darkenmydoorstep
Not Waving But Browned Off….
- Sep 27, 2023
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Today I went to a tarot reader. I asked her would I ever meet my love. The man I fell in love with nearly four years ago after 'meeting' online. She said no, I won't.
Every day there is less of a reason to care. To go on.
I am going to South America in a few weeks (planned holiday) and have been reading the Peru/Nembutal threads with much interest. That would be my dream death. Sounds silly though but I've booked to take my son on holiday in June and I don't want to end it til I've done that as he's really been looking forward to the holiday and I would hate to ruin it for him. You might think 'why would I not want to ruin his holiday yet want to potentially ruin his life' but his additional needs mean he struggles with the three dynamic (me, his dad and him) so would actually in my opinion do better with one parent. Plus, no matter how much I love him, I can't endure misery for him or anyone else.
Every day there is less of a reason to care. To go on.
I am going to South America in a few weeks (planned holiday) and have been reading the Peru/Nembutal threads with much interest. That would be my dream death. Sounds silly though but I've booked to take my son on holiday in June and I don't want to end it til I've done that as he's really been looking forward to the holiday and I would hate to ruin it for him. You might think 'why would I not want to ruin his holiday yet want to potentially ruin his life' but his additional needs mean he struggles with the three dynamic (me, his dad and him) so would actually in my opinion do better with one parent. Plus, no matter how much I love him, I can't endure misery for him or anyone else.