My experience with this phenomenon was at the age of 17. I was high and drunk staring out at a lake. There was a calling to walk into that lake and enter the void.
What makes this interesting is that it was a blissful moment before and after. Nearly 30 decades since I still find that in my most blissful states, the void calls loudest.
In my normal state of mind the faint allure of nothingness is my present companion; however, it goes to a new level the happier I get.
On the flip side, when I'm in pain, I can hear the void beckoning; however, I instinctively I know that's not when or how I will enter it.
This has been a Nearly life-long journey understanding why the void beckons so strongly at my happiest.
Does anyone else experience this phenomenon?
What makes this interesting is that it was a blissful moment before and after. Nearly 30 decades since I still find that in my most blissful states, the void calls loudest.
In my normal state of mind the faint allure of nothingness is my present companion; however, it goes to a new level the happier I get.
On the flip side, when I'm in pain, I can hear the void beckoning; however, I instinctively I know that's not when or how I will enter it.
This has been a Nearly life-long journey understanding why the void beckons so strongly at my happiest.
Does anyone else experience this phenomenon?
