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NormaJeane

NormaJeane

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Mar 24, 2021
648
The 1 million dollar question: How do you find the courage to die in a bad and painful way? How do you overcome your survival instinct? But humans should have euthanasia, not only our pets. We are the bravest people on earth - we should prove it to ourselves and others!
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
The 1 million dollar question: How do you find the courage to die in a bad and painful way? How do you overcome your survival instinct? But humans should have euthanasia, not only our pets. We are the bravest people on earth - we should prove it to ourselves and others!
Yes please
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,290
I think for me, it will be when the pain of living gets to be unbearable, and I get desperate. Only then will I be able to leave. Of course suicide is very difficult as we are programmed to survive. I think if I actually knew the answer I would already be gone.
 
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cambrai33

Traveller
Nov 3, 2021
386
Right now I am calm, silently prepping 3 different methods to ctb, closer to the time I will choose which.

Si is a bit of a shit, in my mind I plan to take something that will sedate or alter my mind so that rational thinking is impossible. At the moment I don't connect with myself anyway, it's like I'm looking in, this being the case my mind is somewhat disconnected from my body already.

If it's a jump, at 30m I will just start running to the edge and try and empty my head. The other methods I have the means in place but they will take a bit more planning to find the right environment to carry it out

Failure is not an option so planning well is all I can do to mitigate things
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
I think the only way is, when you are feeling so bad, with no way out, that a slow, bad, or painful death won´t matter to you anymore, cause living causes more pain .
 
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coffee

coffee

Peace!
Jul 23, 2021
121
It's sooo simple. Just buy N. Can't afford? Get SN.
Between one bottle of N costs 20 dollars in Mexico. Just google pentobarbital Aranda precio.
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.
 
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thefoodispoison

Student
Oct 14, 2021
108
It's sooo simple. Just buy N. Can't afford? Get SN.
Between one bottle of N costs 20 dollars in Mexico. Just google pentobarbital Aranda precio.
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.
So of course the PPH says to go to Mexico to buy N for cheap, but a lot of those stories seem to be from years ago. Has anyone on this forum been successful with that, I wonder?
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.
People are scared. What's so hard to understand about fear?
 
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coffee

Peace!
Jul 23, 2021
121
I really agree. That's fear.
Maybe I am very different in this regard
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
792
It's sooo simple. Just buy N. Can't afford? Get SN.
Between one bottle of N costs 20 dollars in Mexico. Just google pentobarbital Aranda precio.
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.
It's not that simple. SI this is very heavy shit and you will understand it when you yourself are on the verge of CTB
 
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setup

Experienced
Nov 18, 2021
279
It's sooo simple. Just buy N. Can't afford? Get SN.
Between one bottle of N costs 20 dollars in Mexico. Just google pentobarbital Aranda precio.
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.
I'm sure things are different for different people. What if flying is not an option due to Covid? Everyone has their own struggles and their situation may be different.
 
Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,075
I am not afraid of the process of dying, I am afraid of not existing anymore. This is irrational, because my existence will end in the near future anyhow and I will regret nothing when nobody and nothing is there anymore that could regret anything. This is my survival instinct and instincts are not rational at all. SI becomes the stronger the closer the date of death approaches, so an early point of no return would help. I would choose euthanasia when it would mean, that I sign a contract to be killed a certain time before my death and after that it is impossible to change my mind. I am wondering if I will get this for 1 million euros.
 
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xLosthopex

xLosthopex

Tell my dogs I love them
May 29, 2020
1,133
It's sooo simple. Just buy N. Can't afford? Get SN.
Between one bottle of N costs 20 dollars in Mexico. Just google pentobarbital Aranda precio.
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.

Ugh it's like listening to a broken record seeing this same ignorant bloody comment over and over….
SI is SI, doesn't matter what the method is, whether you're drinking N or SN or any other lethal substance, even if there's a significant difference in the level of suffering experienced in the death itself, overcoming SI is required to actually drink the substance in the first place… which is the issue myself and many other members on here are dealing with, despite having N or whatever other method they've chosen
 
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Hercules

Hercules

Arcanist
Jan 31, 2021
408
The 1 million dollar question: How do you find the courage to die in a bad and painful way? How do you overcome your survival instinct? But humans should have euthanasia, not only our pets. We are the bravest people on earth - we should prove it to ourselves and others!
Well personally I plan to do everything I can to avoid dying in a bad and painful way. I guess there really is no good way to die, but I will chose a method that is as quick and painless as possible and hope for the best.

I have no idea how to overcome SI. If I knew the answer to that, I wouldn't still be here. I think that in order to overcome SI completely, you have to become very desperate to the point where you lose all hope. You have to be at a point where your life is so bad and painful that you would rather be dead than live another day. you have to be at the point where life scares you more than death does.
 
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markimobzzdeasui

markimobzzdeasui

Life is a cruel joke
Oct 24, 2021
1,150
For me there no other option than this. Although I have my SN with me and waiting for a safe environment to actually carry it out, should the method fail I am willing to go for a painful method as well if that ensures death. I just wish it doesn't comes to that. But considering my luck I am not sure about anything.
 
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holyspirit

Member
Nov 26, 2021
30
For me there no other option than this. Although I have my SN with me and waiting for a safe environment to actually carry it out, should the method fail I am willing to go for a painful method as well if that ensures death. I just wish it doesn't comes to that. But considering my luck I am not sure about anything.
Where did you source SN? Would be most greatful for link am desperate
 
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Lucas70

Member
Nov 23, 2021
74
The 1 million dollar question: How do you find the courage to die in a bad and painful way? How do you overcome your survival instinct? But humans should have euthanasia, not only our pets. We are the bravest people on earth - we should prove it to ourselves and others!
Terrorist can overcome SI.Even polical view or religious extremist die in the name of God.Its all in our mind.Those who CBT successfully have no knowledge of method that why they less afraid to ctb.The more we know about failure the more SI.We are exposed to so many infos of failed attempt consequences that why we still can't ctb
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
It's not that simple. SI this is very heavy shit and you will understand it when you yourself are on the verge of CTB
I can imagine the difference between fantasizing and chatting about CTB and actually doing it to be night and day… Actually pulling the trigger so to speak is terrifying… I went through it once and chickened out immediately…
The Fantasy is soothing and sure beats solving real life problems…
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,006
It's sooo simple. Just buy N. Can't afford? Get SN.
Between one bottle of N costs 20 dollars in Mexico. Just google pentobarbital Aranda precio.
I read people complaining about the taste of N. Holy fuck!!! People don't even are willing to die. These is so fucked up beyond human comprehension.
I've heard it's difficult even for Mexican citizens to get their hands on N. And it's not just about the taste like others have said. It's the survival instinct. Surely you should be able to understand, as you're alive and still on this site
 
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