Venting The need to get worse. To indulge t he delusions.

[LevUwU]

 

[real human being]

that is fucking dark

 

[4everDone]

I need to get worse but this time for the last time

 

[LevUwU]

that is fucking dark

Enough darkness becomes the illusion of light to me. Good enough thus I need to get wosrse

 

[d-tea]

Why do we do this to ourselves?
If I don't self harm,
I start drinking daily & during work hours to cope.
If I don't drink,
I start not eating to cope.
If I don't starve myself,
I start not sleeping and working all the time to cope.
If I don't overwork myself,
I drink too much caffeine or take too much of a medication to feel different to cope.
If I don't abuse medication,
I start not dressing appropriately for the weather and freezing/sweating to cope.
If I don't do any of that,
I overthink normal things my partner expresses so that I feel bad to cope.

Or several of the above at the same time.
Why do some of us want to feel bad? What's wrong with me, why don't I just want to feel happy?

 

[LevUwU]

Why do we do this to ourselves?
If I don't self harm,
I start drinking daily & during work hours to cope.
If I don't drink,
I start not eating to cope.
If I don't starve myself,
I start not sleeping and working all the time to cope.
If I don't overwork myself,
I drink too much caffeine or take too much of a medication to feel different to cope.
If I don't abuse medication,
I start not dressing appropriately for the weather and freezing/sweating to cope.
If I don't do any of that,
I overthink normal things my partner expresses so that I feel bad to cope.

Or several of the above at the same time.
Why do some of us want to feel bad? What's wrong with me, why don't I just want to feel happy?

its all we know

 

[xinino]

I dare you to be normie.

 

[LevUwU]

I dare you to be normie.

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