The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm not like you, I'm just fucked up! Cmon motherfucker everybody has to die, cmom motherfucker everybody has to die!

 

[xBrialesana]

Only you know if you need hospitalization. :)

This is true. ^

 

[Brick In The Wall]

have you considered putting the cats to work?
@Brick In The Wall i saw somewhere you said you are a music therapist and i just wanted to say, that's super cool! I would've loved to be a music therapist.

I'm guessing you have a degree in music, right? What instruments

Multiple degrees and discipline in music arts my man!

 

[Jean4]

I'm not like you, I'm just fucked up! Cmon motherfucker everybody has to die, cmom motherfucker everybody has to die!

Talk to us. What's going on?

 

[xBrialesana]

I'm not like you, I'm just fucked up! Cmon motherfucker everybody has to die, cmom motherfucker everybody has to die!

I read this audibly and was headbanging

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I read this audibly and was headbanging

You have that flow of music then! Flow on some oldschool now. I'm the thread DJ.

 

[Squiddy]

I don't know what I need anymore

 

[Jean4]

I don't know what I need anymore

So would the hospital be best to get time away from your mom to think about it?

 

[xBrialesana]

You have that flow of music then! Flow on some oldschool now. I'm the thread DJ.

I'm vibin keep it comin

I don't know what I need anymore

What are you doing right now Squiddy? Are you talking to us on a phone? Computer? What does the rest of your day look like?

 

[Squiddy]

So would the hospital be best to get time away from your mom to think about it?

I'm thinking maybe, but idk.

I'm vibin keep it comin


What are you doing right now Squiddy? Are you talking to us on a phone? Computer? What does the rest of your day look like?

On the phone

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Now you're all my sacrifice! Now we're the ones to... fall!

 

[xBrialesana]

Now you're all my sacrifice! Now we're the ones to... fall!

Never seen anyone else know them!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

For some reason, I feel sadder than usual and feel like crying. Idk why though

Sorry @Squiddy maybe a good cry will actually help you must feel exhausted.

Multiple degrees and discipline in music arts my man!

I can play the harmonica. Badly. It's on my CV. Got me a job in Germany once. That didn't end well.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

As a fellow musician I'm well versed in the field! This is a transformation within shattered mutations!

 

[Squiddy]

Sorry @Squiddy maybe a good cry will actually help you must feel exhausted.

I can play the harmonica. Badly. It's on my CV. Got me a job in Germany once. That didn't end well.

Possibly. I think I've decided if things get worse, I probably will go to the hospital

 

[Brick In The Wall]

As a fellow musician I'm well versed in the field! This is a transformation within shattered mutations!

Possibly. I think I've decided if things get worse, I probably will go to the hospital

You have a hospital here!
@porfin1234 you're so beautiful and centered!

 

[Jean4]

Possibly. I think I've decided if things get worse, I probably will go to the hospital

Nothing wrong with that. You know when it's time, and when it's right for you. :)

 

[Squiddy]

You have a hospital here!

Thanks :)

 

[Soulless_Angel]

My motherfucker right here!

fucking love you guys even if I am fucking clueless!!!

 

[Squiddy]

Nothing wrong with that. You know when it's time, and when it's right for you. :)

Yeah :)

 

[Brick In The Wall]

My love, My damage. My vermillion.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Okay, i think i was just overloading myself yesterday with final arrangements, and that might've led to my CFS flareup.

Today everything is pretty much done. I've written all my delayed emails, including to EMS/police, and just need to schedule them to be sent after i CTB. Other practical matters are finished. I am going to try and stay rested so i have the energy to do what i need to do later on.

I will continue to keep post updates and stuff but i may not be as talkative or attentive, just to try and conserve my energy. Obviously i will be observing the pre-gaming for the party tomorrow

Edit: I am definitely feeling scared, but i figured i would feel that way up until i draw my very last breath. The question is if that fear motivates SI enough to sabotage my attempt. I am pretty confident it will not.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Im fucked, just pissed off a shit load of people on a fb group for having an onion that didn't match theirs, many have promised to drag me down and prmised my bsuiness will not restart as I had hoped,
So I am now dragging my CTB closer from months to barely weeks, as I am reminded what a true POS I really am!
I know we are all here for one reason, can I ask is anyone actually planning, or is everyone just waiting?

 

[Backwood_tilt]

...... my cousin juts told me he thinks he's put in a legal position to act upon the information that I am going to CTB soon. I trusted him with that information, and now he's saying "i cannot do anything yet" because it would "incriminate him". even though he lives in a different country, on a different continent.

obviously this sounds like ridiculous BS but i don't know how to effectively communicate this to him. Do not know what to do right now.

I don't know if i should tell him he's right, and then lie and tell him since last night i've changed my mind about CTB and just do it anyways. The problem is i'm pretty confident he's not going to believe me. And now i'm worried he's going to freak out and somehow get me committed. He knows about my nitrogen setup and everything, which i stupidly told him about because we are very close and i thought i could trust him.

I woke up to 9 deleted text messages from him so i figured he was freaking out about something. I do not need this today!!

 

[Thereisnothing]

Lots of love and hugs to @Squiddy

 

[Jean4]

Im fucked, just pissed off a shit load of people on a fb group for having an onion that didn't match theirs, many have promised to drag me down and prmised my bsuiness will not restart as I had hoped,
So I am now dragging my CTB closer from months to barely weeks, as I am reminded what a true POS I really am!
I know we are all here for one reason, can I ask is anyone actually planning, or is everyone just waiting?

Letting psychotic people on FB who may be Russian Bots, doesn't make you a POS. It makes you nuts.

We love you. We are real and are going to tell you the truth. Believe us. Facebook makes everybody want to CTB because it is fake. Remember that.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

I'm so happy for all I care, eventually I'll be gone. But until then I'm a nuisance!

 

[Squiddy]

Lots of love and hugs to @Squiddy

Thanks

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Im fucked, just pissed off a shit load of people on a fb group for having an onion that didn't match theirs, many have promised to drag me down and prmised my bsuiness will not restart as I had hoped,
So I am now dragging my CTB closer from months to barely weeks, as I am reminded what a true POS I really am!
I know we are all here for one reason, can I ask is anyone actually planning, or is everyone just waiting?

Facebook is not worth the paper it's not written on. I stopped using it years ago. There's no point in listening to people who will drag you down online of all places. I bet they wouldn't do it to your face though.

...... my cousin juts told me he thinks he's put in a legal position to act upon the information that I am going to CTB soon. I trusted him with that information, and now he's saying "i cannot do anything yet" because it would "incriminate him". even though he lives in a different country, on a different continent.

obviously this sounds like ridiculous BS but i don't know how to effectively communicate this to him. Do not know what to do right now.

I don't know if i should tell him he's right, and then lie and tell him since last night i've changed my mind about CTB and just do it anyways. The problem is i'm pretty confident he's not going to believe me. And now i'm worried he's going to freak out and somehow get me committed. He knows about my nitrogen setup and everything, which i stupidly told him about because we are very close and i thought i could trust him.

I woke up to 9 deleted text messages from him so i figured he was freaking out about something. I do not need this today!!

To be honest, having that knowledge can be a really hard thing to deal with even if someone is pro choice. I don't know what to advise, I'm not surprised you are confused.

 

[Jean4]

...... my cousin juts told me he thinks he's put in a legal position to act upon the information that I am going to CTB soon. I trusted him with that information, and now he's saying "i cannot do anything yet" because it would "incriminate him". even though he lives in a different country, on a different continent.

obviously this sounds like ridiculous BS but i don't know how to effectively communicate this to him. Do not know what to do right now.

I don't know if i should tell him he's right, and then lie and tell him since last night i've changed my mind about CTB and just do it anyways. The problem is i'm pretty confident he's not going to believe me. And now i'm worried he's going to freak out and somehow get me committed. He knows about my nitrogen setup and everything, which i stupidly told him about because we are very close and i thought i could trust him.

I woke up to 9 deleted text messages from him so i figured he was freaking out about something. I do not need this today!!

Are you close to him?