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[Flying Away]

After tonight's messages from family I really don't have any reason to carry on. One person could have saved me but they don't want to. Last week was so full of hope. I knew it couldn't be true. I've tried to be better than I was but I lost everything because I acted too late. People if you have someone you love tell them now, show them now. If someone loves you, see it and accept it. Don't be like me. So wrapped up in mental illness that I didn't see what I had. Anyway running towards my last few days. Method is set. The end is in sight. Thank you to all who have interacted with me on here.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you hoped. It's a terrible feeling to lose the last glimmer of hope you had when it gets stripped away from you like that. I wish you the best of luck, no matter what happens next.

 

[Flying Away]

I'm sorry things didn't work out the way you hoped. It's a terrible feeling to lose the last glimmer of hope you had when it gets stripped away from you like that. I wish you the best of luck, no matter what happens next.

Thank you

 

[Medicmedic72]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Are you sure it is too late to repair things? Maybe you could repair the relationship with the one person that you spoke of that could have saved you?
I hope you find peace and happiness. You deserve it. We all deserve it, but many won't find it.

 

[Flying Away]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Are you sure it is too late to repair things? Maybe you could repair the relationship with the one person that you spoke of that could have saved you?
I hope you find peace and happiness. You deserve it. We all deserve it, but many won't find it.

Thank you. Maybe it could be but I can't wait any longer. Too much pain.

 

[jawdropped123]

After tonight's messages from family I really don't have any reason to carry on. One person could have saved me but they don't want to. Last week was so full of hope. I knew it couldn't be true. I've tried to be better than I was but I lost everything because I acted too late. People if you have someone you love tell them now, show them now. If someone loves you, see it and accept it. Don't be like me. So wrapped up in mental illness that I didn't see what I had. Anyway running towards my last few days. Method is set. The end is in sight. Thank you to all who have interacted with me on here.

I hope that your decision was made on a clear mind. And i hope you're not making permanent decisions on temporary feelings/situations. Loosing someone is extremely painful but from every relationship you will learn how to be better for your next one. I hope you have a great day.

 

[Flying Away]

I hope that your decision was made on a clear mind. And i hope you're not making permanent decisions on temporary feelings/situations. Loosing someone is extremely painful but from every relationship you will learn how to be better for your next one. I hope you have a great day.

It's not a snap desicion. It won't be the first attempt but I'm hoping it's the last.

 

[jamie_]

i am so sorry. i can relate. one person who could save me and could heal me would rather pretend i don't exist. they at the very least could mercy kill me and finish me off with the words of what they truly think but they don't even respect me enough to message me about that. instead it is just painful silence in response to desperate pleas. i am stuck in this limbo paralysed just constantly reaching for their hand that never comes

 

[Flying Away]

i am so sorry. i can relate. one person who could save me and could heal me would rather pretend i don't exist. they at the very least could mercy kill me and finish me off with the words of what they truly think but they don't even respect me enough to message me about that. instead it is just painful silence in response to desperate pleas. i am stuck in this limbo paralysed just constantly reaching for their hand that never comes

If its someone you love, tell them.

 

[jamie_]

If its someone you love, tell them.

believe me i have. they don't want my love anymore.

 

[Flying Away]

believe me i have. they don't want my love anymore.

I feel your pain. I hope they have a change of heart.

 

[jawdropped123]

It's not a snap desicion. It won't be the first attempt but I'm hoping it's the last.

Im really sorry to hear that. I really hope i meet you on the other side one day.

 

[Flying Away]

Im really sorry to hear that. I really hope i meet you on the other side one day.

It will be a pleasure.

 

[silentvoice]

I hope you find some peace in your life. Have you really tried all you can do?

 

[Flying Away]

I hope you find some peace in your life. Have you really tried all you can do?

I think so.

 

[silentvoice]

I think so.

I don't want to take away your right to do whatever you want, but I think you should try to see if it's really the last thing you can do, at least for your sake. I hope you find happiness either way though.

 

[jamie_]

I feel your pain. I hope they have a change of heart.

Me too. I have tried pretty much all I can do except turn up at their door but I don't wish prison to take away my ability to ctb

 

[Flying Away]

I don't want to take away your right to do whatever you want, but I think you should try to see if it's really the last thing you can do, at least for your sake. I hope you find happiness either way though.

It's the last thing left but thank you.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Are you sure it is too late to repair things? Maybe you could repair the relationship with the one person that you spoke of that could have saved you?

The thing is, repairing a relationship is not something one person can just make happen. You can try all you want - and it certainly sounds like @Flying Away was trying - but if the other person isn't willing, it doesn't happen.

There are so many stories like that on this site - people trying so hard to deal with heartbreak or overcome addiction or get a job or cure their illness or resolve trauma, and it just doesn't happen. The heart won't heal, the drug is stronger than they are, the job market sucks, the medicine doesn't work, their brain is permanently altered - it's brutal. It's absolutely fucking brutal.

 

[Flying Away]

The thing is, repairing a relationship is not something one person can just make happen. You can try all you want - and it certainly sounds like @Flying Away was trying - but if the other person isn't willing, it doesn't happen.

There are so many stories like that on this site - people trying so hard to deal with heartbreak or overcome addiction or get a job or cure their illness or resolve trauma, and it just doesn't happen. The heart won't heal, the drug is stronger than they are, the job market sucks, the medicine doesn't work, their brain is permanently altered - it's brutal. It's absolutely fucking brutal.

After 58 years I couldn't agree more. Brutal is the word

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Have you really tried all you can do?

Are you fucking kidding me??? What kind of bullshit question is that??? This person is in so much pain that they are preparing to kill themselves and you are questioning if they really tried to deal with a major source of their pain?! Are you an asshole or just stupid?

Comment has been reported.

 

[Flying Away]

Are you fucking kidding me??? What kind of bullshit question is that??? This person is in so much pain that they are preparing to kill themselves and you are questioning if they really tried to deal with a major source of their pain?! Are you an asshole or just stupid?

Comment has been reported.

Not sure why this comment was reported. I wish people could just get along.

 

[Shu]

Are you fucking kidding me??? What kind of bullshit question is that??? This person is in so much pain that they are preparing to kill themselves and you are questioning if they really tried to deal with a major source of their pain?! Are you an asshole or just stupid?

Comment has been reported.

There are tons of people that ask questions like this just to see. I honestly don't see the problem with it as many of us ask this question to people whenever they are talking about ending their lives. Many of us ask "Are you sure you have exhausted all options possible?"

Are you fucking kidding me??? What kind of bullshit question is that??? This person is in so much pain that they are preparing to kill themselves and you are questioning if they really tried to deal with a major source of their pain?! Are you an asshole or just stupid?

Comment has been reported.

YOUR comment has been reported as well.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Not sure why this comment was reported. I wish people could just get along.

I reported the comment b/c I thought it was really cruel - kicking you when you're down. Admittedly, the last sentence of my post could be considered cruel, so I need to address that.

You seem like you're in a lot of pain, and that makes people vulnerable. You're a grown-up and I'm not your mom, but I just felt really protective.

 

[Shu]

@Dot

I reported the comment b/c I thought it was really cruel - kicking you when you're down. Admittedly, the last sentence of my post could be considered cruel, so I need to address that.

You seem like you're in a lot of pain, and that makes people vulnerable. You're a grown-up and I'm not your mom, but I just felt really protective.

Nobody kicked anyone when they were down. If anything assuming and asking someone if they "are an asshole or just stupid" is kicking people while they are down.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Are you fucking kidding me??? What kind of bullshit question is that??? This person is in so much pain that they are preparing to kill themselves and you are questioning if they really tried to deal with a major source of their pain?! Are you an asshole or just stupid?

Comment has been reported.

@ silent voice, we clearly see your question differently. I could have expressed my strong disagreement better - more politely, more respectfully - but I didn't. I apologize.

@Dot

Nobody kicked anyone when they were down. If anything assuming and asking someone if they "are an asshole or just stupid" is kicking people while they are down.

I agree, which is why I have apologized. My anger got the better of me.

There are tons of people that ask questions like this just to see. I honestly don't see the problem with it as many of us ask this question to people whenever they are talking about ending their lives. Many of us ask "Are you sure you have exhausted all options possible?"

YOUR comment has been reported as well.

OK. I've already posted an apology, because I realized I was wrong.

 

[Shu]

@ silent voice, we clearly see your question differently. I could have expressed my strong disagreement better - more politely, more respectfully - but I didn't. I apologize.

I agree, which is why I have apologized. My anger got the better of me.

OK. I've already posted an apology, because I realized I was wrong.

@KrankyKitten It's okay. @Flying Away I'm sorry you are suffering so much and things have come to this. I wish you the best and hope you are able to make it through. I wish you peace in whatever decision you make. ♡ we are all here for you.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

@Flying Away, I'm sorry you are suffering so much and things have come to this. I wish you the best and hope you are able to make it through. I wish you peace in whatever decision you make. ♡ we are all here for you.

Ditto. And @Flying Away, I'm sorry I hijacked your thread and made it about me. Totally not my intention.

 

[Flying Away]

I reported the comment b/c I thought it was really cruel - kicking you when you're down. Admittedly, the last sentence of my post could be considered cruel, so I need to address that.

You seem like you're in a lot of pain, and that makes people vulnerable. You're a grown-up and I'm not your mom, but I just felt really protective.

Thank you. I appreciate it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. Living is just so painful and I know that it is hard to carry on when you suffer so much. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from your pain.