The Official 2020 Everything But The Kitchen Sink Post

[Jean4]

Ugghh I feel an urge to cut for no reason. Might be cause I feel lonely

Don't you have a dog you no longer mention?

 

[Squiddy]

Don't you have a dog you no longer mention?

She's upstairs currently while I'm downstairs (my room is downstairs)

 

[Morphinekiss]

Ugghh I feel an urge to cut for no reason. Might be cause I feel lonely

Same. I decided to eat instead

 

[Squiddy]

Same. I decided to eat instead

I'll just keep listening to music. I'm full right now.

 

[BooGirl]

Ugghh I feel an urge to cut for no reason. Might be cause I feel lonely

Cutting is scary /

Can't really say that I don't see the appeal, tho. I've beaten my chest really hard before, I guess that cutting is the same principle.

 

[Squiddy]

Cutting is scary /

Can't really say that I don't see the appeal, tho. I've beaten my chest really hard before, I guess that cutting is the same principle.

At first cutting was scary for me. Now, it's my norm. I've been cutting for 7 years

 

[BooGirl]

At first cutting was scary for me. Now, it's my norm. I've been cutting for 7 years

I guess there's a sort of beauty in going against our biological will and causing ourselves pain. It's basically saying "fuck you" to reality.

 

[Carina]

At first cutting was scary for me. Now, it's my norm. I've been cutting for 7 years

Marks are hard to hide if on arm though... then you have to wear long sleeves... only good thing is if people are used to you wearing long sleeves in summer temps.... granted I stopped doing such things back in high school.

Although most was for pain reasons (shallow)--some was to adjust for... well other reasons that would've been permant)... so there's that. No residual marks except from attempt things... which is good...

 

[Squiddy]

I guess there's a sort of beauty in going against our biological will and causing ourselves pain. It's basically saying "fuck you" to reality.

I wouldn't recommend cutting though. It's addictive.

Marks are hard to hide if on arm though... then you have to wear long sleeves... only good thing is if people are used to you wearing long sleeves in summer temps.... granted I stopped doing such things back in high school.

Although most was for pain reasons (shallow)--some was to adjust for... well other reasons that would've been permant)... so there's that. No residual marks except from attempt things... which is good...

True. I usually cut on my arm and have to hide it wearing a jacket, but they heal pretty fast.

 

[BooGirl]

I wouldn't recommend cutting though. It's addictive.


True. I usually cut on my arm and have to hide it wearing a jacket, but they heal pretty fast.

I'm too pussy to do it, but there's a certain objective beauty, y'know? It's fascinating.

 

[Squiddy]

I'm too pussy to do it, but there's a certain objective beauty, y'know? It's fascinating.

Yeah. I have a bunch of pictures of my bleeding cuts on the private part of my phone. Haven't shown anyone though.

 

[Carina]

I wouldn't recommend cutting though. It's addictive.


True. I usually cut on my arm and have to hide it wearing a jacket, but they heal pretty fast.

Yeah... that and at the time I was partially testing to see how painful the actual goal I had was... even though I at one time had probably 15-20 lines on my arm, I actually had to bandage. Quickly stopped when I realized that 1) I didn't want scars, 2) the actual goal was going to be a lot more painful than I could do.

 

[BlueWidow]

I think I'll have some hot chocolate instead of drinking alcohol. I've already got a headache and I don't feel well. Last thing I need is to be hung over in the morning. I just want to be able to sleep and not be constantly woke up from being in pain every time I move around in the bed.

I'll try hot chocolate & the heating pad first. I don't really want to take Vicodin for a third night in a row. I already take ibuprofen by the handful, so that's not going to work.
Stupid pulled muscle! Part of me hopes it's something worse and it's just a coincidence that it started a few days after I had to push my way back into the bedroom.

Just once I would love for a doctor to tell me I have cancer or some other fatal disease so I could laugh in his face. Though even cancer, depending on what kind it is, isn't as fatal as it used to be.

 

[Squiddy]

Yeah... that and at the time I was partially testing to see how painful the actual goal I had was... even though I at one time had probably 15-20 lines on my arm, I actually had to bandage. Quickly stopped when I realized that 1) I didn't want scars, 2) the actual goal was going to be a lot more painful than I could do.

My scars have healed up nicely for the most part. I only have 2 ugly scars on my arm

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I think I'll have some hot chocolate instead of drinking alcohol.

youre making me second guess pulling my drink out of the fridge. bah

hope your muscle feels better soon.

 

[Carina]

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I think I'll have some hot chocolate instead of drinking alcohol. I've already got a headache and I don't feel well. Last thing I need is to be hung over in the morning. I just want to be able to sleep and not be constantly woke up from being in pain every time I move around in the bed.

I'll try hot chocolate & the heating pad first. I don't really want to take Vicodin for a third night in a row. I already take ibuprofen by the handful, so that's not going to work.
Stupid pulled muscle! Part of me hopes it's something worse and it's just a coincidence that it started a few days after I had to push my way back into the bedroom.

Just once I would love for a doctor to tell me I have cancer or some other fatal disease so I could laugh in his face. Though even cancer, depending on what kind it is, isn't as fatal as it used to be.

I was hoping for breast cancer... .but no... had to come back normal... and yeah, they're like all treatable practically anymore...

 

[Squiddy]

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I think I'll have some hot chocolate instead of drinking alcohol. I've already got a headache and I don't feel well. Last thing I need is to be hung over in the morning. I just want to be able to sleep and not be constantly woke up from being in pain every time I move around in the bed.

I'll try hot chocolate & the heating pad first. I don't really want to take Vicodin for a third night in a row. I already take ibuprofen by the handful, so that's not going to work.
Stupid pulled muscle! Part of me hopes it's something worse and it's just a coincidence that it started a few days after I had to push my way back into the bedroom.

Just once I would love for a doctor to tell me I have cancer or some other fatal disease so I could laugh in his face. Though even cancer, depending on what kind it is, isn't as fatal as it used to be.

Hot chocolate sounds good. I wish I could go to Wawas and get some :(
Also, I was wishing for stomach cancer when I found out I had a polyp in my gallbladder, but they said it would go away on its own.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

I was hoping for breast cancer... .but no... had to come back normal... and yeah, they're like all treatable practically anymore...

even if they aren't, it'll probably be painful and take a long time. rather go by my own hand

but i definitely wished for terminal cancer when i first got sick.

 

[Carina]

even if they aren't, it'll probably be painful and take a long time. rather go by my own hand

but i definitely wished for terminal cancer when i first got sick.

Yeah I was just going to use it as a reason to do it without people questioning as much.
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whew.... one friend still thinks I'm just a lesbian rofl (makes it easier if he doesn't think I'm flirting with him--even though I'm not)

 

[Squiddy]

I was hoping my vomiting was something serious yesterday

 

[BooGirl]

I was hoping my vomiting was something serious yesterday

oh man, that's a mood

 

[Squiddy]

oh man, that's a mood

Instead, it just randomly stops.

 

[Lady Lazarus 2020]

oh man, that's a mood

When you hope you might have caught a break and could die soonsies...

 

[Carina]

When you hope you might have caught a break and could die soonsies...

yeah... always happens

And hi :)

Don't recall seeing you here before

 

[BlueWidow]

youre making me second guess pulling my drink out of the fridge. bah

hope your muscle feels better soon.

Yeah, I'm only not drinking because I already don't feel well. I've already got a headache so I figure drinking could probably only make it worse. Otherwise I probably would be. Although if I end up having to take that stupid Vicodin again I guess it'll be better that I wasn't drinking. I'm only going to take it as an absolute last resort tonight though because I absolutely hate that stuff. How people can get addicted to it and take it on purpose is puzzling to me.

When you hope you might have caught a break and could die soonsies...

Hi! Welcome to the Kitchen Sink thread.

 

[Backwood_tilt]

When you hope you might have caught a break and could die soonsies...

I don't think i've seen you here before, hi!

Yeah, I'm only not drinking because I already don't feel well. I've already got a headache so I figure drinking could probably only make it worse. Otherwise I probably would be. Although if I end up having to take that stupid Vicodin again I guess it'll be better that I wasn't drinking. I'm only going to take it as an absolute last resort tonight though because I absolutely hate that stuff. How people can get addicted to it and take it on purpose is puzzling to me.

yeah that was probably a good call. I'm not feeling particularly well either, but im in so much emotional pain i'm hoping the alcohol will help.

i feel the same way about oxycodone/oxycontin. different bodies respond differently i guess.

 

[Squiddy]

When you hope you might have caught a break and could die soonsies...

Welcome to everything but the kitchen sink thread :D discuss anything you want here (including the kitchen sink)

 

[Backwood_tilt]

trying to avoid the urge to smoke a cigarette, which will keep me from sleeping properly for a while longer.

I've got an event i'm supposed to attend tomorrow at noon and based on how my schedule's been last week, i will be up and mobile by the time everyone is home and done for the day.

 

[Squiddy]

I hope this paranoia I'm having goes away
I think I'm gonna call it a night

 

[Backwood_tilt]

Good night. I'm off as well.

Going to be impatiently wishing for death, per usual.