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Jean4

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Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
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*My Conversation Right Now With My Doctor*
I just called my doctor's answering service from the shower. He called back immediately.

Doctor: Hello Jean. What's wrong?

Jean: I'm calling to let you know, I am on 3L of oxygen, oxygen level is 80, I'm i. The shower now lightheaded and dizzy and I know there is nothing you can do, but it hurts like hell when I breathe.

Doctor: Sit down when you shower

Jean: I am sitting in the shower as I talk to you.

Doctor: Are you suicidal?

Jean: Yes

Doctor: More than usual?

Jean: Yes

Doctor: Are you in crisis?

Jean: No. Nothing you can do for the pain right?

Doctor: Nope.

Jean: Nothing the hospital can do that I can't do right?

Doctor: Nope.You are better with your cat.

Jean: Ok. Anything I should do?

Doctor: Stay in bed when you feel dizzy. Call me if you actually will kill yourself and I will tell you what to take based on your oxygen level. You have enough meds?

Jean: Yes. I will have enough marijuana barely until my check comes in.

Doctor: Rest up, stay in bed and call if things get worse.

I may also post this in the main section to show you there are good and understanding docs out there you can be honest with.
 
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Hey @LegaliseIt! .. 02 is 80 on oxygen. Gonna be a fun day.

Pics of fish!!!
Lol should have been dishes :-)

Apparently a body in motion demands coffee so I back in bed with coffee and some of last nights dinner fir breakfast.

Dishes drying.

Yesterday was forecast to be 54F so I cracked my window and took a light jacket. As it happened temp plummeted and it snowed. Came home frozen to a cat who was turning into a popsicle and without any food. He is explaining to me how I still owe him cuddles to make up for that.
 
faust

faust

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Jan 26, 2020
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Those things look cool. They just come from a restaurant?
Ye, I am there right now! IMG 20200208 160601
*My Conversation Right Now With My Doctor*
I just called my doctor's answering service from the shower. He called back immediately.

Doctor: Hello Jean. What's wrong?

Jean: I'm calling to let you know, I am on 3L of oxygen, oxygen level is 80, I'm i. The shower now lightheaded and dizzy and I know there is nothing you can do, but it hurts like hell when I breathe.

Doctor: Sit down when you shower

Jean: I am sitting in the shower as I talk to you.

Doctor: Are you suicidal?

Jean: Yes

Doctor: More than usual?

Jean: Yes

Doctor: Are you in crisis?

Jean: No. Nothing you can do for the pain right?

Doctor: Nope.

Jean: Nothing the hospital can do that I can't do right?

Doctor: Nope.You are better with your cat.

Jean: Ok. Anything I should do?

Doctor: Stay in bed when you feel dizzy. Call me if you actually will kill yourself and I will tell you what to take based on your oxygen level. You have enough meds?

Jean: Yes. I will have enough marijuana barely until my check comes in.

Doctor: Rest up, stay in bed and call if things get worse.

I may also post this in the main section to show you there are good and understanding docs out there you can be honest with.
Your doctor is very honest to you. I respect people like that!
 
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faust

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Lol should have been dishes :-)

Apparently a body in motion demands coffee so I back in bed with coffee and some of last nights dinner fir breakfast.

Dishes drying.

Yesterday was forecast to be 54F so I cracked my window and took a light jacket. As it happened temp plummeted and it snowed. Came home frozen to a cat who was turning into a popsicle and without any food. He is explaining to me how I still owe him cuddles to make up for that.
It is getting very warm here, the storm is coming.
And I can say I'm suicidal and it isn't an automatic hospitalization
I am a little bit afraid to tell things like that to my psychiatrist. Because I will be ready to go soon.
 
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Polly

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And I can say I'm suicidal and it isn't an automatic hospitalization
@Jean4 so sorry about how you are feeling. Sounds horrid.

yes there are docs like that. Just need to be vetted very carefully.

everything is better with cats.

also remember a great many want you to stay, if you feel you can.
 
Jean4

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Now I want waffles!
@Jean4 so sorry about how you are feeling. Sounds horrid.

yes there are docs like that. Just need to be vetted very carefully.

everything is better with cats.

also remember a great many want you to stay, if you feel you can.
I'm not going anywhere. If I was, I wouldn't have called my doctor.
 
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Now I want waffles!

I'm not going anywhere. If I was, I wouldn't have called my doctor.
Cannot imagine this forum without you :heart:
 
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Oh @Carina
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Took triple dose of paracetamol and now drinking beer. The last time I did that, I started feeling better in hours
 
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Don't forget the wasabi!!!!!

Feel good!! It's party day!!!
Wasabi is inside! Thank you, I am too sick the last few months. I think that might be because of mould and high humidity. Did not heat the room this autumn and winter
 
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Showered and brushed my teeth and am now getting out of bed and will put on clean pajamas which I will be wearing to the party.
 
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Showered and brushed my teeth and am now getting out of bed and will put on clean pajamas which I will be wearing to the party.
Awesome! It took at least 6 hours for me to get out of bed.
 
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I'm not feeling well: fever, chills, coughing, sneezing, wheezing, so tired and dizzy. Haven't left the house since Wednesday. Having the flu makes me blue. I had the vaccine, too. Blergh. Going back to sleep.
I hope you feel better!
 
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This is weird... I just took my dishes to the kitchen and I was a bit lightheaded... like what? I wasn't when I woke up...

Just semi-impulse bought something else on amazon lol
No.....no that can't be real.... it's like.... it's .... what?
 
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So although my mind wants to stay in bed my body is objecting. So I guess it's time to be up.

Things that must be done today:

Return library books before library closes at 5. They have given me so many extensions I can't ask fir another.

Retrieve flash drive left at library

Things that need to be done this weekend:

Clean room
Laundry.

Also presenting at Science Sunday, but thst is a joy, so once I get over the 6am wake up it's easy.
 
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@Jean4 I agree about making a main post about your experience! I know it's easy to give up finding a trustworthy doctor you can be open with and a lot of people would benefit from realizing that.

@Squiddy I hope today is going okay for you, sending love :heart:
 
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Well, I am feeling a little bit strange. Can feel a warmth inside of me
So although my mind wants to stay in bed my body is objecting. So I guess it's time to be up.

Things that must be done today:

Return library books before library closes at 5. They have given me so many extensions I can't ask fir another.

Retrieve flash drive left at library

Things that need to be done this weekend:

Clean room
Laundry.

Also presenting at Science Sunday, but thst is a joy, so once I get over the 6am wake up it's easy.
Once I payed 15 euro for not returning in time, so, please, be careful with that!
 
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MY amazon order is going to be here within 24 hours apparently lol
 
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This has been stuck in my head all night through this morning. Sweet Caroline with guns. Quick somebody put music on, its still stuck in my head. But I do love it 10/10
 
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truthfully it wasn't that much of an impulse.... it's something as a quick pulse ox meter... just in case... just to rule that out. it would explain things. and I can cover it as a 'mom's boyfriend can use it if needed' thing too as we bought him one already.


This has been stuck in my head all night through this morning. Sweet Caroline with guns. Quick somebody put music on, its still stuck in my head. But I do love it 10/10

solitary man is a good one too!
 
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