i can try and explain what i can here on this post about this website.
there are different catorgories within the website where you can post things relating to that catorgory,
suicide discussion for talking about SI and things that may contribute to that feeling, along with people's stories and discussion about the topic as a whole
recovery where you can ask for help if you so wish, this website isnt to encourage death but to respect the decision to ctb, granted that's what the person truly wants. don't be afraid to ask for actual help here.
and off topic where you can post anything not having to do with the other two topics.
everyone has the option to react or reply to ur post and view them and you can also find resources and info regarding different ctb methods in the suicide discussion catorgory, most of which are painless. you may even find methods that can work in conjuction to ur circumstances. these resources are given so that if you do decide to ctb, it can be not as painful in ur last moments, peaceful even. you may even post a question regarding what method people think may be best for ur situation.
if you are looking for an actual suicide coach im afraid you may not get one here without guidelines being broken. then again im unsure of how common it actually is. like i said, most of us do not encourage the act, but respect it as a right.
i hope you are able to find what you're looking for here though. and to offer sentiment i do know the feeling of being almost scared to make decisions on ur own. this place really does give you a sense of community though.
sending love <3