glittergore
the sea, the sea
- Jun 16, 2020
- 119
I will echo a conversation I'm sure many of us have had: I was speaking to someone about the most prominent reasons I'm suicidal during this junction and they threw out the, "You don't really want to die, you want the pain to stop." They said this to me like it was supposed to trigger some sort of epiphany. I have heard this before, but for whatever reason, I started to think about what this assertion means and its implications.
For some people, I can see there being a profound functional difference between the two desires. If you just want the pain to stop, then there are enough things in life you find worthwhile, meaningful, or at the very least pleasurable that you still have a will to live, and knowing this fact is essential for determining if you want to try to remedy or cope with that which is causing you pain. Therefore, this could be a useful thing to tell someone. On the other hand, not every case is like this; for some, that which causes pain cannot be remedied or coped with at all, or if it can, it's highly improbable, not within the person's individual capacity/capability, or doesn't make enough of an impact to make living worth it. So, hearing that it's "just pain" seems like it's missing the point. To put it in a different way, if the pain is that inherently tied into life, either life itself or the individual's life, then not wanting pain anymore and wanting to die becomes synonymous.
I've often seen this angle used to explain all suicides and suicidal ideation, but like stated above, I really don't think it applies to everyone. There's going to be a large portion of the population that never understands this because death being legitimately desirable is inconceivable to them, but I knew this group would.
For some people, I can see there being a profound functional difference between the two desires. If you just want the pain to stop, then there are enough things in life you find worthwhile, meaningful, or at the very least pleasurable that you still have a will to live, and knowing this fact is essential for determining if you want to try to remedy or cope with that which is causing you pain. Therefore, this could be a useful thing to tell someone. On the other hand, not every case is like this; for some, that which causes pain cannot be remedied or coped with at all, or if it can, it's highly improbable, not within the person's individual capacity/capability, or doesn't make enough of an impact to make living worth it. So, hearing that it's "just pain" seems like it's missing the point. To put it in a different way, if the pain is that inherently tied into life, either life itself or the individual's life, then not wanting pain anymore and wanting to die becomes synonymous.
I've often seen this angle used to explain all suicides and suicidal ideation, but like stated above, I really don't think it applies to everyone. There's going to be a large portion of the population that never understands this because death being legitimately desirable is inconceivable to them, but I knew this group would.