I love you :)
i think about you
and i resent myself and my actions.
After days of coping and distracting myself i tried to build up the courage to do it, do die. started yesterday by not eating or drinking anything ( except for some water ) and also not using any device at all. all by myself simply sleeping or trying to in the room. after 24hrs or something, i realized why i fail everytime and i am failing yet again.
i am just too sensitive now, too emotional, too timid and too empathetic probably. add selfishness to it too, a lot of it and that is my personality now. i'll never die like this. i need to change and i need to stop thinking about the repercussions of my death. it all ends when i die so stop thinking about the aftermath everydamned time.
problem 1 - he learns about your weaknesses through your behaviour, habits and everything. afterwards he exploits them and enjoys it. stop giving him things to exploit.
problem 2 - if i were to walk naked on the streets, roam wherever i want, the men you would like to see startled and afraid while the women you simply don't have anything to do with so you don't care about any of those
i think about you
and i resent myself and my actions.
After days of coping and distracting myself i tried to build up the courage to do it, do die. started yesterday by not eating or drinking anything ( except for some water ) and also not using any device at all. all by myself simply sleeping or trying to in the room. after 24hrs or something, i realized why i fail everytime and i am failing yet again.
i am just too sensitive now, too emotional, too timid and too empathetic probably. add selfishness to it too, a lot of it and that is my personality now. i'll never die like this. i need to change and i need to stop thinking about the repercussions of my death. it all ends when i die so stop thinking about the aftermath everydamned time.
problem 1 - he learns about your weaknesses through your behaviour, habits and everything. afterwards he exploits them and enjoys it. stop giving him things to exploit.
problem 2 - if i were to walk naked on the streets, roam wherever i want, the men you would like to see startled and afraid while the women you simply don't have anything to do with so you don't care about any of those
