Lost cherry
Student
- Oct 21, 2023
- 144
i feel like bird in cage. I feel like i am living in emotional jail.
Leavesfromthevine
Untreated Trauma
- Nov 23, 2023
- 339
I put on a facade all the time to try and prevent people from feeling the way I do even if it's temporary. The way you can't have a bad day without people being disappointed is hellish
Lost cherry
Student
- Oct 21, 2023
- 144
Yes !!
My friends pissed me off. I dont hide from them that I want ctb. in the beginning they were worried, but now they are angry with me because they say they feel like accomplices. and they keep saying that Im selfish and that I dont love them if I do that. they do not understand that my life is my suffering which they cannot feel. it would be much easier for me if I didnt have my family, ex and friends trying to talk me out of it. they will not succeed. but I feel that there is some kind of manipulation. I have been depressed for so long that I accepted it as something normal. the last few days I spend more time with my friends than usual and I noticed that it makes me very tired. I feel ok when Im in my room and talking with people on the site.
My friends pissed me off. I dont hide from them that I want ctb. in the beginning they were worried, but now they are angry with me because they say they feel like accomplices. and they keep saying that Im selfish and that I dont love them if I do that. they do not understand that my life is my suffering which they cannot feel. it would be much easier for me if I didnt have my family, ex and friends trying to talk me out of it. they will not succeed. but I feel that there is some kind of manipulation. I have been depressed for so long that I accepted it as something normal. the last few days I spend more time with my friends than usual and I noticed that it makes me very tired. I feel ok when Im in my room and talking with people on the site.
