FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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Sweet dreams, dear Seele.It tastes like salt, but it's strange. agh
HmI think that saying goodbye without seeming like you're saying goodbye is a subtle way of not causing an impact on the people you love. The suffering is already there; I drank a lot of alcohol, but I told myself, "That's enough!" There's no reason to prolong my existence; I already have what I need in my hands. I calculated everything like the chemist I once was. One sip and all the suffering will end. It's better to die at 23 than to spend 80 years agonizing slowly. My friend and my love are gone, what do I have left when my family cares so little? To live alone, suffering intensely with borderline, pushing everything away and destroying everything? I'm tired of it. I don't care if I have an IQ of 141; it's just a number! What's the point of having 4 disorders that take turns tormenting me?
Life is a fatal gift... Since I am anonymous... I think, just take it already and die!
"I leave silently through the back door of the theater of life, and ... close the door to hell, the one who is the last to leave."- Seele AKA Christina.
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Interesting, she apparently didn't take the benzos, consistent writingI don't feel anything, just a bitter taste in my mouth. I miss you QM and Sun
I feel a bad taste and difficulty breathing, my body feels tingly
I feel very sick
there is definitely a spectrum of experiences with SN. it's a very nuanced topic. I think it's important to take note, considering how they were going into it.Interesting, she apparently didn't take the benzos, consistent writing
Never got the pleasure of speaking to you but from what I've gathered in the comments it'll be a shame to lose you. Rest well SeeleI think that saying goodbye without seeming like you're saying goodbye is a subtle way of not causing an impact on the people you love. The suffering is already there; I drank a lot of alcohol, but I told myself, "That's enough!" There's no reason to prolong my existence; I already have what I need in my hands. I calculated everything like the chemist I once was. One sip and all the suffering will end. It's better to die at 23 than to spend 80 years agonizing slowly. My friend and my love are gone, what do I have left when my family cares so little? To live alone, suffering intensely with borderline, pushing everything away and destroying everything? I'm tired of it. I don't care if I have an IQ of 141; it's just a number! What's the point of having 4 disorders that take turns tormenting me?
Life is a fatal gift... Since I am anonymous... I think, just take it already and die!
"I leave silently through the back door of the theater of life, and ... close the door to hell, the one who is the last to leave."- Seele AKA Christina.
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