deleted member 1465]

I'll take your 2 hours!!!

Are you sure? That's a good night and it's not two hours in one go. I've also been like that for at least two years now.
But several years ago I went without any sleep for a week due to seizures. Now that was a challenge. So if you are several days in then yeah even a little sleep would help a lot.
Forgive me, I expect you've already explained, but do you know what's causing it? Is there anything you are taking?

 

[Jean4]

Are you sure? That's a good night and it's not two hours in one go. I've also been like that for at least two years now.
But several years ago I went without any sleep for a week due to seizures. Now that was a challenge. So if you are several days in then yeah even a little sleep would help a lot.
Forgive me, I expect you've already explained, but do you know what's causing it? Is there anything you are taking?

I medical marijuana myself hard core to sleep. Nada.

I go in cycles. This is normal. I honestly think the impeachment hearings are causing it. I'm not watching today. Let's see if that helps..

 

[BlueWidow]

I medical marijuana myself hard core to sleep. Nada.

I go in cycles. This is normal. I honestly think the impeachment hearings are causing it. I'm not watching today. Let's see if that helps..

Well, no wonder if you're watching that drivel! You must be one of only 5 people watching it. Take the day off. I quit watching all that political crap and I can tell you my life is vastly improved because of it. Not so vastly that I don't want to end my life, but it's one less thing that makes me feel like crap every day.

 

[Jean4]

Well, no wonder if you're watching that drivel! You must be one of only 5 people watching it. Take the day off. I quit watching all that political crap and I can tell you my life is vastly improved because of it. Not so vastly that I don't want to end my life, but it's one less thing that makes me feel like crap every day.

I just put on my pjs and have it off lol.

 

[Squiddy]

So far so good with no vomiting. Though I might have to once I get home.

 

[Carina]

I just put on my pjs and have it off lol.

Seriously if I had watched the political things... I would've been told to turn off the news or else by someone lol.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Well, no wonder if you're watching that drivel! You must be one of only 5 people watching it. Take the day off. I quit watching all that political crap and I can tell you my life is vastly improved because of it. Not so vastly that I don't want to end my life, but it's one less thing that makes me feel like crap every day.

I don't like the peanuts or the circus either!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I medical marijuana myself hard core to sleep. Nada.

I go in cycles. This is normal. I honestly think the impeachment hearings are causing it. I'm not watching today. Let's see if that helps..

Damn I was going to suggest that. I'm using the oil and that coupled with exhaustion seem to help a little but then my case is weird.
If this is a normal cycle for you then I guess you just have to ride it out. Been there.
I imagine exhaustion will catch up with you?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

 

[Carina]

1 hr 20 minutes.... and the lieing begins lol. also know as psychiatrist appointment... let's see...
Need to take SN out of purse before going in when I do lol.
Have nurse to talk to first... she's the main one I have to lie to as the psychiatrist has an issue with eye contact....
oh yeah and the entry form... let's see... last time I went total suicidal marks.... hmm.... probably should go middle->happy with a slight few to depressed so it seems honest... think there's like 10 questions, 5 point scale... so.... 2 as totally happy, 2 as almost... 4 as middle... 2 depressed like might work... might play by ear...
answer questions as "no plans..." mention current state...
she'll question... maintain consistency as on camera throughout building... ....

yeah... that should work...