It goes without saying that it's ok, as the quiz suggests, to ebb and flow in life regarding your life's purpose. It is, however, a core need we all have and part of the highest level on Maslow's pyramid (achieving actualization). It's ok if you never got there, who am I to say you'll never get there? And you know, it takes what it takes. It might be a while, it might not. I do think, however, that having a purpose in life and not feeling suicidal go hand in hand. If you haven't watched the video I shared with Dr. Bessel van der Kolk, you should watch it and you'll understand what I'm talking about (it's in the recovery category forum, titled "Watch this if you feel suicidal"). This is to address the points you folks raised, which are totally valid. If you felt invalidated in any way, shape or form, know that I'm sorry and that that wasn't my intention with this post. Please do take care of yourself, and, ask yourself: what are your strengths and how can you lean into them to derive purpose in your life? And if you don't know your strengths, would you be willing to explore the subject with a trained professional specialized in treating complex trauma?