• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
T

Thisismyflightsong_

New Member
Sep 23, 2025
4
like seriously why does it have to be so hard?
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: dontsaveher, CTB Dream, Sannti and 2 others
[Lord Void]

[Lord Void]

Member
Sep 14, 2025
61
I know right? The methods I've looked at that sound nice (if done correctly) sound complicated and easily overwhelm me. The ones that are nice and simple are blocked by the government. But yeah just boils down to society condemning it and the human body being wired to not do that.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: CTB Dream, pthnrdnojvsc, sanction and 1 other person
sanction

sanction

sanctioned
Mar 15, 2019
710
I know right? The methods I've looked at that sound nice (if done correctly) sound complicated and easily overwhelm me. The ones that are nice and simple are blocked by the government. But yeah just boils down to society condemning it and the human body being wired to not do that.
I actually had similar thoughts the other day. Any easier methods are blocked from us. Fuck this world. We're just all forced here, then stuck, with no easy way out. What the hell is this shit????? I'm sooooo tired of this life and world. We are truly stuck in hell
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: CTB Dream, Hollowman, Whole-Ad and 1 other person
T

Thisismyflightsong_

New Member
Sep 23, 2025
4
I know right? The methods I've looked at that sound nice (if done correctly) sound complicated and easily overwhelm me. The ones that are nice and simple are blocked by the government. But yeah just boils down to society condemning it and the human body being wired to not do that.
what method is your preferred?
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: CTB Dream
[Lord Void]

[Lord Void]

Member
Sep 14, 2025
61
what method is your preferred?
CO however if it was possible the most ideal would be something like N or Pentobarbital, basically a sedative given at a lethal dose that would basically feel like going to sleep and never waking up. CO would feel similar if successful but isn't as quick or reliable as a sedative.
 
Last edited:
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: CTB Dream, pthnrdnojvsc and Thisismyflightsong_
S

StoneBridge

☁️
Sep 7, 2025
164
Yes, way too difficult especially if you don't want to do it once again.
 
  • Hugs
Reactions: CTB Dream
Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Absolutely! + when you have ocd and have to check everything 100000x well then its nightmare. I just wanna die by fucking hanging but it's thoughts like oh no this knot might open this way or oh no what if someone changes plans amd interrupt me oh no what if the beam has this issue…..just pure bullshit i'd be dead since winter 2024!! But no the what if questions exhaust me.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: prettyclam, CTB Dream and pthnrdnojvsc
MyShadow

MyShadow

Left the forum to pursue recovery
Aug 27, 2025
475
My 89 year old mother simultaneously had a massive stroke and a widow-maker heart attack. Yet somehow, a year later she's still alive. Albeit in a nursing home, half paralyzed and unable to care for herself. She's both my reminder of how strong the body is and the example of why I don't want to get old.

For how fragile humans are, we are surprisingly resilient and that damned survival instinct is strong.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: CTB Dream, Hollowman and kurgan
Wrath

Wrath

Long live my dead dreams.
Dec 12, 2024
93
If I didn't have an overthinking problem, I would have died quickly in the first part of last year. But I just had to overthink, and now I'm here with albeit, a 'better' method. Shotgun vs poison. But it still takes so much damn planning, especially since I have to go off the guides a little bit. Then planning stuff like last day etc. I know that it doesn't really matter what I do last day, but I have anxiety problems and I don't want to somehow forget something important to me. I want to die with my stuffed animals.
I agree, suicide is difficult. Fuck the government for banning N.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: CTB Dream and pthnrdnojvsc
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,177
I understand, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing are denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just want to never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing, it's just so horrible to me how we exist in this anti-suicide world.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: RadioGaga and CTB Dream

Similar threads

G
Replies
2
Views
230
Suicide Discussion
gardenhouse
G
M
Replies
1
Views
235
Suicide Discussion
Hopel3ss
Hopel3ss
The Disqualified
Replies
1
Views
189
Suicide Discussion
randomuser2348
randomuser2348
nails
Replies
9
Views
606
Suicide Discussion
nails
nails
A
Replies
1
Views
163
Suicide Discussion
FuneralCry
FuneralCry