Venting Talking feels impossible.

[To_bareTo_tear]

I think I hate venting or just talking about myself in general. But the issue with that is that it's so necessary if you want friends you need some sort of "common ground" for them to even think of you as human it goes for online spaces too why you're here what it is you need their all so necessary. But it's just tiring I can't be bothered to look at myself like that even the most basic facts about myself where I was born who I know I want to be purged of it maybe I'm simply a hyper live in the moment type of person but my identity my entire personhood feels like a cage. It's exhausting to maintain. People will only care about a certain type of person at a certain time and life is appealing to that to your own detriment till you can't keep up a mask anymore. I wish I was nothing and everything all at the same time it's not like I wish I wasn't alive I just don't want to be perceived or perceive. Blind mute and deaf I just want to feel something anything really. But I can't for some reason even likes even support it's like I'm not real. I wish I weren't sometime too. I wish it was easier.