The drugs dont work

[Chockles]

I've been bed ridden in extreme agony 9 months now. I know I can't recover. I'm hoping to acquire N at end of month & hope I can go through with it.

Meantime I'm living with my elderly parents who are devastated by my demise. Now accept my need to die but have no idea how severe my pain is.

I've never been into drugs j mean i dabbled with a few soft drugs in my life but to be honest cannabis was really the only thing I enjoyed along with a few drinks. I've had many scripts from GP but nothing has helped. I've nowvl 1st time acquired pregabalin & oxy illegally & have been getting benzos a while for sleep but I really don't like taking any of them. They just don't touch the pain in my ears & jaw tho they numb the pain in my limbs a bit.

I used to work with people with addictions. Many died from a combo of benzos, oxy & pregabs yet I read on here it's unlikely to happen. I've considered taking the lot 20 x 30mg ir with some 300mg pregabs (I have loads), benzos & alcohol but I'm extremely ill as it is ^ would need to ensure itd kill me. Others I need to wait & try get N.

Everything in my body is on fire. Electric bolts, burning ice pick pain, nerves & muscles destroyed I think by hidden mold I lived in for 10 years. I'm scared of the act of suicide yet I'm existing only in torturous hell. Always been risk averse especially with drugs yet now I'm taking anything I can find to dunt the pain but nothing works it just makes me drowsy but the pain & other symptoms are still extreme.

I'd like to confess my sins may be on another thread as although it's severe physical pain that has made me suicidal every day for 9 solid months, I have realised I have mental issues too which I'm struggling to come to terms with genetic conditions I was born with that I didn't realise impacted my life Until fairly recently suspected mild autism, adhd, fatigue all my life. Social awkwardness & inability to keep friends. I've lied a lot in my life but not to hurt others just to make my life sound more interesting as I've always lacked confidence & now I'm really physically ill these things are on my mind all the time.

I worry I may be going to help tho I don't really have any real religious beliefs. I know I'm currently living in hell & death can't be any worse than this yet I'm scared of the actual act & finding a method that will work I've had failures with partial hanging, and dehydration. Now my options are very limited being bed ridden in agony

My parents accept that I'm buying illegal drugs to try reduce the pain & want me to die peacefully at home as they cannot bear to see me suffering yet at the same time they don't want me to die. Ivdoj5 want to die either but I simply cannot go on like this.

I'm hoping that by talking about my fears & my life mistakes on ss, I can find peace to end this misery sooner than later. I realise now most of my life has been difficult but I had good times there was just a lot of underlying trauma i didn't understand. I believe my genetic issues have contributed to my toxic overload both physical & emotional but now i hsve irreversible nerve damage & im cryung with the pain all the time.

Acquiring N seems the answer but the process of getting it worries me. If it arrives 200ml seems a lot to swallow when I already struggle with swallowing issues similar to motor nuron but it's just down to nerve damage. Yet I feel there is no other option unless oxy could work.

I'm rambling, I'm going to stop now. None of my conditions or symptoms are terminal yet i feel on deaths door every waking hour & it's so hard talking to my parents about my pain and need to die it makes me so emotional & my anxiety takes over. I am running the end of their lives too they are 77 & 80 & feel they can't go holidays or day trips as they cant leave me in my own they feed me, do my laundry, everything I need but nothing helps the immense pain & they both feel useless that they can't help their only daughter it makes me feel so guilty & ashamed that I've landed up in this position. Maybe things would have been different had I known at an earlier age more ago I my genetic disorders But none of my symptoms were obvious enough for anyone to be concerned and now it's too late.

I need help to find peace by talking about my fears & past issues & have no one left to talk to. My partner left me 4 months ago, he couldn't help me either & felt useless. The few friends ivdid have all vanished in the pandemic as we only ever talked on nights out when I was less I'll something bad happened in the pandemic to me shutting off my ears & jaw, I was having seizures yet wasn't admitted to hospital due to covid, not that a&e would have been able to help I've since been in hospital & they don't understand nerve damage & mold toxicity & blame mental health for everything. Gave me antidepressants which do sod all & told me it was all anxiety.

So now I need to find the guts to die as I simply cannot live like this much longer.
I have to die before my parents time dog that they can bury me, grieve & I can rest in peace.

I am so scared. I cannot control my pain or anxiety & the little chemical sleeps I get are disturbed by bad dreams.

There is no one like me with my vast array of horrific symptomson support groups. I believe that is because it is so severe they have already done ctb. I wish I'd had gyrs to end things 7 months ago when I could still walk a little & lived closer to high buildings to jump from. Instead I'm living in torturous hell & destroying my parents lives at the same time.

I need support to give me the strength to end my life

 

[Jumping_realms]

Damn. I'm sorry.

Pregabalin is just a step up from Gabapentin. It may work and give you relief since you suffer nerve issues/damage, but that wouldn't be anything I'd use in combo with an attempt.

I'd say that amount would possibly fail regardless, but If you are taking the opiates and benzos and have a tolerance there's not much of a chance. That's just my opinion. People that try to OD on prescription drugs only have a 12% success rate. I would try to make a solid plan, personally, with a better success rate. That's not always easy, unfortunately.

 

[Apricity]

Depending on where you live, it sounds like you might be eligible for euthanasia. They give powder, which you can mix with less water. Probably tastes worse but it goes down quicker. If I was in your situation, I'd hopefully have an IV I could put the 200ml in.

 

[Chockles]

Depending on where you live, it sounds like you might be eligible for euthanasia. They give powder, which you can mix with less water. Probably tastes worse but it goes down quicker. If I was in your situation, I'd hopefully have an IV I could put the 200ml in.

Not an option in uk. Too Ill to travel to Switzerland & probably wouldn't get accepted as no evidence if my severe pain & nerve damage. Have to find a way to get N & take it orally.

Damn. I'm sorry.

Pregabalin is just a step up from Gabapentin. It may work and give you relief since you suffer nerve issues/damage, but that wouldn't be anything I'd use in combo with an attempt.

I'd say that amount would possibly fail regardless, but If you are taking the opiates and benzos and have a tolerance there's not much of a chance. That's just my opinion. People that try to OD on prescription drugs only have a 12% success rate. I would try to make a solid plan, personally, with a better success rate. That's not always easy, unfortunately.

12% success rate doesn't appeal I've already had failed ctb attempts. Pregabs no longer help my pain much to be honest. I think I need to acquire N & find a way to take it orally.

 

[BobMorane]

I think I need to acquire N & find a way to take it orally.

I think so too. To make it easier you could always take 4 x 50 ml shots of N, or 8 x 25 ml. Thats what im planning to do since I got a gag reflex so reactive that its hard to keep anything down. Wish you peace !

 

[Jumping_realms]

I think so too. To make it easier you could always take 4 x 50 ml shots of N, or 8 x 25 ml. Thats what im planning to do since I got a gag reflex so reactive that its hard to keep anything down. Wish you peace !

Would you have time to do 8 little shots? The 4 may be more possible if relatively fast for someone, but you know your speed and consumption ability better.

I may of "dreamed" one go out in literally 2-3 min off 200ml and the other stayed up and fought it maybe 6-8 min max through a stream. Both consumed at the same time. It was eye opening how potent and quick the Vet N works. I think just 2 50ml shots may even put someone out quick, possibly 5 minutes, so if someone were to drink 4 50ml in less than 2 min each, I would think it would be risky.

I would just say plan as careful as possible. I now am.

Good luck whatever you do decide to do.

 

[BobMorane]

Would you have time to do 8 little shots? The 4 may be more possible if relatively fast for someone, but you know your speed and consumption ability better.

I may of "dreamed" one go out in literally 2-3 min off 200ml and the other stayed up and fought it maybe 6-8 min max through a stream. Both consumed at the same time. It was eye opening how potent and quick the Vet N works. I think just 2 50ml shots may even put someone out quick, possibly 5 minutes, so if someone were to drink 4 50ml in less than 2 min each, I would think it would be risky.

I would just say plan as careful as possible. I now am.

Good luck whatever you do decide to do.

You're right, it's a bit tight. Let's say it takes 2 minutes to fall asleep, that's 1 shot every 30 seconds, a bit short I'd say. Then maybe try and gulp 2 x 100 ml with a little pause in between

 

[Jumping_realms]

You're right, it's a bit tight. Let's say it takes 2 minutes to fall asleep, that's 1 shot every 30 seconds, a bit short I'd say. Then maybe try and gulp 2 x 100 ml with a little pause in between

I'm thinking the average person would take around 5, but you never really know, I suppose, depending on the individual.

 

[Naufrago]

I've been bed ridden in extreme agony 9 months now. I know I can't recover. I'm hoping to acquire N at end of month & hope I can go through with it.

Meantime I'm living with my elderly parents who are devastated by my demise. Now accept my need to die but have no idea how severe my pain is.

I've never been into drugs j mean i dabbled with a few soft drugs in my life but to be honest cannabis was really the only thing I enjoyed along with a few drinks. I've had many scripts from GP but nothing has helped. I've nowvl 1st time acquired pregabalin & oxy illegally & have been getting benzos a while for sleep but I really don't like taking any of them. They just don't touch the pain in my ears & jaw tho they numb the pain in my limbs a bit.

I used to work with people with addictions. Many died from a combo of benzos, oxy & pregabs yet I read on here it's unlikely to happen. I've considered taking the lot 20 x 30mg ir with some 300mg pregabs (I have loads), benzos & alcohol but I'm extremely ill as it is ^ would need to ensure itd kill me. Others I need to wait & try get N.

Everything in my body is on fire. Electric bolts, burning ice pick pain, nerves & muscles destroyed I think by hidden mold I lived in for 10 years. I'm scared of the act of suicide yet I'm existing only in torturous hell. Always been risk averse especially with drugs yet now I'm taking anything I can find to dunt the pain but nothing works it just makes me drowsy but the pain & other symptoms are still extreme.

I'd like to confess my sins may be on another thread as although it's severe physical pain that has made me suicidal every day for 9 solid months, I have realised I have mental issues too which I'm struggling to come to terms with genetic conditions I was born with that I didn't realise impacted my life Until fairly recently suspected mild autism, adhd, fatigue all my life. Social awkwardness & inability to keep friends. I've lied a lot in my life but not to hurt others just to make my life sound more interesting as I've always lacked confidence & now I'm really physically ill these things are on my mind all the time.

I worry I may be going to help tho I don't really have any real religious beliefs. I know I'm currently living in hell & death can't be any worse than this yet I'm scared of the actual act & finding a method that will work I've had failures with partial hanging, and dehydration. Now my options are very limited being bed ridden in agony

My parents accept that I'm buying illegal drugs to try reduce the pain & want me to die peacefully at home as they cannot bear to see me suffering yet at the same time they don't want me to die. Ivdoj5 want to die either but I simply cannot go on like this.

I'm hoping that by talking about my fears & my life mistakes on ss, I can find peace to end this misery sooner than later. I realise now most of my life has been difficult but I had good times there was just a lot of underlying trauma i didn't understand. I believe my genetic issues have contributed to my toxic overload both physical & emotional but now i hsve irreversible nerve damage & im cryung with the pain all the time.

Acquiring N seems the answer but the process of getting it worries me. If it arrives 200ml seems a lot to swallow when I already struggle with swallowing issues similar to motor nuron but it's just down to nerve damage. Yet I feel there is no other option unless oxy could work.

I'm rambling, I'm going to stop now. None of my conditions or symptoms are terminal yet i feel on deaths door every waking hour & it's so hard talking to my parents about my pain and need to die it makes me so emotional & my anxiety takes over. I am running the end of their lives too they are 77 & 80 & feel they can't go holidays or day trips as they cant leave me in my own they feed me, do my laundry, everything I need but nothing helps the immense pain & they both feel useless that they can't help their only daughter it makes me feel so guilty & ashamed that I've landed up in this position. Maybe things would have been different had I known at an earlier age more ago I my genetic disorders But none of my symptoms were obvious enough for anyone to be concerned and now it's too late.

I need help to find peace by talking about my fears & past issues & have no one left to talk to. My partner left me 4 months ago, he couldn't help me either & felt useless. The few friends ivdid have all vanished in the pandemic as we only ever talked on nights out when I was less I'll something bad happened in the pandemic to me shutting off my ears & jaw, I was having seizures yet wasn't admitted to hospital due to covid, not that a&e would have been able to help I've since been in hospital & they don't understand nerve damage & mold toxicity & blame mental health for everything. Gave me antidepressants which do sod all & told me it was all anxiety.

So now I need to find the guts to die as I simply cannot live like this much longer.
I have to die before my parents time dog that they can bury me, grieve & I can rest in peace.

I am so scared. I cannot control my pain or anxiety & the little chemical sleeps I get are disturbed by bad dreams.

There is no one like me with my vast array of horrific symptomson support groups. I believe that is because it is so severe they have already done ctb. I wish I'd had gyrs to end things 7 months ago when I could still walk a little & lived closer to high buildings to jump from. Instead I'm living in torturous hell & destroying my parents lives at the same time.

I need support to give me the strength to end my life

Fiquei profundamente tocado pelo seu estado e situação. Não tema a morte, você descansará. Não tenha medo do que ensinam sobre o inferno. Essa antiga, arcaica e desumana doutrina foi inventada por homens sem escrúpulo, que no passado e ainda hoje querem manter o controle sobre o indivíduo e as massas. Fique em paz.

 

[Pharmaruined]

Oh damn . I know you're suffering. It if you want to confirm it's mold you can order a mycotoxin urine test from realtimelab

Also the shoemaker protocol will help u get it out of your system with binders etc..

It's a bit of a process . It's the first thing I had to do when I crashed . unfortunately there was another issue going on that lead up to the mold poisoning..

Good luck.. pm me if u need help or specifics on mold detox..

 

[Chockles]

Would you have time to do 8 little shots? The 4 may be more possible if relatively fast for someone, but you know your speed and consumption ability better.

I may of "dreamed" one go out in literally 2-3 min off 200ml and the other stayed up and fought it maybe 6-8 min max through a stream. Both consumed at the same time. It was eye opening how potent and quick the Vet N works. I think just 2 50ml shots may even put someone out quick, possibly 5 minutes, so if someone were to drink 4 50ml in less than 2 min each, I would think it would be risky.

I would just say plan as careful as possible. I now am.

Good luck whatever you do decide to do.

That's my worry. Get to 2nd shot & pass out but fail to ctb as not enough.
I haven't acquired N yet saving up plan to try obtain by end of month.
I'll likely try myb 3ml through syringe for a sleep to get idea of taste then plan my ctb from there.
Someone mentioned botot mouthwash can numb the gums & hide the taste a bit so I've bought bottle of that & going to experience with it.
Also tried drinking 200ml vodka straight (I hate vodka & it was hard to get down).
I never times it I will try that next time may be with the botot 1st.

Oh damn . I know you're suffering. It if you want to confirm it's mold you can order a mycotoxin urine test from realtimelab

Also the shoemaker protocol will help u get it out of your system with binders etc..

It's a bit of a process . It's the first thing I had to do when I crashed . unfortunately there was another issue going on that lead up to the mold poisoning..

Good luck.. pm me if u need help or specifics on mold detox..

I did all that. Unfortunately in the UK no one believes in mold. I paid for a functional doctor but it was too late, too long hidden exposure then found it all in lockdown doing up my flat for sale it got into my ears & jaw attacked my already low immune system destroyed all my muscles & nerves. I did follow the Neil Nathan protocols for a year, got out of mold but it made no difference the damage was done here in uk nhs laugh if you mention mold as an issue. They just don't want to believe in such things.

I'm thinking the average person would take around 5, but you never really know, I suppose, depending on the individual.

Ok I'll practice with getting 200ml vodka down as quickly as possible until i get N.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Ok I'll practice with getting 200ml vodka down as quickly as possible until i get N.

I'm not sure you have to do that much or vodka, but you can if you think it may help. I wouldn't drink that much too often leading up, due to possible cross tolerance.

 

[Chockles]

I'm not sure you have to do that much or vodka, but you can if you think it may help. I wouldn't drink that much too often leading up, due to possible cross tolerance.

Ok I'll practice more wirh water 1st for timing & amount of gulps then vodka once later as hare the taste be a test for getting foul tasting stuff down x

 

[endthispain]

I've been bed ridden in extreme agony 9 months now. I know I can't recover. I'm hoping to acquire N at end of month & hope I can go through with it.

Meantime I'm living with my elderly parents who are devastated by my demise. Now accept my need to die but have no idea how severe my pain is.

I've never been into drugs j mean i dabbled with a few soft drugs in my life but to be honest cannabis was really the only thing I enjoyed along with a few drinks. I've had many scripts from GP but nothing has helped. I've nowvl 1st time acquired pregabalin & oxy illegally & have been getting benzos a while for sleep but I really don't like taking any of them. They just don't touch the pain in my ears & jaw tho they numb the pain in my limbs a bit.

I used to work with people with addictions. Many died from a combo of benzos, oxy & pregabs yet I read on here it's unlikely to happen. I've considered taking the lot 20 x 30mg ir with some 300mg pregabs (I have loads), benzos & alcohol but I'm extremely ill as it is ^ would need to ensure itd kill me. Others I need to wait & try get N.

Everything in my body is on fire. Electric bolts, burning ice pick pain, nerves & muscles destroyed I think by hidden mold I lived in for 10 years. I'm scared of the act of suicide yet I'm existing only in torturous hell. Always been risk averse especially with drugs yet now I'm taking anything I can find to dunt the pain but nothing works it just makes me drowsy but the pain & other symptoms are still extreme.

I'd like to confess my sins may be on another thread as although it's severe physical pain that has made me suicidal every day for 9 solid months, I have realised I have mental issues too which I'm struggling to come to terms with genetic conditions I was born with that I didn't realise impacted my life Until fairly recently suspected mild autism, adhd, fatigue all my life. Social awkwardness & inability to keep friends. I've lied a lot in my life but not to hurt others just to make my life sound more interesting as I've always lacked confidence & now I'm really physically ill these things are on my mind all the time.

I worry I may be going to help tho I don't really have any real religious beliefs. I know I'm currently living in hell & death can't be any worse than this yet I'm scared of the actual act & finding a method that will work I've had failures with partial hanging, and dehydration. Now my options are very limited being bed ridden in agony

My parents accept that I'm buying illegal drugs to try reduce the pain & want me to die peacefully at home as they cannot bear to see me suffering yet at the same time they don't want me to die. Ivdoj5 want to die either but I simply cannot go on like this.

I'm hoping that by talking about my fears & my life mistakes on ss, I can find peace to end this misery sooner than later. I realise now most of my life has been difficult but I had good times there was just a lot of underlying trauma i didn't understand. I believe my genetic issues have contributed to my toxic overload both physical & emotional but now i hsve irreversible nerve damage & im cryung with the pain all the time.

Acquiring N seems the answer but the process of getting it worries me. If it arrives 200ml seems a lot to swallow when I already struggle with swallowing issues similar to motor nuron but it's just down to nerve damage. Yet I feel there is no other option unless oxy could work.

I'm rambling, I'm going to stop now. None of my conditions or symptoms are terminal yet i feel on deaths door every waking hour & it's so hard talking to my parents about my pain and need to die it makes me so emotional & my anxiety takes over. I am running the end of their lives too they are 77 & 80 & feel they can't go holidays or day trips as they cant leave me in my own they feed me, do my laundry, everything I need but nothing helps the immense pain & they both feel useless that they can't help their only daughter it makes me feel so guilty & ashamed that I've landed up in this position. Maybe things would have been different had I known at an earlier age more ago I my genetic disorders But none of my symptoms were obvious enough for anyone to be concerned and now it's too late.

I need help to find peace by talking about my fears & past issues & have no one left to talk to. My partner left me 4 months ago, he couldn't help me either & felt useless. The few friends ivdid have all vanished in the pandemic as we only ever talked on nights out when I was less I'll something bad happened in the pandemic to me shutting off my ears & jaw, I was having seizures yet wasn't admitted to hospital due to covid, not that a&e would have been able to help I've since been in hospital & they don't understand nerve damage & mold toxicity & blame mental health for everything. Gave me antidepressants which do sod all & told me it was all anxiety.

So now I need to find the guts to die as I simply cannot live like this much longer.
I have to die before my parents time dog that they can bury me, grieve & I can rest in peace.

I am so scared. I cannot control my pain or anxiety & the little chemical sleeps I get are disturbed by bad dreams.

There is no one like me with my vast array of horrific symptomson support groups. I believe that is because it is so severe they have already done ctb. I wish I'd had gyrs to end things 7 months ago when I could still walk a little & lived closer to high buildings to jump from. Instead I'm living in torturous hell & destroying my parents lives at the same time.

I need support to give me the strength to end my life

I feel the same way. No meds help. Have tried everything ketamine ect amd loads of drugs. Too painful to live anymore. Need N too. Want peaceful death. I just joined this forum so still learning how to navigate it.

 

[Pharmaruined]

That's my worry. Get to 2nd shot & pass out but fail to ctb as not enough.
I haven't acquired N yet saving up plan to try obtain by end of month.
I'll likely try myb 3ml through syringe for a sleep to get idea of taste then plan my ctb from there.
Someone mentioned botot mouthwash can numb the gums & hide the taste a bit so I've bought bottle of that & going to experience with it.
Also tried drinking 200ml vodka straight (I hate vodka & it was hard to get down).
I never times it I will try that next time may be with the botot 1st.

I did all that. Unfortunately in the UK no one believes in mold. I paid for a functional doctor but it was too late, too long hidden exposure then found it all in lockdown doing up my flat for sale it got into my ears & jaw attacked my already low immune system destroyed all my muscles & nerves. I did follow the Neil Nathan protocols for a year, got out of mold but it made no difference the damage was done here in uk nhs laugh if you mention mold as an issue. They just don't want to believe in such things.

Ok I'll practice with getting 200ml vodka down as quickly as possible until i get N.

Oh damn.. yea nobody believes mold toxicity in U.S as well.. I spent hundreds of thousands trying to get well.. when I finally got all the mold toxicity out all the lyme which was dormant and curled up started to open and I spent years going after the lyme .. I literally watched it in my blood start to bloom into a raging infection.. what a fucking pain in the ass..

when I finally got the lyme under control I realized it was the fucking dht blockers and hairloss drugs that crashed my endocrine system in the first place.. I don't blame you for wanting to throw in the towel.. the suffering is just so intense.. I wish I could offer some relief in the interim..

I will say as simple as it sounds, epsom salt baths do help.. flushes the liver ducts, relaxes the system and helps with adrenals.. and it's cheap.. also NAC if u can get it , another liver tonic and helps with inflammation..
Just want to note that you likely have major heavy metal toxicity.. probably aluminum and lead..if you have all that pain,

there is a way to detox it but it can take a year or so.. it's called mineral balancing and there are practitioners in the UK.. they use arl labs. Hair testing and supplement to get it out..

it does work, but takes time.. not sure if you still have any fight for this . But just wanted to let u know..

 

[Johnjohn1]

Oh damn.. yea nobody believes mold toxicity in U.S as well.. I spent hundreds of thousands trying to get well.. when I finally got all the mold toxicity out all the lyme which was dormant and curled up started to open and I spent years going after the lyme .. I literally watched it in my blood start to bloom into a raging infection.. what a fucking pain in the ass..

when I finally got the lyme under control I realized it was the fucking dht blockers and hairloss drugs that crashed my endocrine system in the first place.. I don't blame you for wanting to throw in the towel.. the suffering is just so intense.. I wish I could offer some relief in the interim..

I will say as simple as it sounds, epsom salt baths do help.. flushes the liver ducts, relaxes the system and helps with adrenals.. and it's cheap.. also NAC if u can get it , another liver tonic and helps with inflammation..
Just want to note that you likely have major heavy metal toxicity.. probably aluminum and lead..if you have all that pain,

there is a way to detox it but it can take a year or so.. it's called mineral balancing and there are practitioners in the UK.. they use arl labs. Hair testing and supplement to get it out..

it does work, but takes time.. not sure if you still have any fight for this . But just wanted to let u know..

I also have Lyme disease and mold. It is Hell on Earth! But I was severely damaged by the antibiotic Levaquin and that caused everything in the first place. I think I had a dormant case of Lyme disease but Levaquin trashed my gut and damage my nerves and tendons along with my central nervous system. I have spent over 200,000 trying to get better

 

[Chockles]

I also have Lyme disease and mold. It is Hell on Earth! But I was severely damaged by the antibiotic Levaquin and that caused everything in the first place. I think I had a dormant case of Lyme disease but Levaquin trashed my gut and damage my nerves and tendons along with my central nervous system. I have spent over 200,000 trying to get better

I sold my property & spent most of that trying to get better the last 2 years around £160000. I'm stony broke now on disability benefits which I'm putting away for acquiring N. I can relate unfortunately in uk no one understands mold toxicity & I also have reactivated ebv & all my genetic disorders worsened as a result I wouldn't be surprised if I have lyme as well thh. But I've had genetic disorders all my life they just weren't major I still functioned until mycotoxins got into my ear in lockdown & I've gone rapidly downhill since then already having a connective tissue disorder &:low immune system. No hope of recovery now all my muscles &:nerves completely destroyed. My sinuses &:ears congested & I've had electricity burning in my body & jolts for 9 months it's relentless torture.

 

[Pharmaruined]

I sold my property & spent most of that trying to get better the last 2 years around £160000. I'm stony broke now on disability benefits which I'm putting away for acquiring N. I can relate unfortunately in uk no one understands mold toxicity & I also have reactivated ebv & all my genetic disorders worsened as a result I wouldn't be surprised if I have lyme as well thh. But I've had genetic disorders all my life they just weren't major I still functioned until mycotoxins got into my ear in lockdown & I've gone rapidly downhill since then already having a connective tissue disorder &:low immune system. No hope of recovery now all my muscles &:nerves completely destroyed. My sinuses &:ears congested & I've had electricity burning in my body & jolts for 9 months it's relentless torture.

Yea.. I spent everything too.. was set to retire.. now I'm broke dick..I still have a house.. ready to sell that.. it sux.. I can guarantee u have lyme..we all do..most of the time it just hangs around causing little issues with people then when there's an opportunity BAM , it takes full advantage and makes life hell along with everything else . All these bugs run in packs.. only way out is to change the inner terrain, cuz u can't kill them all.. chelating toxic metals is a huge step but again it's not overnight and needs to be done gently, not just ripping them out . That's why I'm still mineral balancing.. dumped a ton of metal.. I do have a gut protocol that helps alot of people just on it's own.. I can send if u want.

It involves several fibers and resistant starch. At least u can get your gut working well.. I haven't met anybody it doesn't help and for some life changing..

 

[facel]

I also have Lyme disease and mold. It is Hell on Earth! But I was severely damaged by the antibiotic Levaquin and that caused everything in the first place. I think I had a dormant case of Lyme disease but Levaquin trashed my gut and damage my nerves and tendons along with my central nervous system. I have spent over 200,000 trying to get better

Yes, I too have been "floxed" by a fluoroquinolone antibiotic (ciprofloxacin). The medical profession has no clue.

Yea.. I spent everything too.. was set to retire.. now I'm broke dick..I still have a house.. ready to sell that.. it sux.. I can guarantee u have lyme..we all do..most of the time it just hangs around causing little issues with people then when there's an opportunity BAM , it takes full advantage and makes life hell along with everything else . All these bugs run in packs.. only way out is to change the inner terrain, cuz u can't kill them all.. chelating toxic metals is a huge step but again it's not overnight and needs to be done gently, not just ripping them out . That's why I'm still mineral balancing.. dumped a ton of metal.. I do have a gut protocol that helps alot of people just on it's own.. I can send if u want.

It involves several fibers and resistant starch. At least u can get your gut working well.. I haven't met anybody it doesn't help and for some life changing..

I'd appreciate having a look at that if possible.

 

[Chockles]

Yea.. I spent everything too.. was set to retire.. now I'm broke dick..I still have a house.. ready to sell that.. it sux.. I can guarantee u have lyme..we all do..most of the time it just hangs around causing little issues with people then when there's an opportunity BAM , it takes full advantage and makes life hell along with everything else . All these bugs run in packs.. only way out is to change the inner terrain, cuz u can't kill them all.. chelating toxic metals is a huge step but again it's not overnight and needs to be done gently, not just ripping them out . That's why I'm still mineral balancing.. dumped a ton of metal.. I do have a gut protocol that helps alot of people just on it's own.. I can send if u want.

It involves several fibers and resistant starch. At least u can get your gut working well.. I haven't met anybody it doesn't help and for some life changing..

Thanks but I've had constipation since birth a genetic defect hypotonia, autism, EDS the list goes on . U can't fix my sinuses ears & jaw the muscles are destroyed & misfiring nerves over my body 18 months now. I'm also bed bound & no help to look after myself too much damage to my cns. I'm ready to find a way to die now.

 

[Pharmaruined]

Thanks but I've had constipation since birth a genetic defect hypotonia, autism, EDS the list goes on . U can't fix my sinuses ears & jaw the muscles are destroyed & misfiring nerves over my body 18 months now. I'm also bed bound & no help to look after myself too much damage to my cns. I'm ready to find a way to die now.

Yea, I'm sorry buddy.. I wish you a peaceful journey. Anything is better than being trapped in a broken body/ cage.

Yes, I too have been "floxed" by a fluoroquinolone antibiotic (ciprofloxacin). The medical profession has no clue.

I'd appreciate having a look at that if possible.

Sure, I'll pm u..