Venting The first time I feel safe

[ringo99]

After decades of stifling myself finding this site was the first time I actually feel safe in confiding my pain and true feelings. The fact that SS put me on to SN is the only reason why I didn't impulsively choose something more painful like hanging or cutting. I'm finally relaxed at knowing that when I do decide to ctb I'd owe it all to this wonderful community that understood my suffering and guided me to a relatively painless death.

On the flip side if by some improbable miracle my situation does improve to the point that I no longer need to ctb (doubt it) I'd again owe it to SS for keeping me sane until I could turn my life around.

 

[LoiteringClouds]

After decades of stifling myself finding this site was the first time I actually feel safe in confiding my pain and true feelings. The fact that SS put me on to SN is the only reason why I didn't impulsively choose something more painful like hanging or cutting. I'm finally relaxed at knowing that when I do decide to ctb I'd owe it all to this wonderful community that understood my suffering and guided me to a relatively painless death.

On the flip side if by some improbable miracle my situation does improve to the point that I no longer need to ctb (doubt it) I'd again owe it to SS for keeping me sane until I could turn my life around.

Hello @ringo99,
I'm happy to hear that.
Recovery is hard, but,
I wish you'll be fine.

SS also greatly relieved me.
People are amazing here.
They drowned my fear -
I felt finally I was set free.

I'm sorry you ended up here but now you have a voice.
Here, few people laugh at your view
or tell you what to do -
It's your choice.

I hope you can get support you need here.
Sorry for being weirdo but I wish you the best

 

[Worndown]

Many people experience this. Sharing and conversation is helpful. I hope all goes well for you.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you the best. Hopefully you can recover.

 

[Deleted member 31858]

I think many of us here can identify with this. If not for SaSu we would have chosen a method that could have left us in a worse place. And it is not only because of the choice of the method or that we already have it ready for when we decide that it has been enough, but here we have been able to find the empathy and confidence to talk about everything without being judged, many have even managed to recover, without a doubt this It is a safe place. I hope things can get better for you, I wish you the best

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Yes indeed, it's good to know not to be the only one with sometimes unsolvable problems in the world out there. And talking freely about thoughts and plans without being judged is great and can help a lot!

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be such a relief having the option of SN, I think that those who are able to obtain SN in this world where it's becoming more and more difficult to access certainly are fortunate, I wish you the best.