Venting Suicide is too difficult of a task for a loser like me

[sleeplessboyinbed]

Im currently crying because i can't even manage to CTB. I had a deadline until September, and it's fucking August 31st and im still here. I want to cut myself as a punishment but i can't be caught. I hate everything so much. I want a meteorite to destroy our planet tonight so i don't actually have to kms. Everybody who calls suicidal people cowards don't know shit!!!!! This is the most difficult thing in my life, to actually fucking kill myself

 

[undecidedfool]

I have nothing to add but to say I understand. I have my method and I can't get out of bed to do it

 

[Shallow23]

I understand it is a very difficult thing to do. You are going against the basic survival instinct that humans have.

 

[DignifiedGrave]

Same. I feel super stuck even though i have sn and everything else and have followed my protocol to the drink two times. Both times I attempted hanging as well and though its peace part if me always stands. I feel regret and embarrassment every time I cant do it but I dont even want to live. I dont know what keeps me other than that my body hasn't yet the notion. Like my mind died already and my body is just waiting to follow. I wish my heart would stop beating.

 

[selsel]

Omg i totally get this feeling, im so sorry you feel this way, hugs.

 

[[redacted]]

Same. My fear of people is so bad I can't gather the courage to go buy sn.
I'm so inept I can't even kms