Tell me that I’m a horrible person.

[Burden_Bailey]

I'm a horrible person, and that's the truth. I have ruined everyone I know's lives. I want this horrible person to be told the truth, to help them realize it better. I'm not trying to get attention. I won't get mad at you. I just want you to tell me the truth.

 

[Rhizomorph1]

Are you narcissistic, sociopathic, or psychopathic?

If not I highly doubt you are a horrible person. Besides the people above, we are born with altruistic drives. Anyone who is not born without prosocial hardware is simply doing their best. Unfortunately many of us internalize negative self esteem because we are taught by the external world that we are not good even when we have good intentions.

"What is done out of love always takes place beyond good and evil" - Friedrich Nietzsche

As humans with an innate orientation towards love, we can't help but try to be good, despite the mistakes many of us make along the way.

 

[Tears in Rain]

I'm a horrible person, and that's the truth. I have ruined everyone I know's lives. I want this horrible person to be told the truth, to help them realize it better. I'm not trying to get attention. I won't get mad at you. I just want you to tell me the truth.

I haven't seen your old posts, why do you keep saying you're horrible? What have you done to believe this? (Without going too much into specifics)

 

[FallingGrace]

Go and defend the pedo in the other thread and I promise I'll tear you a new behind in all seriousness friend, I've only ever seen you post loveliness. If you're looking to CTB as an act of self-hate, I think you're coming at it from entirely the wrong perspective. Suicide should be the greatest, final act of self-love you ever do for yourself. Have you ever put down a pet? Did you do it because you hated them, or because you loved them and didn't want them to be in pain anymore? Think about it a bit

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

I don't know your story and I am not going to judge

 

[兎の耳]

I don't know what you've done, but as someone with depression and a lot of self hate I know your mind can twist your memories to make you seem like the villain in your own story. Regardless of what did or didn't happen, the past is in the past and dwelling on it will do nothing but cause you pain.

 

[Burden_Bailey]

I haven't seen your old posts, why do you keep saying you're horrible? What have you done to believe this? (Without going too much into specifics)

There's many reasons. My family constantly (and rightfully) scolds me and tells me that they'd be better off without me. I've been a very horrible friend, too. I have been venting way too much to my friend. One day, she was so worried about me dying that she couldn't function in school. They're many other reasons, too. It's clear that everybody would be better off with me dead.

 

[natthebrat]

I feel like a horrible person too a lot of the time. Mostly bc I'm not a well-functioning adult and can barely work. But I'd also say I'm very compassionate, and I could do more if the world was more accommodating of my autism, or if I didn't have autism in the first place. My point is, we all have good and bad traits.

I don't know what you did/ are doing that makes you feel like a bad person, but I can tell you no matter how bad it is/was, there's likely something contributing to your action(s) that wasn't your fault. One of the most comforting things I've ever heard, after I did make a truly awful mistake (unrelated to what I discussed above) and felt horrible about it, was that it was good that I could at least recognize that what I did to the other person was wrong and wanted to learn from it. I hope you can look at it as a chance to learn also.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Bro, I can 100% guarantee that I've done things in my past that will make you throw up. If you truly feel that you're an awful person and that you want to change;
then by all means lets talk. I'm here because I have changed after I've lost everything and because I can't move on.
I'm dying from emotional poisoning, I don't see it as suicide but as a sentence being carried out by myself
But, I in no way think that this should be the norm. So, lmk if you want to go into further detail about why you feel this way about yourself and what exactly you want to change about yourself.

 

[Abyssal]

I don't believe anyone is truly horrible, especially since horrible is subjective. We are all products of our genetics and environment, and those of us who are commonly seen as evil usually grew up in a rough situation or whatnot. One's actions can be wrong to me, but we are all just working with what we have been given.

Oh and ditto on what ctb dream said.

 

[hellispink]

I feel worthless too. However, i dont know you personally to be able to call you anything. I also dont have such right. We all have our mistakes burdens and baggage. I think you have enough with your own demons already