Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I am going to shower. Friggen lazy day. I want to do nothing.

The only way I can shower is if I jump out of bed without thinking and jump into the shower. Double action brushing teeth in the shower.

Here I go!
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
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I am going to shower. Friggen lazy day. I want to do nothing.

The only way I can shower is if I jump out of bed without thinking and jump into the shower. Double action brushing teeth in the shower.

Here I go!
All I'll probably do is try to sleep off this headache
 
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Flume

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I can only stand listening to depressing music theese days. And when you hear back how shit you feel in a song, it's different than just thoughts... it hits different, gives you a new understanding of how truly fucked you are.

And not only that... as a producer I want to learn on how to make really painfull almost torture-ish type music. I'm not a bad person, I just want to express how I feel... and that's the worst part of it all.

Music gave me a new view of how black my soul is, but at the same time it's all I have left.
 
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Every so often I have this thought that if there was punishment after death involving reliving a part of your life--I know exactly what it would be. Probably because it haunts me even now. Fortunately, I almost never think of it. I don't even know what makes me think of it, I'd seriously avoid it whatever it was.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I can only stand listening to depressing music theese days. And when you hear back how shit you feel in a song, it's different than just thoughts... it hits different, gives you a new understanding of how truly fucked you are.

And not only that... as a producer I want to learn on how to make really painfull almost torture-ish type music. I'm not a bad person, I just want to express how I feel... and that's the worst part of it all.

Music gave me a new view of how black my soul is, but at the same time it's all I have left.
Nothing wrong with that. I am in the music business if you would like me to listen to anything. If you have a bandcamp or SoundCloud.
Showered, teeth brushed and washed the cat dishes. Back in bed.
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Dec 22, 2019
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Great... so now sinus infection is 'gone' but now I just have the same symptoms as before with allergies.... I am so done with not being able to breathe out of my nose.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Great... so now sinus infection is 'gone' but now I just have the same symptoms as before with allergies.... I am so done with not being able to breathe out of my nose.
I'm addicted to Afrin.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I have that too.

I'm actually seriously wondering if it's not just stress, and my 'allergies' are just stress.
Could be a combination of things. Add weather to the list too.
 
Carina

Carina

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Dec 22, 2019
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Could be a combination of things. Add weather to the list too.
Yeah the weather does suck. And coworkers, not one of them isn't blowing nose/etc anywhere in the building.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Yeah the weather does suck. And coworkers, not one of them isn't blowing nose/etc anywhere in the building.
I think you just answered your question. Get your flu shot!!!
Day 2. Has anyone seen @Raven Moon ?
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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That's longer than I thought.
I think she popped on, but didn't post one day after that.
@Soulless_Angel @Nemeshisu how are you doing today?
@jgm63 how are you doing today?
 
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Nemeshisu

Nemeshisu

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Dec 25, 2019
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I am good. I just took warm shower and ate pancakes. Right now I am watching some documentaries about aliens and Fermi Paradox.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I am good. I just took warm shower and ate pancakes. Right now I am watching some documentaries about aliens and Fermi Paradox.
Pancakes??? No pictures?? What kind of pancakes? Extra butter?
 
Nemeshisu

Nemeshisu

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Dec 25, 2019
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Pancakes??? No pictures?? What kind of pancakes? Extra butter?
Well, sorry I ate them already so I can't take any pictures. I made classic European thin pancakes (I am not sure what they are called) with quark and raspberry syrup.
 
Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Well, sorry I ate them already so I can't take any pictures. I made classic European thin pancakes (I am not sure what they are called) with quark and raspberry syrup.
Next time pictures for us Americans! I heard of Quark. Impossible to get in my area.
 
Nemeshisu

Nemeshisu

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Dec 25, 2019
236
Next time pictures for us Americans! I heard of Quark. Impossible to get in my area.
Really!? It is pretty easy to get it here in Europe or atleast in slavic countries.
 

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