TFW even weed doesn't help

[veryhappyhuman]

I recently read somewhere that weed helps calm the mind and remedy depressive thoughts for a bit. Someone even said it was a cure for suicidal ideation. Luckily I'm in a country where it's legal so decided to try it for the first time in my life (note, I've never even smoked tobacco or had alcohol before). Being a complete virgin to drugs I decided to start slow, so took an edible with 15 mg THC and 10 mg CBD. It was a proper cannabis establishment so I knew it was genuine.

The effect lasted for about 5 hours and I didn't enjoy one minute of it. At the start, I began uncontrollably laughing at nothing. It was mildly amusing for a few minutes to find myself laughing that hard after a long long time. But soon, I found myself desperately wanting to stop but couldn't (think of it like someone tickles you for like an hour -- it starts out fun for the first 5 sec then quickly becomes torture). After that the real nightmare started. Weird noises, everything sounding like loud music playing inside my ear, paranoia that I ll get arrested for some reason (even though some part of me knew I'd done nothing illegal in my life) that made me curl up on my bed, visual defects (like a zoomed out laptop screen no matter how close I brought it to my face) and on and on. I put on a comedy video on youtube to try and relax but I couldnt focus on what the guy was saying even for 5 sec. I got some dinner at my usual, favorite place but couldn't even enjoy the taste. It tasted extremely bitter (but the bitterness kinda came from the back of the throat as opposed to the tongue, which made it 10x worse). It was an absolute assault on all my senses. It also did not stop my CTB thoughts at all, in fact ironically I was wishing the weed I took would kill me by itself. I was just internally screaming and begging for the effects to stop the whole time; maybe externally screaming too, who knows.

I'm not saying weed is bad or trying to discourage anyone from getting high. Maybe it is pleasurable for others, maybe you need less of a fucked up mind to enjoy it. It's just sad that there's quite literally nothing in the world to help me at this point.

 

[stoiccactus]

Jesus Christ dude, starting at 15mg out of the gate is hardcore!! No wonder you had a bad trip. I take like half a 5mg edible and get pretty happily blazed. You gotta microdose that shit, brother.

 

[Celerity]

I had a bad time with weed. I also ate edibles. It seems more people encounter problems with edibles than smoking.

 

[stoiccactus]

Edibles take a long time to settle in, sometimes 2-3 hours and it depends on what kind of garbage is in your stomach so it can be a wild ride if you're not expecting it. Smoking hits you pretty much right away. I would say, start with half a 5mg edible, eat a bunch of peanut butter and try to listen to music.

 

[Cali101]

I get bad anxiety from weed. Pretty much the worst thing I could take to help cope.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Just like everything else, weed doesn't work for everyone, but at least you gave it a shot. Still 15 mg is a really strong edible to eat all at once, unless you're used to edibles and eat them on a regular basis. For me, I've found that I feel really good after eating 5 mg gummies, but anything more than that is too much. 15 mg would've had me freaking out too.

 

[stoiccactus]

Yeah, for beginners 5mg is the way to go. I'm pretty experienced and rarely go over 10mg.

 

[LittleJem]

I have 50 mg gummies and seem to be on five a day. I didn't realise that was so high...tolerance..


OP can you get Kava Kava or Kratom? Weed is good for me but some people find Kratom helps them.

 

[Mtnwildflowers]

Weed worked for me when I was young for maybe a year and then only ended up increasing anxiety, insomnia, racing thoughts, bipolar mania symptoms. Actually can make things worse

 

[GentleJerk]

Woah, you took too much. Especially for a first time. I'm sorry you had a bad experience.

I love weed and I've had the same experience, I find it really is important these days to have the right type of bud and take it easy. I have about 3-4 grams of dabs that have been sitting in storage for nearly a year and a half because it gives me anxiety, makes me panic and overthink.

No two plants are the same. Some strains are more panicky, anxious, edgy and cerebral like that. Edibles tend to be easier to accidentally overdose on. At least it's completely safe and no real danger, but it can be mentally unpleasant.

Also, unfortunately it's very common practice for growers to harvest buds before they are completely ripe, this early harvest stuff produces more side effects like trippy anxiety and paranoia.

I'm part of a few groups who share info about growing. If I had 1 million dollars for every time I saw overripe buds, I'd still be broke.

Imo the new LED light technology that growers are using also seems to produce weed that is more... "psycho" for lack of a better term. All the dispensary stuff is psycho LED weed. I would try to find some indica buds grown outdoors if you ever feel up to trying it again.

Sometimes even with the right strain, grown the right way, at the right dose, weed isn't for everyone. If that's the case, as @LittleJem suggested, Kava Kava is a fantastic choice, and I would highly recommend it, especially for anxiety, depression, insomnia. But be careful not to take too much, especially if you are driving as it can get you very drunk. Find a concentrated Kava extract and mix with honey. If it makes your mouth and throat go numb, you know it's good.

Kratom is apparently very good for pain. Even though I've never had the chance to try it, I'm familiar with the type of drug it is, so I know it's safe and not trippy, and I can recommend trying it too.

All the best!

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Jesus Christ dude, starting at 15mg out of the gate is hardcore!! No wonder you had a bad trip. I take like half a 5mg edible and get pretty happily blazed. You gotta microdose that shit, brother.

The lady at the store told me 10mg THC (especially with 10mg CBD to counterbalance it) is an ok dose for a newbie. I initially started off with that, but after an hour didn't feel anything. Remember that I'm a fairly big guy too, physique-wise. So I figured 5 more mg wouldn't hurt.

2 days after that bad trip, I had 5 mg left over from my purchase, and took that. Literally felt absolutely nothing. So IDK.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

15mg of a real, authentic edible from a dispensary is a very high dose to start with. The exact experience you are describing is a THC overdose. It's not fatal, but extremely unpleasant. Try 2.5-5mg if you decide to try it again. But sounds like it may not be something for you. Hope that your feeling better now!

 

[veryhappyhuman]

15mg of a real, authentic edible from a dispensary is a very high dose to start with. The exact experience you are describing is a THC overdose. It's not fatal, but extremely unpleasant. Try 2.5-5mg if you decide to try it again. But sounds like it may not be something for you. Hope that your feeling better now!

Yeah I was completely fine after those 5-odd nightmarish hours. But it burnt me badly enough that I won't be going near it after this lol.

 

[Eternally Dottie]

If you have too much it acts kind of like a bad LSD trip and becomes frightening. You have to wait for it to run it's course. Sounds like your dose was way too high. I don't know about edible doses though as it's not legal here. Smoking gives you more control over the effect and works instantaneously. It doesn't last that long either and is much more mellow a high in my experience