the Good Bye thread

[yourrealname]

hello!
i will be taking sn tomorrow. just making this post cus i never found a partner to ctb with, so was wondering if anyone would be able to meet up in greater london (i'll give a more specific location via dm if someone is certain they can meet) tomorrow?

literally just in order to ctb.. a bit awkward but simultaneously not really cus.. we'll just say hey and ctb together.

thank you all in any case. i never really got too close to anybody on here, but it was nice to have somewhere to lurk and occasionally post during my sad times. so many of you are so lovely and genuinely incredible souls that deserve nothing but the best. i hope you all find what you're looking for <3

p.s. i'll likely delete this account around 1230pm or 330pm tomorrow so i'm down for last minute dms if you can partner up with me!

 

[FuneralCry]

It's not worth it trying to find a suicide partner, it's too risky and isn't ctb already difficult enough without additional complications of somebody else being involved. But anyway farewell and I wish you the best of luck.

 

[stermc]

I wish you all the freedom and peace you wish for. And I hope you know your soul is important and special.
See you on the other side

 

[Shivali]

:Herz: May you find what you are looking for

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Uber]

@yourrealname I hope you're able to hang around longer. I'm new here and would like to get to know you a little better.

 

[ikadasui]

It's not worth it trying to find a suicide partner, it's too risky and isn't ctb already difficult enough without additional complications of somebody else being involved. But anyway farewell and I wish you the best of luck.

Yeah, what FC is saying it's never a good idea and I wouldn't say it's wise to trust people you are unfamiliar with intentions, as that will surely lead to terrible things happening. Wishing you well

 

[DaatiSimi]

May you have an easy transition

 

[Uber]

@yourrealname Hey, thanks for the PM. I'm new at this and I can't tell if my messages are being sent.

How are you feeling today?

 

[murakamicats]

Good luck.

 

[yourrealname]

hello . This is likely not the news you all want to hear but i was not able to go through with it. my sn was/is mixed but survival instinct is so loud and annoying. im terrified of it hurting because i know that will lead to me trying to get help, thus failing. im sorry. and this was a perfect example of my avoidance when things don't work out. i really thought i would have done it by now. i am sure i will be able to do it once i get some anti-anxiety pills

 

[Forever Sleep]

You don't need to apologise. No one is hoping you will do it. We're just here for each other either way. Really- none of us know whether we'll be able to go through with it when the time comes. I'm sure it's very scary. It's probably better not to go through with it when you are panicking. I imagine it would make it more likely you would call for help.

I hope you can take some time to rest now. Be kind to yourself.

 

[LocalAngel]

No need to be sorry, really. We're here to support you regardless of what decision you make- and being scared of a toxic chemical is like! human instinct 101, it makes sense! At least, i think so.
I think i'd feel the same way about trying to reach out for help, which is mainly why i'll be locking everything up, throwing away the keys so that i can't leave the house and can't contact anyone. Probably. SI is hard, lol.

 

[sincerelysad]

hello . This is likely not the news you all want to hear but i was not able to go through with it. my sn was/is mixed but survival instinct is so loud and annoying. im terrified of it hurting because i know that will lead to me trying to get help, thus failing. im sorry. and this was a perfect example of my avoidance when things don't work out. i really thought i would have done it by now. i am sure i will be able to do it once i get some anti-anxiety pills

never apologize <33 dying is hard. probably the hardest thing ever. you don't ever have to be sorry for not killing yourself.
also, many of us are not pro-death (as well as not pro-life) and therefore we would never be upset to hear someone didn't go through with ctb. <3

 

[CTB Fella]

I had two exit partners from here, and they both let me down.

You have a big decision to make; don't let some fuck head make it even more difficult for you.

I'm actually in London, and planning on ODing today, ironically.

 

[Source Energy]

hello . This is likely not the news you all want to hear but i was not able to go through with it. my sn was/is mixed but survival instinct is so loud and annoying. im terrified of it hurting because i know that will lead to me trying to get help, thus failing. im sorry. and this was a perfect example of my avoidance when things don't work out. i really thought i would have done it by now. i am sure i will be able to do it once i get some anti-anxiety pills

Mine will be here by Monday, but I don't know if and when will I be able to take it. It will be nice having it though, if I get too desperate, I know it's there and I have a way out.
N might reappear, they say...Fingers crossed!