Suicide because of not being happy

[Canon1]

Hey guys!

I will be completely honest: I am 33 years old and got a bachelor's degree and a good job as well as a beautiful girlfriend but I am not happy.

I am deeply depressed because of "just" having an ordinary life with an ordinary job. I fee like I just can be happy if I am rich or famous or at least someone who did something great and moreover I feel not tall enough. I stand at 184cm and I want to be 190 which is impossible that's why I always feel deficient.

These two things really annoy me. Furthermore I feel completely bored by everything. Don't want to even talk to anyone. Even speaking itself is like a strain for me. I have no social contacts or friends because people didn't treat me well, so I quit the friendships.

Right now my life consists of movies, workouts and work.

To sum it up, I feel depressed and I don't know what to do. Suicide is like a last option for me.

I want to go with SN and have it already. By the way, is it enough to keep it in the plastic bag in which it came or does it lose effect over time?

Best wishes

 

[omoidarui]

Have you spoken to your girlfriend about any of this?

Why do you have a problem with being 'only' 6ft, that's still taller than most. Not negating your feelings tho, just wondering.

You say you want to be known as someone who did something great, in any specific field and well, is there any possibility of you aspiring to do that instead of ctb? Or change your present routine to something that excites you more?

I can resonate with you about being not bothered with life, but you seem uncertain about whether the alternative is for you so I'm just putting this out there. I wish you well whatever you decide though.

SN isn't my method so I dunno

 

[Still fighting]

Hey guys!

I will be completely honest: I am 33 years old and got a bachelor's degree and a good job as well as a beautiful girlfriend but I am not happy.

I am deeply depressed because of "just" having an ordinary life with an ordinary job. I fee like I just can be happy if I am rich or famous or at least someone who did something great and moreover I feel not tall enough. I stand at 184cm and I want to be 190 which is impossible that's why I always feel deficient.

These two things really annoy me. Furthermore I feel completely bored by everything. Don't want to even talk to anyone. Even speaking itself is like a strain for me. I have no social contacts or friends because people didn't treat me well, so I quit the friendships.

Right now my life consists of movies, workouts and work.

To sum it up, I feel depressed and I don't know what to do. Suicide is like a last option for me.

I want to go with SN and have it already. By the way, is it enough to keep it in the plastic bag in which it came or does it lose effect over time?

Best wishes

If you hate your life, go hike Europe or something. There's more out there waiting for you.

 

[FireFox]

Canon1
I am sorry to hear that. You sound like someone who wants just meaning and fulfillment ans excitement their life. The sentence " i am just deeply depressed having an ordinary life with an ordinary job. I can be happy if i was rich or famous or did something great " reveals a lot.

There is a classical pharse which says happiness comes from within. Material things like an imitate partner, money etc can make life bearable and enjoyable but thesr things dont guarantee happiness.

Only you can make your self happy. It is difficult thing to do.

I have been depressed for years and i would give anything to be happy . I want to kill myself because i am unhappy and cant ever see my self as happy

I had an interesting conversation with my stepfather this week such a shame it really never went far . We were discussing is life worth living?

My stepfather believes life is worth living and believes people complaining about the lockdown restriction should be grateful they are alive for so many have died

I told him " it depends. Whether or not life is worth living really depends on individual. It is all a matter of perspective . Personally i dont think life is worth living
He interrupts saying "nonsense " and it laughs it off. The conservation ended like that.

People who are disabled, elderly or have experienced suffering etc can live happy and fulfilled lives .

I believe life is not worth living overall because of all the suffering , injustices, evil that exists in this world . The evil seems to outweigh the good.

The pandemic has shown the true selfishness and lack of compassion that exists within the human race.

Humanity selfishness will inevitably end the human race.
I am 23 but as time has go on i realise life isnt for me and i will never find my place in the world

I hope you find happiness. You deserve to be happy .
Please take care
Love
Firefox

 

[Nymph]

You're pretty tall already, you could make yourself higher by wearing insoles or platforms or something. There's also a surgery that can make you taller. I know that's not the main problem but it could help. I can understand not feeling like your life is special but honestly we are all little ants in this huge universe and nothing really matters anyways

 

[Canon1]

Thanks for your answers. I simply don't see any meaning anymore in life. My life consists basically of watching movies and being at home. I feel completely disconnected to the society. I can't even go out to meet someone because I instantly feel uncomfortable.

Have you spoken to your girlfriend about any of this?

Why do you have a problem with being 'only' 6ft, that's still taller than most. Not negating your feelings tho, just wondering.

You say you want to be known as someone who did something great, in any specific field and well, is there any possibility of you aspiring to do that instead of ctb? Or change your present routine to something that excites you more?

I can resonate with you about being not bothered with life, but you seem uncertain about whether the alternative is for you so I'm just putting this out there. I wish you well whatever you decide though.

SN isn't my method so I dunno

Because I always strive for perfection. I want to be considered as a tall rich guy who is admired by women with a sportscar and a super modern appartement.

 

[Makko]

I feel similar. The only reason I'm not dead yet is that I can still have a bit of adventure in my life. Everything I do is a constant scramble to escape boredom. So far I've succeeded but it hasn't been easy, and it's only a matter of time before the boredom consumes me. "Normal" has always been an insult to me and a normal life wouldn't be worth anything. Unfortunately you can expect no sympathy from "normal" people who are content to live boring lives and will never understand what the hell you are even complaining about.

 

[signifying nothing]

POV, need to try and change it. Destroy the life you have if you have to.

 

[Zhontafly]

How about suicide cause life has the born in destiny of dying? Theres life all around us and its constantly fighting itself and other life to the death. What a wonderful world!
Praise Jesus! The guy who defeated death and all, but somehow his body is gone (DEAD)and he doesnt visit us or do miracles to prove that he defeated death. What a lovely heartworming delusional story of fiction.Mankind is hopelessly sick in the head. :D

 

[Readytogo246]

I understand being bored with lie. Life becomes life-less and I feel like a numb spectator. Days get longer and longer and I relish sleep. The monotony of day is excruciating. A long unresponsive sleep sounds good.

 

[peaceindeath]

Personally I would probably continue living if I were you. But there is no right and wrong when it comes to ending your life. It's your own pain and your own choice.