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neverever
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- Dec 10, 2020
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What symptoms contribute most to your desire to CTB? Typically, I am depressed and anxious, so the contributing symptoms are anhedonia, insomnia, thought intrusion, restlessness, and so forth. Recently, though, I have additionally become paranoid. I think that people are watching me on camera and listening to me through wires. Probably because they are. And I think that a certain person who is close to me is hoping or even plotting for me to die. I believe that this person arranged the recent bad turn of events in my life so that I would want to die, and that the person is daily planting triggers and deceits to push me past the brink. Knowing that the person wants me to die actually makes me want to fight to live, but the paranoia makes me want to get out as soon as possible.
Anyway. If mental or physical illness lead you to SS, what symptoms make you most suicidal?
Anyway. If mental or physical illness lead you to SS, what symptoms make you most suicidal?