Survival Instincts are a b*tch!

[Stepheng7287]

Sat in my car an hour ago with the SN in my hand and my body just wouldn't let me drink it. Just couldn't move my arm towards my mouth. Don't think I've ever been this scared in my life. Had to pour it on the ground and now I'm at home hating myself more than ever. Have to go into work tomorrow and explain why I didn't show up.

I have absolutely nothing in this world to live for yet I can't make myself do it.

 

[Pookie]

Yup, SI is a bitch indeed. Are you scared of the potential effects you'll feel when taking the SN or just the finality of it all?

 

[sephlove]

I'm supposed to CTB tomorrow, and I feel the exact same way. I've prepared everything and I now my mind is backing out. Even though this is something I've planned and felt for a LONGGG time. Ugh.

 

[Stepheng7287]

Yup, SI is a bitch indeed. Are you scared of the potential effects you'll feel when taking the SN or just the finality of it all?

I was more afraid of getting found, being hospitalised and having to explain myself.

I see why people do this in a hotel room now. I would love to do it at home on my bed but I'm not having my parents find me.

 

[puppy9]

It's a bitch indeed. Been there.

 

[Stepheng7287]

It's a bitch indeed. Been there.

SN? Or?

 

[puppy9]

SN? Or?

SN the stat dose one. Had the paper cup on my hand, but I scared myself to failure.

 

[neverever]

I was more afraid of getting found, being hospitalised and having to explain myself.

I see why people do this in a hotel room now. I would love to do it at home on my bed but I'm not having my parents find me.

I am afraid of this too.

What do you all think of walking far into the woods and then drinking SN? Would the distance from civilization mitigate the risks of being found? Just thinking out loud.

 

[Endeavour]

I am afraid of this too.

What do you all think of walking far into the woods and then drinking SN? Would the distance from civilization mitigate the risks of being found? Just thinking out loud.

Probably

 

[Meditation guide]

I have absolutely nothing in this world to live for yet I can't make myself do it.

I'm at that point too. I'm afraid of doing it. There must be a solution. I'm also afraid of drinking it and then calling for help.

 

[Endeavour]

I'm at that point too. I'm afraid of doing it. There must be a solution. I'm also afraid of drinking it and then calling for help.

Same. It's that final step that's getting me every time.

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm at that point too. I'm afraid of doing it. There must be a solution. I'm also afraid of drinking it and then calling for help.

If only I could get someplace far enough away from civilization that even if I called for help they wouldn't find me in time.

I know myself well and I would probably panic after I drank it.

 

[Endeavour]

Has Stephen left us?

 

[WornOutLife]

I understand what you're saying. SI sucks!
I'm so sorry you've failed but, there will be more chances so, wish you the best next time!

 

[Endeavour]

I understand what you're saying. SI sucks!
I'm so sorry you've failed but, there will be more chances so, wish you the best next time!

I think he's gone dude.

 

[WornOutLife]

I think he's gone dude.

Yeah I saw his crossed out username and thought the same.
Well, wherever he is, I hope he's at peace. He was a nice guy.