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Survivivng ctb but still feeling dead

StrawberryRed

StrawberryRed

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Oct 16, 2024
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About 3.5 months ago I spontaneously tried to kms 3 times in about 2 weeks. Since then I feel like Ive completly lost all care for my life. Im not even close to being as depressed or suicidal as i was but I cant get myself to do anything anymore becasue i just dont give a shit lmao. When I attempted a major driver was all the things in my life I thought I was failling at. I was obsessive about perfecting my life. Now Im doing even worse and I just cant seem to care at all. The only things I do are out of ABSOLUTE necessity. Ive become so anhedonic, I feel like a robot version of myself. Like I really did die and I just dont know it yet. Did this happen to anybody else?
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

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Sounds like a major burnout, also do u happen to have autism
 
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StrawberryRed

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ipmanwc0 said:
Sounds like a major burnout, also do u happen to have autism
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haha i get that a lot . As far as I know I dont, Ive never been tested. my brother does though
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What led you to this?
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To trying to kms? I was insanely depressed and felt like it would never end. I had a minor stressor really set me off and went kinda crazy lmao.
 
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cecil

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StrawberryRed said:
About 3.5 months ago I spontaneously tried to kms 3 times in about 2 weeks. Since then I feel like Ive completly lost all care for my life. Im not even close to being as depressed or suicidal as i was but I cant get myself to do anything anymore becasue i just dont give a shit lmao. When I attempted a major driver was all the things in my life I thought I was failling at. I was obsessive about perfecting my life. Now Im doing even worse and I just cant seem to care at all. The only things I do are out of ABSOLUTE necessity. Ive become so anhedonic, I feel like a robot version of myself. Like I really did die and I just dont know it yet. Did this happen to anybody else?
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I thought I was the only one. I literally do not care about life at all anymore. I'm already not taking care of myself and already cut ties off of everyone, including the closest people.
 
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