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LevUwU

LevUwU

I hate my life and the government
Mar 16, 2024
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real human being

real human being

full of broken thoughts
Jan 28, 2022
226
that is fucking dark
 
4everDone

4everDone

death is freedom
Feb 2, 2024
124
I need to get worse but this time for the last time
 
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d-tea

d-tea

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Apr 7, 2024
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Why do we do this to ourselves?
If I don't self harm,
I start drinking daily & during work hours to cope.
If I don't drink,
I start not eating to cope.
If I don't starve myself,
I start not sleeping and working all the time to cope.
If I don't overwork myself,
I drink too much caffeine or take too much of a medication to feel different to cope.
If I don't abuse medication,
I start not dressing appropriately for the weather and freezing/sweating to cope.
If I don't do any of that,
I overthink normal things my partner expresses so that I feel bad to cope.

Or several of the above at the same time.
Why do some of us want to feel bad? What's wrong with me, why don't I just want to feel happy?
 
LevUwU

LevUwU

I hate my life and the government
Mar 16, 2024
190
Why do we do this to ourselves?
If I don't self harm,
I start drinking daily & during work hours to cope.
If I don't drink,
I start not eating to cope.
If I don't starve myself,
I start not sleeping and working all the time to cope.
If I don't overwork myself,
I drink too much caffeine or take too much of a medication to feel different to cope.
If I don't abuse medication,
I start not dressing appropriately for the weather and freezing/sweating to cope.
If I don't do any of that,
I overthink normal things my partner expresses so that I feel bad to cope.

Or several of the above at the same time.
Why do some of us want to feel bad? What's wrong with me, why don't I just want to feel happy?
its all we know
 

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