Venting The Frost by Mitski type of mood

[apearl]

I have had a heavy heart for a while now, but it has gotten out of hands recently. My friend is spacing away from me and I've already tried talking to her about it, I've already tried changing to be someone she likes more, I tried giving her space, its no use. I don't think It'll ever be the same close-knit friendship it was like 3 years ago. Shes my only friend which makes this ten times harder, I have no one to talk to, no one to help me with all this grief.

Whenever I bring this up on forums they always say "make friends and get a bigger peer circle" but with severe social anxiety its hard for me to even talk to a cashier nevermind attend social events and go up to people. I've tried to make friends before too and it has never worked. I haven't made a friend in the last six years and this friend who is spacing away from me I've known for almost ten years. Im hurt and I know there is nothing I can do.

Maybe I will make friends one day, but what can I do too soothe the hurt im feeling now?

 

[lavenderlilylies]

I'm very sorry you're going through this. I've been in her position, it had nothing to do with who my friend is, I was in a dark place mentally myself. I know it's not easy, but if nothing you do helps, try to not take it personally, maybe it's not. people make their own choices, let her make hers.

I struggle to make friends as well, so I know it's not always a feasible advice, but having someone else to talk to does make things easier. I'm sorry I can't give any advice when it comes to making irl friends, but I'm here to listen if you want to talk about it.

 

[SVEN]

I'm sorry, I don't know how to make friends and have never really ever had any. I wish you well in the friendship you have and hope it returns to where it was.
Like Lavender posted, there are two sides to each friendship and this (hopefully temporary) estrangement may be due to things in your friend's life.