Surviving Today

[Giraffey]

Today is an anniversary of sorts, I don't really want to get too much into why because I'm trying to avoid thinking about it. Perhaps later in the day though. I'm on day three of my starvation and should be entering ketosis at some point which marks the official beginning of the hunger strike. I discussed the strike with a doctor friend of mine yesterday and he has some concerns about complications, so I have that on my mind. To top it all off, I'm currently writing my second non-fiction book, my fifth book in all. So the plan for today is to distract myself as much as possible, mostly with writing because otherwise, I will completely fall apart.

Somehow, I will survive today.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I have faith in you, Slow. You do what you gotta do, mate.

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry for you. I hope everything works out.

 

[timf]

I hope things work out for you. I had a strange encounter on a Greek Island 50 years ago where i had to go over four days without food. I found is was increasingly difficult up till the fourth day. Then it seemed less difficult. I don't know if this will be you experience or not, but you might want to use hunger pains as a way to manage the tendency of writers to get distracted. It can work like a timer to help keep you on task.

If you are only not eating, but still drinking, you may want to include fruit juices or even something like Gator Aid so that you don't throw off your electrolytes. You may wish also to consider grape juice as drinking only water can quickly deplete potassium levels.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Hope you are doing okay @SlowMo

 

[sufferingalways]

Today is an anniversary of sorts, I don't really want to get too much into why because I'm trying to avoid thinking about it. Perhaps later in the day though. I'm on day three of my starvation and should be entering ketosis at some point which marks the official beginning of the hunger strike. I discussed the strike with a doctor friend of mine yesterday and he has some concerns about complications, so I have that on my mind. To top it all off, I'm currently writing my second non-fiction book, my fifth book in all. So the plan for today is to distract myself as much as possible, mostly with writing because otherwise, I will completely fall apart.

Somehow, I will survive today.

Hi I don't understand why you are doing that. I thought you had support? Regards what you said about the victims code. Or am I mistaken somewhere?

 

[Sensei]

OP, only you know how to fight your fight, but I wish you good luck in your endeavours!

 

[Giraffey]

Thank you all for the kind words of support, I appreciate them greatly. I suffered a setback a couple of days ago on day three of the fast, someone I had been in contact with was showing Coronavirus symptoms and was awaiting a test. I sought advice from a trusted doctor friend of mine who begged me to postpone the fast until the result could be determined, his logic being that were I to develop Coronavirus then in my fasting state and with a weakened immune system it could be very serious and if complications developed there would be no time for negotiations.

Reluctantly, I postponed the fast so my new start date is tomorrow. I feel like a failure, but I didn't give in due to food cravings or weakness; it was a rational and tactical decision based on medical advice. I'll continue to update once I reach the official beginning around day three (when ketosis begins). Just to add, I'm taking only water and a B1 supplement to ward off some of the nastier neurological complications and give myself a longer period of time to negotiate (a pure hunger strike without supplementation would cause death in around six weeks). I have the option to terminally end the strike at any time, I would imagine that once I go past two weeks with no calorific input, death would follow within a week if I were to stop taking the supplement.

@sufferingalways - You didn't misunderstand, I do have the option for support which I'm currently working on. But this is about wider issues, this is about my right to be recognised as a victim and for my abusive ex to be officially recognised as an abuser - only then can I receive the protection from her that I need. As I mentioned in another thread, I have to live and work under a false name because of the continued risk of her trying to cause me harm. I shouldn't have to live like this. Support is a good first step, but if I am to stand any hope of having some semblance of recovery long-term then it needs to change. My arguments are sound, it's a matter of getting the right people to listen, I know you too understand how difficult that is

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

As I mentioned in another thread, I have to live and work under a false name because of the continued risk of her trying to cause me harm. I

How can you work under a false name when your work requires a license or professional credential to practice?

 

[Giraffey]

How can you work under a false name when your work requires a license or professional credential to practice?

It was a slightly misleading phrasing on my part. I previously changed my name to one that my ex is not aware of. But it is not what I consider to be my real name. I am licensed and accredited under that legal name. I would like to revert to living and working under my birth name.