Survived Partial Hanging Last Night

[Drewpeterson519]

So you may have seen my posts on here looking for a good hanging setup/method. Last night I had it perfect. I checked into a hotel room and brought some strong Nylon Rope & a pull up bar. When I got to the hotel room unfortunately there was no place to hang the pull up bar. But to my luck, there was a very sturdy steel bar next to the bathroom door. I decided I would try tying the rope to the bar, throwing it over the door and hanging on the other side.

At first I couldn't really develop the courage to try. I was just sitting on the bed crying. But after some vodka I managed to take the edge off, get serious and down to business. I tied a strong knot to the metal bar, threw the rope over the door and tied a slip knot on the other end. I slipped my head in, threw my legs in the air and did a "jump" into seating position. I saw a flash of light and felt a very intense pain around my neck and felt myself blacking out. However, my survival instinct kicked in and I stood up which aborted the operation. My eyes full of stars, I untied the knot from my neck which was still very tight but I managed to do it. My windpipe felt fucked up and I had red marks all over my neck. It's definitely not as bad this morning but it still hurts and the marks are still there.

Part of me feels like I should be grateful I survived. The other part feels like I'm a wimp and should have just stuck it out. But I definitely think the intense pain I felt has a lot to do with my survival instinct kicking in. That's the thing with Partial Hanging. It's really easy to back out of when the survival instinct kicks in. All you have to do is stand up. And when I felt all that pain like my head was going to explode and my windpipe was going to snap, I think my body just kind of said "No way fuck this shit" and stood up. Now If I was doing full hanging, I wouldn't be here right now because despite the survival instinct there would have been no escape. I can't say if that's a good or bad thing at this point. I thought I really wanted to die but after last night I'm kind of unsure.

Many of you reading this probably think I'm a wimp. Maybe I am. Idk. I don't know what to think :(

 

[Thin Chew]

I used partial hanging too 1 years ago, I tied rope on a window bar and since it's a little higher, not that high. I totally used the Syrian girl method, she stand on a book and when the rope curl around her neck. She starts to kick the book. That's what I do and then I started to felt weak and heard a very loud sound from my ears. It's strange because it's almost midnight and there's no car nor anything that can make sound outside my house. After that sound, my SI kicks in and I started to struggle, my hand were slapping like a mad robot, my legs kicks like a crazy man and the feeling of struggling, it's not a normal feeling of what other feel. It's like you CANNOT control your body. After struggling a few second, finally the rope loosen and I fall onto the ground, I climb up my bed gasping for oxygen and that's the part I failed my first partial hanging.

 

[Bigpink]

Definitely not a wimp, it takes great courage to even attempt this. Dying is very hard and si kicking in makes it hard to cross that line. I've not even attempted this method yet. And it's such an extreme act it would make you wonder. Because we cant cross that threshold doesn't mean we want to be here.

 

[Ghost2211]

You're not a wimp. CTB is often as hard as living. It's unfortunate life is this hard for us. Take care of yourself while you heal and recover. I'm sorry you went through this.

 

[Pookie]

You're not a wimp. Survival instinct is a biological process, it has nothing to do with your character.

 

[Scotty]

You are not a wimp! It is difficult. I have tried a short-drop hanging twice and failed both times due to SI. I guess that I am now looking into methods that limit the SI factor. Please take care of yourself.

 

[ihavetoleave]

You are not a wimp, partial hanging is very difficult. I've tried many times and I always end up giving up due to discomfort. I really don't know how some people make this work, in vids I have seen of people who are successful with CTB they use full instead of partial. Full seems terrifying and I don't know how people are able to do this, they are a lot more courageous than I am.

 

[Nodscene]

I've thought of this method and I'll be honest and say I'm scared of a full hanging. I'm worried about damage to my windpipe and breaking my neck and becoming a quadreplegic.

I figured with partial hanging (no drop) you can just lean into the rope until you pass out and that would be the end. It seems like the hardest part is getting your corotid arteries on both sides of your neck blocked for it to work properly.

 

[Pookie]

You are not a wimp, partial hanging is very difficult. I've tried many times and I always end up giving up due to discomfort. I really don't know how some people make this work, in vids I have seen of people who are successful with CTB they use full instead of partial. Full seems terrifying and I don't know how people are able to do this, they are a lot more courageous than I am.

With full there's no way of backing out. I guess they're desperate enough to go for full. Most of the vids I've seen they lose consciousness pretty quickly.

I've thought of this method and I'll be honest and say I'm scared of a full hanging. I'm worried about damage to my windpipe and breaking my neck and becoming a quadreplegic.

I figured with partial hanging (no drop) you can just lean into the rope until you pass out and that would be the end. It seems like the hardest part is getting your corotid arteries on both sides of your neck blocked for it to work properly.

You can break your neck with a long drop hanging but with a short drop that's pretty unlikely.

 

[iDieUDie80]

Nobody here thinks you're a wimp. I'm glad you're still here with us.

Hanging is my method of choice, and I am specifically trying to avoid having the head exploding feeling occur. You just jumped with it around your neck? Where was it placed?

 

[Drewpeterson519]

Nobody here thinks you're a wimp. I'm glad you're still here with us.

Hanging is my method of choice, and I am specifically trying to avoid having the head exploding feeling occur. You just jumped with it around your neck? Where was it placed?

The slip knot was just tied around my neck. I didn't pay much attention to actual placement on the neck. I tied the other end to a very sturdy metal bar and threw it over the door.

As far as the head exploding feeling, I don't remember it being THAT overwhelming. Idk though hard for me to recall exactly. But I do remember the worst part being the rope crushing my windpipe. Hurt so bad.

 

[the_final_countdown]

I've been reading about people who commit suicide by hanging or jumping. A lot of them seem to suffer from bipolar disorder and so I often wonder whether that seems to give them the temporary ability to override the survival instinct.

 

[sweetbraid]

So you may have seen my posts on here looking for a good hanging setup/method. Last night I had it perfect. I checked into a hotel room and brought some strong Nylon Rope & a pull up bar. When I got to the hotel room unfortunately there was no place to hang the pull up bar. But to my luck, there was a very sturdy steel bar next to the bathroom door. I decided I would try tying the rope to the bar, throwing it over the door and hanging on the other side.

At first I couldn't really develop the courage to try. I was just sitting on the bed crying. But after some vodka I managed to take the edge off, get serious and down to business. I tied a strong knot to the metal bar, threw the rope over the door and tied a slip knot on the other end. I slipped my head in, threw my legs in the air and did a "jump" into seating position. I saw a flash of light and felt a very intense pain around my neck and felt myself blacking out. However, my survival instinct kicked in and I stood up which aborted the operation. My eyes full of stars, I untied the knot from my neck which was still very tight but I managed to do it. My windpipe felt fucked up and I had red marks all over my neck. It's definitely not as bad this morning but it still hurts and the marks are still there.

Part of me feels like I should be grateful I survived. The other part feels like I'm a wimp and should have just stuck it out. But I definitely think the intense pain I felt has a lot to do with my survival instinct kicking in. That's the thing with Partial Hanging. It's really easy to back out of when the survival instinct kicks in. All you have to do is stand up. And when I felt all that pain like my head was going to explode and my windpipe was going to snap, I think my body just kind of said "No way fuck this shit" and stood up. Now If I was doing full hanging, I wouldn't be here right now because despite the survival instinct there would have been no escape. I can't say if that's a good or bad thing at this point. I thought I really wanted to die but after last night I'm kind of unsure.

Many of you reading this probably think I'm a wimp. Maybe I am. Idk. I don't know what to think :(

youre not a wimp at all! survival instinct is just built into your life, you cant really control what you do when you're in that mode. you standing up wasnt a conscious decision, its your brain being like 'haha no dont die, if i do this i will continue live'. so no youre not a wimp. thank you for sharing your experience. im sorry youre in this spot :( in my culture, we believe that in this sort of situation, it wasnt just survival instinct that kept you alive it's also that you have a purpose here, you have yet to do or experience or learn something and Creator is trying to keep you alive to fulfil that purpose.
i hope you have an okay [timezone] <3

 

[Disperato]

The slip knot was just tied around my neck. I didn't pay much attention to actual placement on the neck. I tied the other end to a very sturdy metal bar and threw it over the door.

As far as the head exploding feeling, I don't remember it being THAT overwhelming. Idk though hard for me to recall exactly. But I do remember the worst part being the rope crushing my windpipe. Hurt so bad.

Where can one find the instructions for this, if I may ask?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Absolutely not a wimp. I think you're brave for even considering this method. I know I wouldn't be able to do it. Think it also makes sense that a part of you feels grateful that the attempt failed. Life's experiences (in my experience) seem to be very influenced by contrast. When you are in pain/fear, just being free of it makes you grateful.

This has been a massive shock to your body. It might re-adjust your feeling about living perhaps. Whatever happens, I wish you all the best. Please don't see this as a 'failure' though. I personally think anyone who attempts suicide has shown tremendous courage- whatever the result.

 

[FuneralCry]

This is an old thread. I hope that the OP found relief from their suffering. That experience sounds so terrifying. I have never attempted hanging before, it scares me and I would fear it going wrong in some way.

 

[Deleted member 847]

Why are people reviving these old threads
Lol Just let them be

Op just couldn't get enough pressure for his neck type
Hanging done right should feel like going to sleep
your neck or head shouldn't hurt

It is a method mostly suited for girls and feeble men, I have to concede.
I used to be believe any one could do it, but after seeing so many people
struggle with it, I'm not so sure anymore

It's all about being able to compress the carotid arteries of your neck
(with a soft ligature)
that's what makes it painless from my personal experience.

The padding/softness of the ligature is very important