Venting The little “you don’t matter” messages that add up every day

[light.house.71]

I'm sure many, many people here have experienced this, but every once in a while it hits me so hard that I start visualizing one or more methods for departing this world. I am dealing with underlying depressive disorder or perhaps BD-NOS coupled with the implosion of my career several years ago, thanks to someone who systematically bullied me in the workplace. I find just walking into a workplace triggering. But just about zero people care; in fact even those closest to me participate in victim blaming (I must have invited this on myself). Yet sometimes the hardest things to bear are the relatively small infractions - my boss referring to me in a demeaning way or being excluded from an outing with my colleagues - that quickly add up and reinforce my belief that my birth was a colossal mistake and that I just wasn't supposed to take up any space on this planet. That said, I'll try to stop venting for a bit and see if I can lend any support to others.

 

[Outandproud]

Im sorry that they bullied you in your workplace and the boss added even more bullying. They probably were covert narcissists or something

 

[leavingsoon99]

I'm so sorry that you experienced that. The workplace is such a toxic, childish environment. It's not conducive to strong mental health at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really awful how humans just create more suffering and make existing even worse for other people, it must had been so horrible having to put up with people like that.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

We're entitled to the space we occupy regardless of other people's opinions of us.