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ravendrops

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Apr 5, 2026
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Part of the reason I am suicidal is because I'm experiencing psychosis and delusion symptoms in a sustained intractable way. The (sick) salience parts of my brain believe things so disruptive to executive function and so preoccupying that my life has been torpedoed for 3 years. I'm now bracing for homelessness.

Symptoms persist (paranoia, grandiose stuff, erotomania, govt conspiracy, time-travel, mind-reading, etc). Meds have not helped. Have tried Olanzapine, Abilify, Risperidone, Lithium. Therapy has not helped my psychosis. Have crippling cPTSD symptoms from fake memories.

Has anyone dealt with persistent bizarre thoughts/psychosis? How do you cope?

I'm about to be homeless and don't have motivation to get better with my symptoms the way they are.
 
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adamantc

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Mar 29, 2026
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I have, apparently, psychosis. Not sure about it, as it is real as can be. Perhaps it is others' delusions, and I am the only one seeing truth. They seem to be along the surveillance/murderers targeting me path. I have had prescriptions for plenty of antipsychotics, but they don't work: this is a real issue that cannot be alleviated by medicines. I continue living for others, not for me: if i lived for myself, i'd be dead. Despite being pretty 'severe' to psychiatrists, I continue to work at my workplace and function reasonably well to others. let others motivate you, not yourself.
 
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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
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You are quite lucid about it. My antipsychotics help a lot. I still experience paranoid thoughts but I can distance myself from them when they occur. Feedback of people I trust helps a lot. I wonder when you can describe your symptoms that well whether you lose control to reality completely or only in temporary episodes.

I cannot work though but this caused by the combination of my different mental health conditions and I also fear poverty a lot.
 
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endboss

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Apr 8, 2026
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Part of the reason I am suicidal is because I'm experiencing psychosis and delusion symptoms in a sustained intractable way. The (sick) salience parts of my brain believe things so disruptive to executive function and so preoccupying that my life has been torpedoed for 3 years. I'm now bracing for homelessness.

Symptoms persist (paranoia, grandiose stuff, erotomania, govt conspiracy, time-travel, mind-reading, etc). Meds have not helped. Have tried Olanzapine, Abilify, Risperidone, Lithium. Therapy has not helped my psychosis. Have crippling cPTSD symptoms from fake memories.

Has anyone dealt with persistent bizarre thoughts/psychosis? How do you cope?

I'm about to be homeless and don't have motivation to get better with my symptoms the way they are.
Have you tried clozapine? I take it and it helps when everything else doesn't. It takes some getting used to, though.