Venting The curse: I don't want to die - but circumstances force me to CTB (sooner or later)

[Praestat_Mori]

Does anyone feel the same? Can anyone relate?

 

[iloverachel]

There are few days where I feel a bit better and don't want to die, but most the time I want to die.

If I could magically cure my anxiety, depression, anhedonia, PTSD, bipolar, and also be accepted by society, then maybe i would not want to die. But that doesn't seem likely at all

 

[iloveduster]

Honestly, yeah. If only I had a more peaceful history I'd probably be writing books and doing things that are considered meaningful. Everything "fun" from my life is gone and I lost everything. I'm broke, I'm extremely lonely and I'm almost always in pain. On top of that my mental pain deteriorated into physical pain, and even my unhealthy coping strategies don't help much. I have nothing to hold on to, but the fear of me failing even ctb is scaring the hell out of me. I'm just slowly rotting away and praying that I could find a peaceful way of leaving this cruel world as soon as possible.

 

[Unknown21]

Does anyone feel the same? Can anyone relate?

Lol, this is exactly my case, it's a struggle. I still want to try a lot of things in life but I don't have the opportunity to do anything.

 

[winterparty]

Yes. I can relate. It's worse for oneself