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[JustVisiting]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...e-to-get-this-out-nowhere-else-to-turn.28356/

My original story above. Thank you to ALL of you who acknowledged or replied with love and thoughtfulness.

I took a few days off from SS to regroup but i'm more suicidal than EVER before. the pain never ends.

The SN i had ordered did arrive the day after xmas. i suppose i feel better knowing i have it? of course i worry about getting it wrong, although i do have the exact instructions.

i don't know how much longer i can do this pain. i'm already dead inside and to add insult to injury, unless i sell everything we own, we'll be homeless in a matter of weeks.

this brain tumor has taken my entire life savings and then some and i STILL owe hundreds of thousands in medical debt. i'm not even cured. lol. health insurance covered very little. the system is so broken in the US.

yeah, so now onto living on the streets. my daughter can go live with a friend.

thanks for listening. thanks for the hugs and love don't know where i'm going next. have enough credit to get anywhere in the world. but a roof over my head to spend my final days would be nice. love to you

 

[Ark]

I am so sorry for your pain and situation. Mine is similar, Pancreatic Cancer. I don't even have insurance though. Went through all my money fast and it was all for nothing. I hope you find a way to keep a roof over your head, I wish I could help more than with well wishes and hugs but it is all I can offer.

 

[Nem]

I'm sorry to hear this, I spent thousands trying to heal damage that turned out to be a complete waste of money so I know how you feel. I hope a miracle happens
peace/hugs

 

[Soul]

@JustVisiting, I'm so sorry. I wish I could offer you more than well-wishes and virtual hugs.

Have you found a way to talk with your daughter about what's coming? Is there any way you two could go to a state where assisted death is legal? Can that organization someone pointed out (Compassion and Choice?) offer you any help? Can we?

Here are armloads of warm empathetic energy ...

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

@JustVisiting, I am so sorry that your are having to go through such turmoil. I wish there was a way that I could ease your suffering. If you ever want someone to talk to, my inbox is always open. I will be keeping you and your daughter in my thoughts and am sending you all the good vibes I can muster.

 

[Chronicillness]

I'm going through a similar process, although I'm not as advanced as you are. US healthcare is an abomination. It's unacceptable how you can spend all your life savings, your family's life savings, raise multiple successful "GoFundMe" campaigns and still end up even more damaged, sick and broken than before you started treatment.

There are multimillionaires spending millions on yachts and ridiculously spacious homes while there are millions of us who are on the brink of a prematrue death everyday. The rich and their trivial and frivolous hobbies and pursuits are glamorized and prioritized over the bottom feeders. Not only are we suffering with incomprehensible pain, fear and symptoms but we're also usually depressed, psychotic and hopeless. Fucking unfair. I never had a chance to have a life. All I know is chronic illness. This is fucking retarded.

 

[JustVisiting]

I'm going through a similar process, although I'm not as advanced as you are. US healthcare is an abomination. It's unacceptable how you can spend all your life savings, your family's life savings, raise multiple successful "GoFundMe" campaigns and still end up even more damaged, sick and broken than before you started treatment.

There are multimillionaires spending millions on yachts and ridiculously spacious homes while there are millions of us who are on the brink of a prematrue death everyday. The rich and their trivial and frivolous hobbies and pursuits are glamorized and prioritized over the bottom feeders. Not only are we suffering with incomprehensible pain, fear and symptoms but we're also usually depressed, psychotic and hopeless. Fucking unfair. I never had a chance to have a life. All I know is chronic illness. This is fucking retarded.

@Chronicillness - all of this! 100% accurate.

@JustVisiting, I am so sorry that your are having to go through such turmoil. I wish there was a way that I could ease your suffering. If you ever want someone to talk to, my inbox is always open. I will be keeping you and your daughter in my thoughts and am sending you all the good vibes I can muster.

@cosmicpixiedust - thank you for your kindness. yes, i may write you! thank you for offering.

@JustVisiting, I'm so sorry. I wish I could offer you more than well-wishes and virtual hugs.

Have you found a way to talk with your daughter about what's coming? Is there any way you two could go to a state where assisted death is legal? Can that organization someone pointed out (Compassion and Choice?) offer you any help? Can we?

Here are armloads of warm empathetic energy ...

@Soul - i don't know if you can help. i'm waiting for a reply from Compassion and Choice. it's not so easy to move to a legal state and then go through their specific red tape. yes, we discuss often. however, it's just us, so she's clinging to me with everything she's got. i feel trapped. thank you for writing me!

I'm sorry to hear this, I spent thousands trying to heal damage that turned out to be a complete waste of money so I know how you feel. I hope a miracle happens ❤❤❤❤
peace/hugs

@Nem - thank you for replying. i do wish a miracle for YOU as well!

I am so sorry for your pain and situation. Mine is similar, Pancreatic Cancer. I don't even have insurance though. Went through all my money fast and it was all for nothing. I hope you find a way to keep a roof over your head, I wish I could help more than with well wishes and hugs but it is all I can offer.

@Ark - i am so sad you are suffering with Pancreatic. sending all my hope and love

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Yours is a terrible situation. I wish I could do something to help. My situation is not yet as desperate but my future holds only slow deterioration. I'd be happy for you to pm me to chat if that helps.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...e-to-get-this-out-nowhere-else-to-turn.28356/

My original story above. Thank you to ALL of you who acknowledged or replied with love and thoughtfulness.

I took a few days off from SS to regroup but i'm more suicidal than EVER before. the pain never ends.

The SN i had ordered did arrive the day after xmas. i suppose i feel better knowing i have it? of course i worry about getting it wrong, although i do have the exact instructions.

i don't know how much longer i can do this pain. i'm already dead inside and to add insult to injury, unless i sell everything we own, we'll be homeless in a matter of weeks.

this brain tumor has taken my entire life savings and then some and i STILL owe hundreds of thousands in medical debt. i'm not even cured. lol. health insurance covered very little. the system is so broken in the US.

yeah, so now onto living on the streets. my daughter can go live with a friend.

thanks for listening. thanks for the hugs and love ❤ don't know where i'm going next. have enough credit to get anywhere in the world. but a roof over my head to spend my final days would be nice. love to you ❤

Im sorry you are having such terrible problems. If it's ok to chat or pm just let me know.

 

[JustVisiting]

Im sorry you are having such terrible problems. If it's ok to chat or pm just let me know.

thank you. i will write you.

Yours is a terrible situation. I wish I could do something to help. My situation is not yet as desperate but my future holds only slow deterioration. I'd be happy for you to pm me to chat if that helps.

@Underscore - i will write. thank you.

 

[chris8000]

This is such a sad story. It reminds me of what is happening to myself. I know the feeling of having to leave someone alone in the world, it's not nice.

Hope you find relief from suffering as much as possible before the end.