Discussion Suicide note for comments pls . Planning early september

[Graytaichi]

Any comments . It be nice to hear real sympathy. I got no friends no kinship. My only mum has left me i have no joy prolonging life only a matter of time. Im 40 yrs old ..pls let me sleep i beg god if theres any.

 

[Darkover]

hate to burst your bubble but there is no god, just a chemical soup and a bunch of atoms electrons and photons, all left to their own devices, all this stuff and there's no creator just the unfolding of developmental processes, the real deal the universe, is there any reason for us to be here maybe reincarnation failing that just nothing forever.

 

[Graytaichi]

hate to burst your bubble but there is no god, just a chemical soup and a bunch of atoms electrons and photons, all left to their own devices, all this stuff and there's no creator just the unfolding of developmental processes, the real deal the universe, is there any reason for us to be here maybe reincarnation failing that just nothing forever.

Its ok if theres no god for non existance is better than existance.

 

[Shu]

hate to burst your bubble but there is no god, just a chemical soup and a bunch of atoms electrons and photons, all left to their own devices, all this stuff and there's no creator just the unfolding of developmental processes, the real deal the universe, is there any reason for us to be here maybe reincarnation failing that just nothing forever.

Why would you even tell this to anybody? Especially at a time like this? I hate to burst your bubble but if you had any kind of empathy or compassion you would respect what other people feel and what other people believe.

 

[Graytaichi]

And what do u feel . I have failed my mum in many ways. Shes sinless like an angel. Only person i can confine to.

 

[Shu]

hate to burst your bubble but there is no god, just a chemical soup and a bunch of atoms electrons and photons, all left to their own devices, all this stuff and there's no creator just the unfolding of developmental processes, the real deal the universe, is there any reason for us to be here maybe reincarnation failing that just nothing forever.

besides you have no idea if there is a Creator behind all of this or not anyway. Nobody knows not even science.
@Graytaichi I'm sorry for what you're going through buddy. I know it must be really hard for you.

 

[Graytaichi]

Theres no point arguing if theres a god. For i tried bargaining with god for 10yrs of my life for her one month. Its cruelty putting me with my dad. I be hell anyway for sure. Maybe theres a god i have no chips to bargain anyway . I cant fail .
My SI is extremely low atm. So SN 2 glass 50gr for a 55kg body even at 90% potency can do the job. I have tested 3 times all the time blood turn brownish but im not sure i will vomit. So night i tend to have be less vomit. 11pm all asleep . Then ill will check in hotel and do my job.
Its just one day for body to decay i will keep drinking until i fall . Smell of decay will emit from the hotel im staying. I am really afraid of failing. They say people whom are close to dying have v strong sense. I seems to have that.

 

[Darkover]

Why would you even tell this to anybody?

because i believe it's better to know the truth than to believe in delusions, out of all the god man has created not one has been proven to exist

 

[Graytaichi]

Idk , i didnt write abt god in my letters cos we hav different fates. Its a taboo in my country so i do not want anyone to witness my cremation.....