Sleeper System
Z z Z z Z z Z z Z z Z
- May 5, 2022
- 766
You were given life despite inconceivable odds against you from your very conception.
It's interesting to think about the role that self awareness and your perception of the world factor in.
I'm sure there was a time in everyones life where we had no concept of these existential nightmares
and simply existed in a state of neutral balance. It was neither good nor bad. It was just what it was.
Some where along the line your analytical brain powers up for the first time and your eyes are opened to reality.
You see the futility of the struggle and correlate it with your own unhappiness to justify self termination.
Living in that space, it feels like a cycle that is more damaging than even the realization of how pointless it all seems.
To clarify this prospective... It's like you're unhappy so you're suicidal and in being suicidal you remain unhappy.
All that tension builds up until you just can't take it anymore and want to end your own life just to escape it.
We can all relate to that in some way and I think we're locked into that "solution" until the day we die.
To not think about suicide is a disservice to your own intelligence but also a piece of knowledge not worth having.
If you can find a way to know, understand, and accept the concept without falling into the black hole... you are a better person than I.
Some people come to understand that the only way to escape life is... ironically... to live it. Just make it to the end of the road.
One of my low key high key fears is getting to that point and then clinging to life at the last moment.
Coming to some grand realization that I couldn't think of when I had all the time in the world to search for it.
What a bitch slap in the face that would be, honestly. It's all about your prospective.
The best days aren't when i'm happy. They're when i'm so focused on something that I forget "happiness" is even a goal or "sorrow and despair" are even an outcomne.
Get so caught up in living that i'm not thinking about if i'm happy or sad. Keeping busy is one of the tricks worth mastering to combat ideation.
As to the title of this thread, It's not the words at face value. It's the deeper meaning. Suicide is the easy way out.
If you really understand, then you know that the statement is true. If you can disagree, then you'll be proven wrong every time.
It's interesting to think about the role that self awareness and your perception of the world factor in.
I'm sure there was a time in everyones life where we had no concept of these existential nightmares
and simply existed in a state of neutral balance. It was neither good nor bad. It was just what it was.
Some where along the line your analytical brain powers up for the first time and your eyes are opened to reality.
You see the futility of the struggle and correlate it with your own unhappiness to justify self termination.
Living in that space, it feels like a cycle that is more damaging than even the realization of how pointless it all seems.
To clarify this prospective... It's like you're unhappy so you're suicidal and in being suicidal you remain unhappy.
All that tension builds up until you just can't take it anymore and want to end your own life just to escape it.
We can all relate to that in some way and I think we're locked into that "solution" until the day we die.
To not think about suicide is a disservice to your own intelligence but also a piece of knowledge not worth having.
If you can find a way to know, understand, and accept the concept without falling into the black hole... you are a better person than I.
Some people come to understand that the only way to escape life is... ironically... to live it. Just make it to the end of the road.
One of my low key high key fears is getting to that point and then clinging to life at the last moment.
Coming to some grand realization that I couldn't think of when I had all the time in the world to search for it.
What a bitch slap in the face that would be, honestly. It's all about your prospective.
The best days aren't when i'm happy. They're when i'm so focused on something that I forget "happiness" is even a goal or "sorrow and despair" are even an outcomne.
Get so caught up in living that i'm not thinking about if i'm happy or sad. Keeping busy is one of the tricks worth mastering to combat ideation.
As to the title of this thread, It's not the words at face value. It's the deeper meaning. Suicide is the easy way out.
If you really understand, then you know that the statement is true. If you can disagree, then you'll be proven wrong every time.