talking to doctors feels like playing chess

[xXSufferingXx]

you can't tell doctors shit. i have a phone appointment with my doc tomorrow, and i'm sitting here
writing down things i should say.
because i can't just talk freely.

sadly, i have to lie, because that's the way it is.
i'm writing down sentences i suspect she might ask me, and then with my answer beneath lol.

i'm obviously talking about the whole sending you to the looney bin if you even slightly imply you're suicidal.
those kinda things.
which will make your life even worse than before.

that's one aspect to the dysfunctional medical system.

i learnt the hard way to not be honest with everyone.
so if they wanna play the dishonest game... then it's only fair i do the same.

 

[InversedShadow]

Can't blame you when the system is like it is at the moment

 

[xXSufferingXx]

Can't blame you when the system is like it is at the moment

yeah, thanks.
it doesn't exactly scream prosperity when you find yourself writing down a script to call your doctor lol.
because you have to have lies prepared

 

[jakelonely]

I feel the same way

 

[happy2die]

I feel exactly the same way. the only way I can talk about suicide is if I say it as if I experienced it years ago and feel "WAYY better"

 

[xXSufferingXx]

I feel the same way

sorry to hear.
yeah it's terrible and stupid.
how can you ever get out of a bad situation if you can't speak freely, without getting locked up?
you can be the most rational person in the world and give the vaguest hint of suicide, like:
"i've struggled with these things for decades and it doesn't get better.
sometimes i almost kinda wish i didn't have to experience it anymore"

and BOOM! you're off to the looney bin with actual crazy people.
and it goes on your record.
it affects your life.
now you hav restrictions and stuff, because your record says you were locked up in a crazy hospital.

so now you're off even worse than before.
oh yeah that's great lol

I feel exactly the same way. the only way I can talk about suicide is if I say it as if I experienced it years ago and feel "WAYY better"

yeah, we have to find these little clever ways, or get-arounds or "tricks" or whatever... in order to speak freely.
that's not optimal

 

[BillyBob]

It is very hard to find any doctor that will actually listen before going completely overboard and reporting you for the slightest little thing.
These doctors then go on to wonder why some people do not get better by going and seeing them.
They are blind to the point that when someone can not tell you anything or has to lie every time someone sees them that there is an issue in the system.

It took me along time to finally get my doctors onside of me with what I wanted and that I would love to have an assisted death.
Not a thing here really in NZ atm and my doctor quit. Also she said that should would never do anything like that due to the fact she wants to save lives not end which is fair enough.

Mental health is another can of worms where it is even worse. Every appointment I get the obligatory "If you feel like harming yourself ring us or go to the emergency department". Been in this rodeo to know that you never want to do either of those. Instead it is best to just keep quiet.