NoLoveNoHope
Mage
- Mar 25, 2023
- 566
This megathreads purpose is to say thank you to the community and to the people who help the site run. I've been a bit indecisive whether to put this in suicide discussion or off-topic and I think suicide discussion is a bit more appropriate however if it's a problem I can move it.
I also just wanted to say thank you to the community who have supported me and the staff who allow such a site to run. Before finding this site I was in the worst part of my life, finding such an encouraging non-judgemental place at my lowest was nothing short of a miracle. For once in my life I could be myself, show parts of myself that have been deemed a threat to society. To be quite honest, this site has been the only thing really keeping me going. Sure some people I liked have passed on but at least I have closure of it's what they wanted. Death isn't all that bad - one day that'll be me too.
I know a lot of people have and demonize this site saying: 'You never get help there' and other things but it doesn't bother me - they don't really understand the site, the people or me. The truth is I don't want help, I just want to be free. This site has made me felt liberated, I know what will kill me and how it'll kill me because this community is extremely smart. Today I actually saw a few member's IQ tests are they were all well about average (120+), I know IQ tests aren't accurate but it helps what I'm saying.
I always thought I was different to everyone, I never understood why I didn't want to get better when everyone told me it was the only way. I felt like an outcast - a freak of nature for this however finding such a community that has been pushed out of the view of everyone and called the exact things I was called I felt empathy. I eventually found the site was nothing like what I was told and found my home, I know saying like that sounds a bit iffy but that's the only way I can describe this feeling.
For once, something actually helped me - where society, conventional methods and the norm failed this site succeeded. I really felt that it was my choice. Not some symptom from some mental illness I was born with. I really felt more human instead of some ill freak, I had as much right as anyone else and if I used my rights to kill myself it was my choice. No matter how many times anyone told me I wasn't some freak or outcast I never felt different. Just seeing others exactly like me fighting against discrimination for not only themselves but for everyone just changed something inside of me.
I was told this site hated women, if you were a woman you were encouraged to kill yourself but just seeing the posts here about trans people talking and being supported but not only other trans folk but cis ones too. To this day I have never seen any community be so trans-accepting and understanding without being a trans community. I really felt normal once again instead of being some trans outcast and to be told to hide myself for my own safety. It was okay to be trans and others understood me was liberating,
I've found friends who truly do know me and that I am me. Nobody that deadnames me, nobody treating me like a 'snowflake' for being trans. I am exactly like them in every way.
I used to have a hard time sticking up for myself - after all I was some outcast. Now I can really fight for what I believe is right. No motivation speakers or anything of the kind. I have developed confidence due to being sure I was accepted and normal.
For this I am truly thankful, no amount of therapy can ever have the same effects as being apart of this community has for me. Just showing me that there's thousands just like me was enough. I am forever grateful to the staff, donors and community that help the site run. I have been truly touched.
I also just wanted to say thank you to the community who have supported me and the staff who allow such a site to run. Before finding this site I was in the worst part of my life, finding such an encouraging non-judgemental place at my lowest was nothing short of a miracle. For once in my life I could be myself, show parts of myself that have been deemed a threat to society. To be quite honest, this site has been the only thing really keeping me going. Sure some people I liked have passed on but at least I have closure of it's what they wanted. Death isn't all that bad - one day that'll be me too.
I know a lot of people have and demonize this site saying: 'You never get help there' and other things but it doesn't bother me - they don't really understand the site, the people or me. The truth is I don't want help, I just want to be free. This site has made me felt liberated, I know what will kill me and how it'll kill me because this community is extremely smart. Today I actually saw a few member's IQ tests are they were all well about average (120+), I know IQ tests aren't accurate but it helps what I'm saying.
I always thought I was different to everyone, I never understood why I didn't want to get better when everyone told me it was the only way. I felt like an outcast - a freak of nature for this however finding such a community that has been pushed out of the view of everyone and called the exact things I was called I felt empathy. I eventually found the site was nothing like what I was told and found my home, I know saying like that sounds a bit iffy but that's the only way I can describe this feeling.
For once, something actually helped me - where society, conventional methods and the norm failed this site succeeded. I really felt that it was my choice. Not some symptom from some mental illness I was born with. I really felt more human instead of some ill freak, I had as much right as anyone else and if I used my rights to kill myself it was my choice. No matter how many times anyone told me I wasn't some freak or outcast I never felt different. Just seeing others exactly like me fighting against discrimination for not only themselves but for everyone just changed something inside of me.
I was told this site hated women, if you were a woman you were encouraged to kill yourself but just seeing the posts here about trans people talking and being supported but not only other trans folk but cis ones too. To this day I have never seen any community be so trans-accepting and understanding without being a trans community. I really felt normal once again instead of being some trans outcast and to be told to hide myself for my own safety. It was okay to be trans and others understood me was liberating,
I've found friends who truly do know me and that I am me. Nobody that deadnames me, nobody treating me like a 'snowflake' for being trans. I am exactly like them in every way.
I used to have a hard time sticking up for myself - after all I was some outcast. Now I can really fight for what I believe is right. No motivation speakers or anything of the kind. I have developed confidence due to being sure I was accepted and normal.
For this I am truly thankful, no amount of therapy can ever have the same effects as being apart of this community has for me. Just showing me that there's thousands just like me was enough. I am forever grateful to the staff, donors and community that help the site run. I have been truly touched.
